A/N:

Note(s):

When I write '2 months later' Jacob will now be plus-minus 18 weeks along and it'll be viewed in the Pack's 3rd person POV sort of thing. This is sort of a filler chapter, I'm sorry :((.

Warning(s):

Dark thoughts involving abortion and self-harm

Shout_Outs:

KitKat Nikol: Thank you very much :)).

lytebrytehybrid88: I know :((. But he'll be alright... I think. He will, but not yet.

luvinlapush: And here is more for you, sorry for making you wait :((. No, not that, but for another reason that's not as extreme as having the Imprint fade.

aidabye: Yeah, he was Marking him, to show that Jacob is his. He is aware, but you'll find out why he even acted the way he did. Yeah, he does, doesn't he. He's a baby making machine *LoL*. I know, still gonna be more drama. And here's the next chapter.

Rat3000: Aaw, sorry, here's an update :)).

Guest: Yeah, that could work, just get rid of Renesme and Bella one time *LoL*, but after Renesme plays her part in reuniting Jacob with Edward *LoL*.

At first I though it would be Sam who'd have feelings for Jacob but then realised that that's not possible seeing as Sam's Impinted on Emily. So yeah, it's Jacob. But it's not so much that he's in love with Sam but more he wants to be in love with Sam and not be hung up on a guy that raped him.. It's explained in this chapter or the next one. And with the Jacob-Edward one you are correct. Jacob will be afraid to even be near Edward and Edward will be trying to pursue Jacob becuase Jake's his Mate and all that. Exactly, Edward pursues Jacob and Jacob pursues Sam.

Edward already knew that Jacob was his Mate but Edward being Edward wouldn't admit to his feelings. Jacob was oblivious to this and was busy fantasising about being with Bella and all that and it pissed Edward off. So in a fit of rage and wanting to show Jacob who he belonged to. He was angry at both Jacob and Bella, Jacob for thinking about someone else and Bella for trying to steal his Mate - though it wasn't so.

Star: Here's the next chapter :)).

Guest: Yeah, they'll get divored and she'll just go away with her daughter and Jacob and Edward and they're kid will be together all happy family... I hope *face_palm*.

khads: Thank you :)).

Disclaimer: Ney

Even In The Darkness

The day after Jacob found out about his pregnancy he spoke to no one. He spent all his time in his room and didn't come out of hiding. He refused to believe that he could actually be pregnant. Especially if the baby belonged to... He couldn't even think the name. How the hell was he supposed to do this? He couldn't, he just couldn't.

Jacob didn't want to think about this, he didn't want to have to 'consider his options' or any of that shit. He just wanted his father to knock on his door and call out 'son, I was kidding, you know you can't get pregnant'. It would be a sick joke, but a joke none the less, and maybe this ache Jacob was feeling in his heart would go away.

How could he do this? How could he carry a child knowing who it belonged to, what he had to go through for the child to exist? He couldn't do it. He just couldn't. He knew the Pack would never go for abortion, they'd never allow him to kill his child. Children were a gift; they'd view this child as a gift even given the circumstances of how it was conceived.

Jacob shook his head, taking in a long breath, holding it; then slowly letting it out. His chest literally hurt! He felt like he would die from suffocation the way his lungs seemed to constrict. It would be a sweet escape from this though; it would be a one way ticket for him and the child. They'd both leave this place and neither would have to suffer anymore.

Jacob didn't want this child. He honestly and truly didn't want it. He didn't want to keep it either. He needed to get rid of it. It wasn't an option; he'd have to get rid of it quietly. The Pack wouldn't have to know and even if they did find out, it would be too late for them to do anything about it because the child would be gone.

As Jacob lay, curled up in a ball on his bed, he formulated different ways to get rid of the little thing inside him. Killing it would be saving it. Jacob wouldn't be able to look after it; they didn't have cash to waist on this thing. And on top of that, he didn't know what it would be. Would it be a bloodsucking demon like... like him? Would it also turn out to be a heartless rapist who took away people's innocence then ran?

Jacob couldn't handle having to worry about that. So his only option was to get rid of the little monster before it did any more damage. That was the only way. And while getting rid of the demon child, he'd end his own life too. It was a good plan, a brilliant plan. It was the only plan that Jacob would go with. Nothing and no one would change his mind. This was his best and only option!

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2 Months Later

The first few weeks after Jacob found he was pregnant were tough. The young Shifter had refused to believe that he was carrying Cullen's child. The first few days he'd sort of just been numb, not reacting to anything or anyone and trying to avoid everyone even more.

Everyone let him be for those few days after he'd found out about his pregnancy. They didn't try to talk to him or force him into doing anything. They thought it was best for him for a while to just be on his own, figure things out, understand his situation. They didn't bother him when he locked himself in his room for a week, not once coming out of it for any reason.

At first they'd just excused it as Jacob needing time, but then they slowly came to the realisation that it was more than that. Jacob didn't want the baby, he'd made that very clear when he'd found out about his pregnancy. Everyone realised what Jacob was probably trying to do. He didn't leave his room, therefore he didn't eat. There was a chance that he probably didn't sleep either. The thought that maybe the young Shifter was trying to starve himself to death scared everyone and by week two they were trying in every way to get Jacob back.

At first he responded, he ate normally enough though in smaller portions then the other Wolves in the Pack. He talked to his friends, even smiled; things seemed to be going well. Everyone was sure Jacob was slowly going back to normal, right until he decided to go cliff diving right after trying to dig a knife into his stomach only to find it was hard as a rock and nothing could penetrate it.

That had freaked everyone out the most. They'd realised just how desperate Jacob was, how much he wanted to get rid of his child. And it had scared all of them, knowing that Jacob could, and would, go to the extremes to get rid of his baby and also end his own life.

After that incident everyone made sure that they knew where Jacob was at all times and that someone was with him. He screamed and shouted and even attacked anyone who sat with him but they were unmoved and eventually he gave up trying anything and when the Pack trusted him enough they allowed him to be alone without worrying to much that he'd do something crazy or stupid.

Relief was short lived through because a few weeks later Jacob became extremely sick. He rapidly lost weight and he was so sickly it was scary. He could barely stand and any food he even tried to eat would come back up and violently. It freaked everyone out because they didn't know what was wrong.

One afternoon, the Pack along with their Imprints and Billy were huddled in the living room with Jacob. They all wanted to spend as much time with the sickly Shifter as they could because they weren't sure that Jacob would make it through the month. They'd been talking about random things until the conversation had somehow shifted to Jacob's child.

They'd tried to look at the bright side of things, wondering if the baby was a girl or a boy. Slowly the conversation had gone to the reason why Jacob was getting so sick and everyone had different theories and then Leah had sarcastically uttered the words 'Oh I'm sure it's just waiting to sink it's teeth into someone and suck their sweet nectar right up'. Everyone had frozen for a moment, and then a light bulb seemed to click in all of them because the Pack got up and rushed out the house instantly, the only person who didn't quite understand what had happened was Jacob. But that was alright, they had something that could possibly help the Shifter.

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It was late Sunday morning when Leah walked into the Black home to see Jacob. In her hands she carried a bottle that was painted black on the outside so Jacob couldn't see what was inside in case he refused to drink it or maybe try and throw it at someone with the lid open.

"What's that?" Jacob asked looking at the female Shifter, his eyes barely staying open.

"Oh, just the 'sweet nectar' of a mountain lion," Leah said holding the bottle up, shaking it a little in front of Jacob.

"Eew! Why the hell do you have that?"

"Because you, dear brother of mine, are going to drink it."

"I'm not drinking that shi-." Leah opened the heated bottle and the scent wafted out of it. Jacob drew in a breath and sighed dreamily.

"You were saying?" Leah asked with a smug smile.

"Shut up!" He grabbed the bottle from Leah and without hesitation gulped it down, letting out a groan as the liquid splashed down his dry throat, coating it with the sweet wetness. Leah grinned to herself.

"Lucky for you, I have another bottle." She pulled the bottle from her back pocket, opened it then handed it to Jacob. Once more Jacob gulped the bottle down without taking a breath. "So what was it you were saying about the sweet nectar of a mountain lion?"

"Shut up Leah!" Jacob grumbled, rolling his eyes.

"Anyway, you'll be having six bottles a day, two at breakfast, two at lunch and two at supper."

"Awesome," Jacob said in a tired yet sarcastic voice.

"We could always switch to the sweet nectar of Humans-."

"How many bottles did you say I needed to take?"

"I thought as much. And it's six bottles a day, more if you're up to it."

"Awesome…" Leah grinned at her Pack brother before plonking down on the couch and grabbing the remote from the coffee table and flicking through the few channels that they had.

"There's nothing to watch," the girl complained after a while of flicking through the channels. She got no reply and when she looked she found Jacob had fallen asleep a hand lying protectively over his stomach. Leah couldn't help the small smile that formed on her lips. She knew that as much as Jacob was against having this child, deep down he loved it no matter who the other father was. She knew that the only reason Jacob didn't want the child was because of how it was conceived and who the father was, but really, he had no problem with his little miracle. The girl sighed as she turned back to the TV and settled on a channel, watching some show about wildlife.

Sometime during the evening the Pack came in with more bottles of 'sweet nectar' which came from various different animals. They stashed them in the fridge where Jacob could get them and reheat them if he wanted to. When the bottles were stashed everyone quietly – well as quietly as a Pack of teen aged Wolves could – went into the living room and sat around watching some stupid chick show since Leah wouldn't forfeit the remote.

A while later Jacob woke up and curled up on the couch so no one could see his growing belly, and they continued to watch TV. Billy and Emily came over with food later on and everyone ravished the food. Jacob was handed two bottles of sweet nectar that he downed down in seconds before sheepishly asking for another. Some pulled faces as they watched the boy drink the blood but they were all happy to see that it was make some different even in that short time.

After dinner everyone settled around the living room and watched a movie but Jacob was knocked out when they were only a third into the movie and Sam carried him to his room. Emily came and pulled the covers away and Sam placed the sleeping boy in. Emily pulled the covers over Jacob and tucked him in before kissing his forehead. Sam smiled at his Imprint then took her hand and led her out the room. He left the lights on – most of Jacob's nightmares seemed to be fuelled by the darkness – and pulled the door, leaving a crack open just in case they needed to get to the boy quickly.

…TBC…

Filler chapter, I know, but it was sort of necessary, sort of a telling on how things are flowing yah know *shrugs*.

Anywhoo…

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