Disclaimer: I still don't own it, I dunno why you keep asking me...

AN: Yay! Fourth chappie

Secret Friendship

Chapter 4: Xigbar's past

They walked back to the castle and Xigbar started in on him.

"Dude, you know what will happen if he finds out don't you?"

"Yes, I know. I don't care, I just want to figure out why I feel this way around her."

"You can't-"

"That's bullshit Xigbar. Yes we can."

Xigbar shook his head.

"You're losing it man."

"Losing what Xigbar? What am I losing?"

"What little bit of brain you have."

"Yeah yeah, I just think that Xemnas is working us like slaves, and doesn't really care to get us hearts."

Xigbar was silenced, it made sense...

"Just be careful man, that's all I'm saying."

Axel nodded and continued walking forward. He was silently seething, hating being a part of this organization. Maybe Marluxia had been right, maybe he should destroy the organization, he had the power obviously, and maybe Yuffie could get her friends to help out...as long as they spared Xigbar of course.

No, that wouldn't work. He knew it. He walked into his room and flopped on his bed. Xigbar followed him in. He sat next to Axel and leaned back against the headboard.

"Just don't let him find out man, trust me on that. He'll kill her."

"How would you know?" Axel asked, looking up at the older nobody.

"Experience, little man."

Axel sat up.

"Tell me about it."

Xigbar nodded and closed his eye.

Flashback

Xigbar walked forward to the woman he loved. Scratch that, he couldn't love, but he felt something for her...

Anyway, he walked forward and she ran into his arms.

"Xigbar! I missed you so much! Where have you been!?"

"Around, just around." He said. He hated keeping secrets from her but, there wasn't much else he could do...

She rolled her eyes and kissed him softly. He kissed her back happily. She was wonderful, she never looked at him like a freak, and she loved his obsession with guns. She thought he was the best thing to ever walk this earth, and she was completely oblivious to the fact he didn't have a heart.

She pulled away and smiled at him.

"Well, you need to stop leaving for so long..."

"It's my job honey." He said, stroking her auburn hair that was so different from the rest of the town, paired with her pale skin she was very unique, and he loved it. She had such a petite frame that seemed just made to meld with his body. He'd wanted to cherish her forever, not to go to fast with her, to be easy with her...

But Xemnas had found out, and that was the only thing standing in Xigbar's path to happiness, which Xemnas knew and loved to lord it over Xigbar.

Well, that day Xemnas had made his move. He waited until they were back at the girl's house and-

End Flashback briefly

"Wait, what was her name?"

"That is for another tale."

Flashback resumed

He waited until they entered her house and appeared behind her, stabbing her five times, forcing Xigbar to watch her die slowly and painfully.

Before she died though, Xigbar was determined to tell her the truth.

"Baby, I'm sorry!" He cried over her. Xemnas had left him there. She grabbed onto him weakly.

"I don't have a heart, it's too complicated to describe right now, but I don't. I physically don't have a heart...so I can't feel...but I felt love with you! Xemnas couldn't handle it and killed you to get to me...I'm sorry..."

She kissed him one last time.

"It's okay, I forgive you, and I love you. Goodbye Xigbar..." She said, her breath ceasing.

Flashback done

Axel stared at the older nobody. Xigbar was crying softly, remembering his love. He wiped the tear that had escaped from his eye and he smiled.

"Don't let it happen to you, keep her a secret forever..." He said, leaving the room.