Story of My Life
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Hey guys! How's everybody been? Good to hear! How have I been, you ask? Well let's see, I sprained my ankle a week and a half ago and then came down with the flu. I'm just super! Blah, this week has been eh. Only good thing about this week is I'm going to the Hot Topic Twilight release party tonight!!! Sweet, I'll finally feel better. Any who, I hope you guys like this chapter. I didn't get as many reviews for last chapter as I did for the second chapter, which made me sad. Please keep up the high reviews, they are my motivation!!
I awoke with a start.
I was having a vivid dream, well it was more of a memory, of the day Ayden and I had been attacked by Jacob. Except, I was wearing my wedding dress and Edward never came to save us. So I sat at the foot of the stairs with Ayden in my lap, his blood staining the white of my dress while I screamed and cried for Edward. But he never came. No matter how hard I cried or how loud I screamed. Jake just stood there, laughing maniacally until I finally jolted awake. It was the worst dream, no nightmare, I'd ever had.
I grasped around the bed, praying Edward could make me feel better about this but found myself to be alone. I groaned at this. Did he honestly take the whole 'no seeing the bride before your wedding' thing seriously? If he did, I was going to be forced to murder him on the alter. This is no way you leave your pregnant fiancée alone when she wakes up on your wedding day. It's unheard of and downright ruthless.
I grumbled before tossing the sheets off my legs and slipping my feet into my slippers. When I opened the door to my room and made my way towards the bathroom, I noticed something. It was incredibly bright out for 7:30 in the morning and it was awfully quiet in the house. This was clearly not a good sign. I changed my route and went to Ayden's room. I opened the door slightly and the sight I was met with melted my heart. Edward was lying on Ayden's bed, his legs dangling off the edge, while he held Ayden tight to his chest. They were both fast asleep but when I pushed the door open a little further by accident, I noticed Edward stirring. Ayden didn't move. Well, not until I knocked over a picture and it fell to the floor in a clutter.
Both of them jumped up. Edward was looking all over the room until his eyes finally landed on me. Ayden's eyes were half open as he looked around. I could tell they were both still very sleepy. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to wake you. I just didn't hear anybody, so I thought maybe you all left me here alone. I was confused, I'm sorry. I'm going now..."
"Come here," Edward motioned for me to join them. I gave him a look. He barely fit on there, how did he expect me to fit along with them. He read my expression and grinned from ear to ear. "You can lay in my lap."
"I don't have time to," I explained. I had to be at his house by 8 in order to be harassed by Alice. I groaned at the thought of being subjected to her torture. No matter how pretty she says she can make me, I still believe her methods are worse than torture and not worth it. Standing next to her and Rose will crush my ego regardless, even if they were wearing plastic bags and raccoon eye shadow.
"For a minute momma," Ayden stuck out his lip. Edward looked at Ayden and then mimicked his pout. I sighed dramatically at the two at them before I proceeded to crawl onto the bed and join them. Edward pulled me into his arms and further onto the bed, causing Ayden to burst into a fit of giggles.
This was perfection. We lay together, not speaking, just enjoying each other's company. Edward rubs my belly, like always, while Ayden cuddles up to my side. I only got to enjoy this time with my family for a few brief stretch of time. Fourteen minutes, if I felt like being exact. My phone started to vibrate in my pocket. I forgot I even had it until I felt it going off. I turned to look at Edward who was frowning up at me. "Do you have to go?"
"Have you ever made your sister wait before?" The look her gave me clearly showed he knew the consequences. And they weren't good. I sighed before heaving myself up off the bed. Edward helped me stand and then lead me out of the room, back to my own. Ayden was on out tails.
"Is today tha big day?" He asked, jumping up onto my bed while I traded my slippers for a pair of flip flops. Edward just lounged out on my bed, obviously not accompanying me to his house. I scowled. I didn't want to go alone!
"Yes it is little man," Edward said happily, his eyes locking with mine. He was giving me that same crooked grin I fell in love with what felt like so long. I was powerless to that grin. My scowl faded and I beamed back at him. He wasn't allowed to come with me. He wasn't supposed to see me now!
"Do I get to see everything?" Ayden asked, hoping up and then landing on the edge of the bed in a sitting positioning. He swung his legs back and forth as he waited for me to answer him. I grinned and nodded my head. He hopped off the bed and began to do what looked like a victory dance. "WOOHOO!!"
Edward and I both shared a laugh. I took one last look at my room and confirmed that I had everything I needed. If I left now, I would make it in just enough time to have Alice just yell at me, not murder me. As much as I'd rather stay with my son and Edward, I knew that this had to be done. It felt like I'd been waiting years to become Isabella Marie Cullen, and the longer I took to leave, the longer it took for me to receive my title.
"I better get going," I announced. Ayden barely noticed. He was still so excited about coming to the wedding, even though he is the ring bearer and is a part of the wedding, that I did not phase him. Edward however was on his feet, ready to say goodbye. He took me by the waist and lifted me up to kiss him. I threw my arms around his neck and pressed my body to him. God, only a few more hours and I was legally his. The thought alone made me hot.
"I love you," he whispered against my ear before placing a delicate kiss on my warm skin. I shivered, his lips were ice cold.
"I love you more," I replied back stubbornly.
"What have I said about starting a war that...
"I can't win," I finished for him, a smile on my lips. He grinned down at me.
"You're going to make such a wonderful wife," he said seriously. I blushed crimson, ducking my face out of his view. He pinched my side and nudged me out of the room. "Now go, so I'll have a bride after my sister is done with you."
"I love you!" I called over my shoulder as I rushed down the stairs and to the front door, grabbing my purse along the way.
"I love you more," he shouted back. He could be such a hypocrite sometimes. But, he was my hypocrite and I loved him.
I look like a whale.
A humungous, ugly white whale. Moby Dick has nothing on me.
Today is supposed to be my big day. It's supposed to be the happiest day of my life, yet all I can think about is how enormous I am. I'm not even five months pregnant, yet I look like I'm supposed be blue, floating by in the sky with Goodyear in yellow on my side. I looked like I've got a freaking beach ball stuck under my dress. Which brings me back to the worst problem yet.
The dress doesn't fit.
There is no way for me to hold back my tears at this point. Everything has been so gruesome and painful. I had to leave Edward, after waking up heinously early, to come and get Alice torture. I was plucked, waxed, pricked, and pulled in some many places that I couldn't help but cringe as I remembered it all. And when I was finally left alone, I was told I had to put my dress on. So I did. And that's when I found out that I was too big. It wouldn't zip up all the way.
"Bella," Alice was outside the door. There is no way I'm answering her. After a few seconds, she begins to pound on the bathroom door with her tiny fists. "Let me in there."
"No," I shout back at her. No one was allowed to see me like this. I looked horrible. My face was all red because I'd been crying for hours now. My eyes were blood shot. My hair was probably a haystack at this point. I looked fat. I was ugly. Very, very ugly. And Alice was pretty. Seeing her in the beautiful pink dress she'd picked out for my bridesmaids would make me cry all over again. She probably looked drop dead gorgeous and I looked like the before picture in a Jenny Craig weight loss Ad.
I can hear her wiggle the door handle a few times before giving up and stomping off. I pull my legs up onto the seat and press my forehead to my knees. There is no way I'm going to be able to face my friends and family. I just couldn't do it, not like this.
Because Alice finds happiness in annoying me, she comes back to the door again. I'm just about to start screaming at her when the door to the bathroom opens. She waves the key at me before dropping it to the counter and coming to kneel next to me. I was right about her and that dress. She looked stunning in it. It clung tightly to her thin frame and accentuated her slender curves. Her pale skin glittered in the sun emanating from the bathroom window and her eyes shone brightly. Her regularly crazy hair was tame, in soft curls that framed her face. She was the portrait of beauty. I didn't even want to know what Rose looked like. My ego plummeted just at the thought of her.
"What is going on," she demands loudly, putting her hands on my knees. I turn my head away from her. There are so many emotions running through me at this point, I don't know what to tell her. "Bella, look at me."
"Leave me alone," I grind out, staring at the wall.
"You have to come with me, the ceremony is about to start," she says, tugging on my hand.
I rip it out of her grasp. "Do it without me. I'm not coming down."
"How are we supposed to do it without you?" She gasped angrily. I know the exact look she probably has on her face right now, but I will not turn to see it. She's giving me that look that she has whenever I refuse a shopping trip. "What, do you want Edward to marry a stick we find in the yard?"
My eyes well over again. God, I need to work on this crying issue. It's starting to get a little ridiculous. "Of course you'd say a stick!" I shout at her. "Because he'd much rather have a stick than a fat ass like me!"
She is quiet, but only for a moment. "Are you serious right now? Are you fucking serious Bella?"
Now I'm angry. How dare she curse at me?! And on my wedding day! Well, she's got some freaking nerve. I whip my head around to glare daggers at her. She doesn't even flinch. "Yes I'm serious."
Alice grunts at me, standing up and going over to slam the bathroom door shut. She pivots around and stares directly at me. "I made your dress Bella, I planned this entire wedding, I did all the decorations and made all the calls and everything that need to be done. I was elaborate, and do you want to know why I did all of this? Do you want to know why I called fifteen different caterers and went to nearly twenty different floral shops? Do you have the slightest clue why I spent hours slaving over your dress and Edward's tux? Do you Bells?"
"Because you live for this kind of thing," I said with a shrug. Alice loved being in charge, especially if it allowed her to be creative. She'd be a fabulous wedding planner.
My answer did not suit her. She threw her tiny hands into the arm and spun in a little circle. "No Bella," she shook her head angrily. "I did all of this because you deserve it. I love you and I love my brother and I love your relationship. You two were meant to be together, forever, and this wedding had to represent that. Everything had to be perfect, detail oriented, because it had to at least try and live up to you and Edward. All of this is for you, not me Bella."
I gapped at her for a moment. What was she trying to say?
"You don't get it," she sighed heavily, sinking down to her knees in front of me. She took my hands in hers and grasped the tight. "You and Edward have a love like no other. You two inspire me to do things. And if you don't go out there Bella, because you suddenly think being pregnant means your fat, then everything I've done is for nothing. You'll have been lying to me all along. Because if you love Edward, you won't give a shit about how you look. You would go out there in overalls and a wife beater if it meant you could marry him. So if you have what I know you do with Edward, you will get off this toilet seat and let me fix you up so you'll be able to make it just as they're playing here comes the bride on the organ. Can you do that for me?"
I stared at the sink for a long while, letting Alice's words sink in. She was right, one hundred percent right. But I had let my own insecurities and selfishness get in the way of today's importance. I was suddenly ashamed with myself. Since when was I so selfish?
"I'm sorry Alice," I blubber, finally looking into her bright green eyes. She's tearing up as well but she rubs her tears away quickly, then mine, before throwing her little arms around my neck. We hold each other for a while, needing one another's comfort. God I missed her some days.
"Okay," Alice finally breathed as she pulled away from me. "If we hurry, I'll have you ready in no time!"
Alice is a miracle worker. After a series of breathing techniques and repositioning of boobage, she managed to zip the dress up. And I could breathe! Sort of. My boobs, the ones I got from being pregnant that is, were squished up high and I had to take deep breaths and let them out slowly if I didn't want to pop the dress. But it worked and I felt kinda, somewhat pretty.
After my miniature breakdown, Alice forced me back into the chair to fix me back up. She reapplied my foundation, blush, and smoky eye make-up. Then she went on to the spray and respray my curly hair. After I almost drowned from the spray, Alice allowed me to stand up. She gave me the once over, almost fifteen times, before finally approving of me. I squealed in happiness when she told me it was time. She took my hand in hers and dragged me down the stairs and to where the backdoor was. When we got there, I saw the whole bridal party standing in a long line. I wasn't able to see the yard and it's fancy decorations, but I wasn't too disappointed. I'd see it soon enough. My ego dipped when I caught sight of Rose and how snug her dress was but the look on my father's face when he came into view brought it back up. He was looking at me like I was the Queen of England!
"Bells," he whispered. Alice squeezed my hand once and then she let go. I wrapped my arms around my father's neck and hugged him tight. After today, I wasn't his little girl anymore. I would be a married woman. I don't think Charlie was ready for that.
As I pulled away, I caught sight a tear cascading down his cheek. He wiped it away quickly, but I know I saw it. I felt tears brimming in my own eyes. "I love you daddy."
"You're always going to be my baby girl, even when you're big and old," he assured me, holding on my hand for dear life. It was like the last time I saw him when I was little. He held onto me as if he'd never see me again, and I suddenly realized that he believed that's what would happen. I couldn't help but feel sorry for my father all over again. He was such a good man. Some days, I wish he never met Renee and then he would have had a much better life.
"It's time Bells," Alice chirped from Jasper's side. And sure enough, I heard the procession music playing. I bit my lip and squeezed my father's hand tight. Alice and Emmett walked arm and arm down the
"You look so beautiful," he said quickly. Charlie wasn't one for compliments. He didn't really notice stuff like beauty, which made his words mean a lot. He wasn't just saying it because he's my father.
"Thanks dad," I whispered back. Jasper and Rose walked out the door and proceeded down the aisle. I gulped. All I had left after them were my flower girls and the ring bearers. And then it was my turn. I froze in my spot. I couldn't do this! Edward was mistake in wanting this. He wasn't thinking clearly. He didn't realize what he was getting himself into. If I let now, I'd be saving him. He'd thank me later.
"You're going to make a wonderful bride," my father said from my side. I let out a breath I hadn't even realized I'd been holding. Charlie grinned at me and I couldn't help but reciprocate it. He was always so happy. "I'm so proud of you."
The flower girl's burst through the doors and skipped down the aisle. "That means so much coming from you."
"I'd hope so," he said with a chuckle. I saw Ayden arm in arm with Rose's little boy cousin. I smiled at them both. Ayden waved and then pointed at the pillow in his hands, on which my wedding band sat. I gave him and thumbs up and he gave one back. Clearly he'd been given instructions to stand in his place until told to move. He was such a good listener.
When Ayden left, I began breathing hard. I couldn't tell if it was just me, or if it was incredibly hot. I fanned myself lightly before turning to my father. "It's hot," he said simply.
He then looped his arm through mine and took a step forward. "I guess I have to give you off now."
"Only if you want to dad," I reminded him, stepping up beside him.
"I've had enough of you Bells, Edward can have you," he said with a laugh but he squeezed my elbow with his. I leaned over to kiss his cheek. He blushed, and then led the way.
The door was covered in pink plastic, so I couldn't see through it like usual. It wasn't until I stepped outside that I saw the magnificence that was Alice's decor. My jaw dropped immediately. I saw hundreds of flowers all at once. Charlie stepped out underneath a giant archway, made up of lilies. A white cloth was set out as our path down the aisle. Along it were small bushels of pink and purple flowers, while yellow ones were scatted everywhere from the flower girls. The wedding attendants sat on white benches that were lined with pink lace and purple ribbons. My eyes trailed up the aisle and it was then I spotted the gazebo. Lights were hung up white lilies were placed in decorative patterns along the gazebo, giving it an awe inspiring affect. But the most important thing about it was that Edward stood there, front and center. And he only had eyes for me. I felt myself blush crimson at the sight of him and I became incredibly hot.
We stepped onto the cloth and Charlie let me down the aisle slowly. I wanted to let go of Charlie and charge down the aisle, but apparently we were going to do this by the book. Though it felt like years, we finally made it to the gazebo steps. Charlie helped me onto the first one and then Edward came and helped me up all the way. Charlie gave me a reassuring squeeze before going to take his seat. I suddenly felt like a lost child. I wanted to scream for my daddy to come back, but I bit my lip and remained strong. I need to stop being such a damn wuss. It was making me get very hot and uncomfortable, I need to calm down or I'd work myself up.
"I've never seen a more beautiful woman," Edward whispers in my ear before turning me to face the minister.
I blushed hard at this. God, I need to stop getting all worked up. It's already so damn hot out. The minister gets the attention of the attendants, but I start to loose focus. He's speaking so fast, and I'm already so flustered. And it's really starting to get hot outside. The minister is talking again, looking directly at Edward while he reads out of his book. I look at Edward, wondering what's going on. Edward turns to me, grins, and says "I do."
Oh. That's what's going on. I look back at the minister. I at least know what's going on next. At least, I think I do. I can't really remember though…it's so fucking hott, I feel like I'm on fire. As pretty as those lights are, they must be a 1000 degrees because they're burning me up.
The minister starts going on and on to me, I nod my head. And then I hear those words they say in every movie, I open my mouth and say, "I do," but breathing, thinking, speaking, and being on fire do not all combine. Because as soon as I let out the energy it took to speak, I stumble backwards and everything goes black. It's just so fucking hott.
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