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Chapter 5 BPOV
The only reason I wanted to run up was so I could clear my thoughts and not have to put on a happy charade. I needed to decide what to do with the Edward "problem." He smelled glorious and the scent made me all tight and thirsty, but it was also a really delicious scent that left me breathless and stunned. There was the chance that I might kill him, but I'm not sure I could.
Well physically I could but I'm not sure how I would cope afterwards. He means too much to me already and I've only known him for a little less than a day. His scent has become a drug to me in an hour and I can't live without it.
This is so weird.
I slowed down as I arrived in Denali and walked over to the house. The reason we were here was just because we haven't seen the family in ages and we miss then, but the story we were telling everyone else, was that Carlisle is helping some sick children in another state and we all decided to go with him.
I was pulled out of my thoughts and trapped in a circle of female vampires, spinning me round and round.
Kate, Tanya, Carmen and Irina hugged and kissed me until I pulled myself out of the circle. I smiled blissfully, and then we all hugged again, screaming each other's names.
I saw Garrett and Eleazar in the corner hiding from the hugs and I approached them cheerfully.
"Why no hug?" I cooed in a baby voice, trying to look upset "don't you love me?"
The girls laughed as I hugged the boys and after a short hug, Eleazar let go and slid over to Carmen, wrapping his arm around her waist. However Garrett held on, hugging me fiercely. I missed him so much and he missed me to. He was my best guy friend, besides Emmett, and I saw Emmett every day.
"Um, G, you can let go now, I'm really feelin' the love!" Kate, laughing at us; pranced over to prize he husband off me. Garrett winked at me promising to chat later in our secret miming language and lumbered over to the couch with Kate.
Carmen danced over and claimed my attention. She was like Alice - extremely graceful, even for a vampire. That was pure talent, if you ask me. Tanya and Irina waited at the door hoping to see the rest of my family come up the street.
"Hey, Tanya, I ran, they'll be about 2/3 miles back down the track, why don't you go and meet them half way?" I suggested hoping that if the met half way I could avoid the shopping trip.
Of course it was a useless attempt, Alice would guess and they would come back and get me soon enough. *Sigh*
"Great idea Bella!" Tanya said excitedly running out the door; Irina flashed me a grin and then disappeared as well.
"Um… Carmen, Kate, I need to talk to you guys" I said timidly. Sighing Garrett untangled himself from Kate and brushed past me running out the back door screaming: "Bet I'll bet you to the forest Eleazar!"
Oh my gosh, I love Garrett! He just left without a fight and got Eleazar to go as well; if it had been one of the girls they would have demanded an explanation and then possibly still refused to leave.
This is why I go for dicks over chicks, even though sometimes I hate guys too. I'm unsure really…
Kate wasn't as accepting about me getting rid of the men: "right Bella, you better have a good explanation for making Garrett leave" she threatened. Kate and Garrett's relationship was a physical one, kind of like Rosalie's and Emmett's but more. I love them but I'm glad I don't live with them; my innocent eyes can only take so much!
"Yeah I do, it's about boys…" the last word seemed to set them off, much to my embarrassment.
"Oh Bella, you met someone!" they squealed - planning weddings in there head. Unlike Alice who already has my wedding planned. It's quite depressing to have a wedding planned and not have anyone to marry - and quite confusing.
"No, no" I assured them, mentally kicking myself for being so naïve. "Well kinda, but I need you're advise."
"Oh my Gawd, he's taken isn't he!" Kate exclaimed. This is why Carmen is my bestie; she doesn't jump to conclusions like Rose, Kate and Alice would.
"No, he's human." I answered.
Simple enough right?
"So?" Carmen said, well apparently not then.
"Yeah what's stopping you? Oh, is he a taken human?" Kate gasped. She seemed to be obsessed with taken guys, was she implying something about me?
"Hello, Vampire" I said pointing to my chest and sighing. Is it only me that thinks this is a bad idea?
It is, isn't it?
"Change him then." Carmen challenged. I gasped and stepped away from her, they watched as I fought to find the right words.
"NEVER, he has a LIFE and I'm NOT taking it AWAY from him!" I thundered, anger building up in me and threatening to burst out. "What kind of a life is this?"
"Relax Bells, it was only an option" Cameron said quickly defending herself as I got angrier.
This was one of them crazy times when I wished Jasper was here. I need to calm down. I know I shouldn't get so worked up, but thinking about taking his life from him (or anyone's life really) just made me not want to live. It's one of the worst things a vampire can do, in my opinion. Sure it has its upsides, if you're in love with a vampire, you get to be together for ever, but I'm aloud to be negative about this subject.
"Ugh, you are so confusing!" Kate exclaimed putting me out of my thoughts "first you love him, and then you don't wanna change him!"
"HELLO, it's called CARING! And I never said I loved him, I just said I met him." I shouted angrily, Kate was glaring at me and getting angry too. I could tell because of her power. Her power was kinda like mine. It was like an electric shock but so much worse; she could radiate it all over her body or just concentrate in on one part. Just a shock was enough to take a vampire down, and that took serious power.
Back in the day, I had helped her learn how to cover her body with it while she taught me how to push my shield out to others. My shield is multi-purpose-full. I can read thoughts and defend people against some other vampire powers, like Kate's. If I shield someone Kate cant shock them. I had a feeling this might come in useful, so I pushed my shield out to cover Carmen.
"Even if I did love him, why should I change him?" I continued "It's a painful, terrible thing to do to somebody!"
Gosh, boys really do complicate lives, pfft as if mine isn't complicated enough already! And I've known him for a day now. This really isn't looking good.
I heard Garrett and Eliza edging closer to the house.
They were probably planning to jump in and separate us if things go too heated up. Everyone always forgot that Kate's shock couldn't hurt me. Ugh, gimme a break.
"Guys" I whined, as I realised how stupid this was, "we aren't seriously fighting over a guy we don't know are we?"
"Wait a minute, what do you mean "we don't know?"" Carmen asked shocked, they obviously thought I was with him or something!
I wish. I think?... *sigh*
"Well you've never met him, and I only met him this afternoon, do you seriously think I would wait longer than a day to tell you guys if I was with someone?" I asked with fake shock. Kate grinned at me, and we both calmed down. It was so easy to get aggregated when you're a vampire, I always forgot this, because I rarely ever get seriously angry at anyone, I generally avoid everyone.
"Aww, Bells!" Garrett said, bursting through the door. "You found someone?"
"NO!" Me, Kate and Cameron screamed.
"Gawd! You scared the life out of me" Jasper shouted as he came through the door.
"Jasper!" I cooed loudly, "you're here!" I said, throwing myself at him.
"Too many emotions Bella, back off!" he complained, everyone calmed down then, he was using his power. Finally.
"Hey people, what's all the yelling for?" Emmett asked entering with about 30 suitcases, most probably all Alice's and Rose's.
"Jasper!" I shouted. "Help Emmett!" I scowled at him play fully, so he tried to take some bags from Emmett arms.
"NO. These are all Rose's, you can get Alice's!" Emmett said, grinning. I guessed Alice had more bags, judging from the looks on Emmett's and Jaspers faces.
I didn't need Jaspers power to figure out that Emmett was smug and Jasper was shocked and a little pissed off.
I practically pushed Jasper out again and turned to Emmett: "where's the girls?"
"Shopping" everyone said simultaneously, this was going to be a fun week.
Except that Edward wasn't here.
We all sat on the couch and talked. Kate on Garret's knee, Cameron on Elezar's knee and me sandwiched in between Emmett and jazz. I quite liked being single, I had my brothers and friends to make up for it.
Well that was until the girls got back.
Alice dumped her shopping bags in her room and plonked herself on Jasper; Rosalie did the same, practically lying on Emmett. Tanya, me and Irina were the only single ones. Well, it's better than at home when I am on my own. We sat on the floor and looked at the couples. Carlisle and Esme strolled in then and looked at all of us. We were smiling and having fun, happy that the family was back together.
"Kids" Esme said, we weren't technically kids (I'm older than her!) but she liked to think we and that she was the parent. We played along, not wanting to hurt her feelings. "We're going to an art museum, anyone want to come?" she asked hopefully.
"Oh yeah, count me in!" I shouted, sarcastically, earning a kick from Carlisle.
"Daddy, that's child cruelty!" I wept.
"Well it's ok when you're a 108 year old child Bell" he said, smiling, and with that, they left, leaving us on our own, and bored.
"What should we do?" Garrett asked.
"I know, let's order pizza!" Emmett squealed, a very unmanly sound.
Rose smiled at him fondly while we all stared.
"What the hell, Emmett? We can't eat." Alice snapped. She was obviously tired of his wise-cracks. He must have been seriously annoying in the car. Jasper rubbed her back gently and, as always, it calmed her down. She relaxed into his chest, sighing.
Emmett suddenly jumped up to tickle Alice, annoying her even more, and then he ran at me. He had completely forgotten about Rosalie being perched on his lap, until he heard her complaining.
"EMMETT!" Rosalie screamed from the ground where she landed, as she watched him sit down next to me on the floor. He grinned at her sheepishly, and she threw a cushion at his head. He didn't bother to dodge it, and he stuck his tongue out at her.
"Guys, I know what we can do! Let's talk about this Edward person." He said, grinning at me.
All the humour in my face vanished and I felt myself get colder. Jasper and Rose grinned at me whilst Alice clapped her hands and stuck her tongue out at me.
"Who?" I said, helplessly playing dumb.
"Yeah, Emmett, who?" The Denali clan asked simultaneously.
"You know, Bella's guy!" He exclaimed not realising I didn't tell them his name.
"Bella never said he was called Edward" Cameron said, grinning slyly.
"Aww, that's a cute name!" Tanya and Irina cooed.
I buried my head in my hands. "Can we leave this till tomorrow?" I asked unhappily, realising we'd have to talk about it soon.
"No, because tomorrow you'll say "can we talk about this tomorrow" and then you'll do that every day after that!" Rosalie said, smiling slightly, looking a little sympathetic.
"I love and hate how you know me so well Rose." I answered, getting up and running in to the nearby forest.
And I thought I was messed up before!
Aww, I miss Edward…
Not helping.
Chapter 6 EPOV
I strolled into lunch casually - going for a cool effect, only for it to be ruined when I slipped on someone's spilt soda. I landed on my backside. Looking up at all of my friends, I saw the girls nearly in tears and the guys trying not to laugh. I couldn't be angry; if one of them had fallen over air then I would have probably been in stitches too.
It had seemed like it had been forever since I was debating whether or not to get out of bed, and now was the moment I have been waiting for all day.
I got in the dinner queue and spotted the table where Bella sat with her family yesterday. It was empty. I quickly scanned the room and came up with nothing. I had a suddenly empty feeling in my gut and chest. I hurried to the end of the line and just got a soda because I didn't think I would be able to stomach food, seen as my gut was in pain.
What the hell?
I sat down in my seat grumpily, in no mood for the lunch time chitter-chatter.
Tyler sat down opposite me and he looked at the bottle in my hands grinning:
"Hey Eddie, I thought you would be avoiding soda after the little incident before…" he said trying not the crack up.
Oh, I'll help him crack up. His head. He called me "Eddie." Eww.
Ugh I hate that name. I bite down on my lower lip and ruffled my hair, grinning fakely. I knew Tyler was only annoying me because he fancied Lauren and she apparently like me. "Yay."
"Tyler, don't be mean to Edward!" Lauren cried angrily, only making Tyler stomp off toward the office. Damn, I need to get Tyler with Lauren so I can get him OFF my back. I've always wanted to try my luck at match-making!
"Hey, Angela?" I asked her because she was the only girl who didn't flirt with me, so if figured we could have a normal conversation. She looked up so I continued: "where are the Cullen's?" I wondered if it was a regular thing for them to be off school.
"Um, I think they went somewhere to help they're dad get a bunch of sick kids to go swim with dolphins or something." She said smiling; turning her attention back towards Ben.
I had found out yesterday, whilst talking to Jess, that Bella's "dad" Carlisle, was her foster dad, and he was a doctor. I didn't realise it was a family thing.
Anyway, what is it with sick kids and dolphins? If I ever find myself thinking about dolphins a lot I'm going to get myself checked out by a doctor!
I went home grumpily and the rest of the week was practically the same.
Bella Cullen never came back to school.
I was a mess all week.
I couldn't even annoy Charlie, or concentrate in school.
Every day I waited anxiously for Bella and her family to glide through the doors of the cafeteria, and every day I was disappointed. Then I would attempt to listen to the conversations.
It was a depressing loop.
Everyone was planning a trip to La Push Ocean Park in 2 weeks. I was invited; I agreed to go, but more out of politeness then desire. Beaches should be hot and dry, not wet and windy. By Friday I was completely sure that Bella wasn't going be in school, so I wasn't as disappointed when she didn't show up.
My chest still stung a little though. For all I knew, she and her family could have dropped out of school. How was I to know? I didn't even know them.
I was trying to push her out of my mind, trying to kid myself that she wasn't as beautiful as my mind recalled. No one was that perfect. Not even angels.
I still couldn't supress my desire to see her again, strange as that seems.
I had known her for one week now, and after one day she had me mesmerised. *Sigh*
My first week in Forks passed without any dramatic incidents, sure I had injured people in PE, but everyone had learned to avoid me when armed.
Charlie worked all the time so I had the house to myself for most of the weekend, much to my pleasure. I just did my homework and emailed mum. The rain stayed soft over the weekend so I slept well.
On Monday, people greeted me in the car park and I smiled and nodded back to them, as I didn't know their names. That's the bad thing about being new, everyone knows your name but you don't know theirs, it's very frustrating .
We had a pop quiz in English on Wuthering Heights and it was easy. I'm actually feeling comfortable here, which I never expected to happen. I hope Forks isn't growing on me, oh dear.
When we walked out of our class, the air was swirling with little bits of white.
"Wow, it's snowing!" Jess exclaimed dramatically.
"Cool." I said simply. Jessica looked upset by my lack of conversation, but I was in deep thought, trying not to fall over on the now slippery path.
I was forever thinking about Bella. Stupid, stupid, stupid. I didn't know why she seemed to have such a hold over me. I'd spoken to her once; it wasn't like we were in love.
Everyone started throwing snowballs at each other, which I classed as my queue to leave.
"Jess, I'm going to get something to eat, ok?" I said and she dropped her ball of snowy mush and walked happily next to me. That was probably the most I've said to her, put together, since Bella had disappeared.
I walked alertly to the lunch room with Jessica, ducking and dodging snow balls as they flew by us. Mike caught us at the door, laughing, with ice melting in his spikey hair. He talked animatedly to Jess about the massive snow ball fight he was planning after school.
I glanced at the table in the corner, out of habit and was planted in my place. There were people sat there.