Chapter Four I Will Not Bow

Taming the Alpha

Written by AndiCullen104

A/N- Thank you so much for the reviews! This has not been beta-ed but will be soon.

I will not bow
I will not break
I will shut the world away
I will not fall
I will not fade
I will take your breath away

~I Will Not Bow by Breaking Benjamin

JPOV

Remember your anger, young Jacob.

I don't know what the feels like anymore.

Remember.

A chanting of voices chorused through the darkness, in a language that tickled my memory. The visions I had seen began to whirl past my eyes as they replayed. Other scenes soon joined them of people who I thought I should know. Faces that looked vaguely familiar. There were so many of them that I couldn't keep up with it.

There was a pressure on my chest and I wished it would go away because as the pressure grew it became more uncomfortable. I rubbed at it absently as if that would make it disappear, but if anything it became worse. My head began to throb in time with the chanting.

Suddenly the emotions that were absent came crashing down on me. It hit me with such force that I forgot to how to breathe for a moment.

A scream pierced the air.

My eyes opened to the forest I was lying in.

There was a storm going on and it seemed appropriate for the excruciating mental anguish I was currently in.

My back arched off the ground as the screaming continued. If I had been in the right state of mind, I would have known that the screaming was coming from me.

I remembered all the visions and I now knew that I had known each person in them. It was all overwhelming and my very human brain couldn't keep up with it. My hands clawed at my chest leaving cuts in my skin as if I could rip out the emotions that were coursing through me. Too much, was my only thought as I felt blood soak my fingers.

The absolute agony was so unbearable that I wished that the Spirits could go back to breaking my bones. That would be a better solution. Not this feeling of having my soul consumed in the blackness of these emotions.

It went on and on.

~~~~~TTA~~~~~

I wasn't going to give up.

Fuck the Spirits.

They can't break me.

The anger that I had suppressed all my life came roaring to life. It was like someone had doused me in gasoline and lit the match. Flames of rage licked at my insides and continued to spread till it burned brightly in every space of my body.

My heart pounded in my chest furiously.

I was panting from the exertion my body was going through.

No more.

No more pain.

No more weakness.

No more begging.

No more everything.

I was strong.

I could feel the power ripple through me making the fire hotter.

I never realized how angry I truly was.

Ever since my Mother died I had been bottling this fury inside of me and as I grew older the worse it had become. I hid it under the sunny Jacob that everyone thought I was. Oh how I hid it so well! No one had any inkling of the darkness that was inside of me just waiting for the right time to come rushing to the surface.

The anger I felt towards my Mom however unjustified that it was still bothers me. She promised to always be there but she wasn't because she left us. She died on me when I needed her the most.

I was mad at my sisters who left me to take care of our very sick father. I never truly realized how selfish they were that they could only see their own pain and not what we were all going through. They weren't the only ones to lose Mom.

I was pissed at becoming the wolf I never wanted to be, having all my choices and dreams taken away from me.

What really gets me is my supposed true love Bella. How blinded she's been to the love I know she feels for me. If only that fucking bloodsucker were to get out of her head. Bella has put me through a lot, and I still cried for her. Begged her to leave him for me.

All this rage kept building in me, and now it was time to use it.

It was going to make me stronger, faster, and better.

The darkness that was in that bottle was no longer confined to it anymore. I was drawing it out and into my very essence. It was what was giving me power.

No longer will I hide it.

I will use every last bit of it to my advantage.

I was the Alpha.

Welcome, Alpha Jacob.

~~~~~The night Jacob went missing~~~~~

SPOV

The phone ringing woke me from my sleep. I turned to Emily and saw she was still asleep, so I slowly slipped out of bed as to not wake her. I padded down the hallway and into the kitchen and picked up the phone.

"Hello," I greeted my voice thick with sleep.

"Sam, it's me Billy. I'm sorry to wake you up so early, but I don't know what to do."

"What's wrong?" I cleared my throat instantly feeling more awake from hearing the panic in Billy's voice.

"The Doc gave Jake permission to leave his bed, and he left. I thought he was going to go see Embry or Quil but he hasn't come back. I called them and neither of them said he'd been with them. Then I thought maybe he needed some alone time, but he is still gone." Billy spoke in a rush.

"When did he leave?" I asked already making plans to round up the pack.

"Yesterday morning."

"Okay Billy, I'm going to round up the pack and search for him. We'll find him, don't worry." I said before hanging up the phone. I had no clue where Jacob could have gone since it wasn't just like him to up and leave. Plus he couldn't have left because he would have had to clear it with me.

"What's going on?" I was pulled out of my musing when I heard Em's sleepy voice.

"Jacob is missing, I'm going to go look for him. Go back to bed, I'm sure everything is going to be fine." I said comforting my imprint and kissing her before leaving the house.

When I was under the cover of the trees, I pulled down my sweat pants. The familiar fire rippled down my spine causing my body to convulse and I found myself on four legs. I began running towards the Black's house. I titled my muzzle towards the sky and let out a howl calling my pack to me.

Voices filled my head as my pack members phased in.

Jake's missing, I explained when they asked me what was going on.

Who the fuck cares? He's probably over at the leech lovers. Leah grumbled cranky that she was woken for something that was trivial to her.

He's gone? Seth questioned worriedly.

Jacob wouldn't just leave without saying anything. Embry thought.

Everyone meet me at the Black's home, we're going to start from there. I ordered.

I didn't know why, but I was restless. Not from worry about Jacob, but there was a gut feeling I had that things were about to change. I had a feeling I wasn't going to be happy when it did.

A/N- Thanks for reading! I know I promised answers but Jacob really wanted things to go this way. Who am I to argue with him? ;)

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