I laid in my bed and thought about what had happened last night. How he touched me so softly. Made me squirm. How badly I wanted to give in to him and demand that he take me.

I whimpered as I remembered how his fingers played with my most private parts.

I felt my eyes close as I remember how his beard scratched me oh so perfectly. How he kissed my body.

I jumped when the door was knocked on.

I cleared my throat and sat up covering myself. "Who is it?" I called. The door opened and there he stood. Negan. I felt my face heat up more. A slow grin appeared on his face as he walked in.

"Have a good night?" He teased. My face heated more. He climbed into bed with me and gently pushed me down so that I was laying back down.

"I gave you your night stop." I said. He froze. "You know you want me to touch you again. Give you the release you crave. Just like I did last night. Don't deny that you enjoyed my touch. I saw how much you enjoyed it as I brought you over the edge repeatedly. Just wait till we're married. It'll be even better." He said.

He bent down and kissed me again. I couldn't help but whimper when he bit my bottom lip. I hate being teased, so I wrapped my arm around his neck and made him give me what I wanted. He happily mad the kiss rough. Making us both breathless.

He pulled away and got off the bed and I was unsatisfied.

"You are so close." He said. I glared at him. "Soon you wont hate me. You will love me." That made me freeze. I cant grow feelings for this man. He's a mad man. It's only hormones. And yes he's handsome making the hormones worse. That's all.

"I found the group who has been killing our men. We are stopping them as they attempt to get to HillTop. Get ready babe." Negan said. I nodded.

I have made a plan to get to my old group and get them to The Kingdom. Away from Negan. I needed him to trust me. Which is why I have been allowing him to touch me possessively in front of everyone.

If I act all lovey dovey he will trust me.

I walked up to him and wrapped my arms around him making him freeze. "Will you come to love me?" I asked softly. "I don't like the idea of a loveless marriage. and one on only lust. They never work out." I said resting my head on his strong back.

"I haven't loved anyone in a long time." I was surprised how sad he sounded. At how sad he sounded.

He turned around to face me. He looked like a defenseless little boy. So lost. So unlike him.

"I also haven't kissed anyone in along time. You're the first in about ten years." He said. I looked up at him in shock. He sighed, and held my face. "You are very special to me Lucy." He said. I gulped and he caressed my lip.

"I gave up all of my wives. For you. That showed a bit of weakness. But I did it to have you." He said. "You did it for my body Negan." I said, moving away. "I know that I am nothing but someone to give you pleasure. I agreed to it." I said and walked away.

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The day after Negan came back from a supply run pissed.

"What happened?" I asked when he stormed into our room. Yes he made me share his bed with him at night.

"These bastards went to one of our places and killed the men there and then lit it up in flames." He said. "Do you know who it was?" I asked as he paced.

He nodded.

"Yeah. Their leader is a pussy named Rick. I'm going to find them and kill them all for what they did." He growled. I sighed and got up.

I walked to him and grabbed his face to make him look at me.

"Come sit down and relax." I said. He growled at me. I glared and slapped the back of his head . Making him glare even more at me.

"Sit." I ordered.

He huffed and did as I ordered.

He sat on the end of the bed. I got behind him and took of his leather jacket and his scarf as well.

I grabbed him and started to rub and message his shoulders. He groaned as I worked his tence muscles. "Fuckin hell babe." He moaned out.

I rolled my eyes. "You cant think in the right mind if all you see is red." I said. I finished once he was relaxed and he pulled me onto his lap. I could feel his arousal on my butt.

He bent down and kissed me.

I kissed him back, knowing I had to. And, even though I hated to admit it, I wanted to. He was an amazing kisser.

I let him lay me on the bed and he played with my body. I was going to leave soon. I needed to leave soon. I needed him to touch me so I let him do what he wanted. He knew that I wasn't going to let him take my virginity just yet. But he did everything else to me.

He had me learn to how to touch him and do other things to him.