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"Oh I'm sorry, did I do something?" I tried to play the innocent act but the blush didn't help.
Edward seemed as though he was the one in trouble. He looked away shyly "no you just kind of blanked out and I was calling for you and yeah…"
I was surprised by his rambling but I was still too shaken up from the vision to give him my full attention. I started to tear up and I didn't really understand why the vision upset me so much. Suddenly I was pulled into Edwards arms. He kept giving me soothing words and rubbing my back. It just made it worse. "Jasper I need you please come down here!" I was falling apart. I could barely breathe. Jasper appeared in the doorway but he wouldn't look at me. The earlier emotions took over my body and I jumped off the couch and straight into Jasper's chest. i suddenly felt relief from the pain. He started shaking as I wrapped my arms around him. He leaned down as if to say something in my ear. I could feel his hot breath on my neck. "no Jasper!" I heard Edward scream and suddenly I was pushed backwards. Edward was holding Jasper. Jasper turned to glare at me. "stay away from me! don't ever come near me again!" with that he swept out of the room. i couldnt prcoess the words as i felt my heart shatter. I ran out of the room and headed for the front door. "Alice please he didn't mean it." I knew Edward was trying to comfort me but I didn't want to hear it. Jasper was right. Somehow he knew all I would bring was hurt. "just leave me alone Edward Please!" I heard him stop and I ran into the forest. It didn't take long to reach my house. I climbed upon the bed and cried into my pillow for what seemed like hours.
And then another one hit me. The blackness didn't last long. No longer was I an onlooker to the destruction of my visions I was an active participant. I was in the same place but the entire scene was different. There was smoke filling the air but it smelled somewhat sweet and sickly. I was standing there crying and shaking with fear. I turned to stare at the fire and I saw the most heart wrenching scene. There right before my eyes was Carlisle, Esme, Rosalie, Emmet and on top Edward. Their limbs were broken and torn from their bodies. They fire was devouring them. My only family left. My eyes caught the movement in my peripheral vision and I watched as the man tore apart the love of my life. The meaning to my existence, Jasper. I fell to my knees but my eyes never left Jasper's face. It was no where near the rest of his body but I felt no need to take my eyes away from it. I might as well as die right now. My curse had come back. It had killed the most important people in my life. They were my family and like everyone else I had ever loved they were dead. I looked up at the man when he set Jasper on fire. I didn't care if he didn't want me around. I still loved him. I was so numb. Moving my eyes felt like trying to push a boulder with my bare hands. I looked up at a man with blood red eyes.i didnt even realize i had been screaming until he walked towards me and grabbed me by the throat. In a very seductive voice he called out to me. "Alice, my dear, I have been looking for you for so long." I started to sob. "Now, now, don't blame me. If you hadn't been with them then I wouldn't have had to hurt them. It was your fault." I knew that every death was my fault. With that he leaned down and sunk his teeth into my neck.
When I opened my eyes I was in my room staring at the ceiling. I had to leave. I had to make sure they wouldn't be hurt. But where would I go. Where ever I went I would kill. Like the man said it was my fault. I had killed everyone I had ever known, there was only one choice I had. I knew what I had to do.
I started a bath. I knew Edward would not bother me since I had told him I needed to think. He would give me the space needed. My plan revolved around that respect. I dug through the box on the counter. When I found what I needed I headed for the tub. Tears ran down my face. I needed to do one more thing before death came. I looked into the mirror and grabbed a huge chunk of hair. I reached back into the box and grabbed a pair of scissors. In one swift move my hair cut into a disaray of long and short. I wasnt worthy of the long beautiful hair given to me by the women who had given it all up for me. I knew it was time.
I didn't fear death but I did fear the dark. I knew it must be done and that I could do it for Jasper. I didn't really know him but I already loved him more then I had ever loved anyone before. I decided that I should leave them a letter of what had happened and that it was better this way. I wanted to lessen any hurt that it may cause them. I grabbed a piece of parchment from my desk and a pen off my nightstand. I wrote …
Carlisle,
I am so sorry for what I have done but I had a vision and this was the only way to keep it from happening. I want Jasper to know that even though I barely met him that I love you. I wanted to spend my life with you, no, not just my life my eternity with you. I can't explain why I feel this way but I do. Please don't be sad and make sure to comfort Esme. I love you're whole family dearly. Please don't let them blame themselves. I love you.
Alice
By the time I was done the water had over flown the tub but what did it matter. Its not like I would have to clean it up. I made sure I had what I needed and I climbed in the tub and let my body relax. I could hear the tears drip from the side of my face deep into the water. " I love you Jasper" with that, I said a final prayer for my new family. I pulled the little piece of cardboard from the razor. I looked down at my wrists and decided I would save those for last. I had taken anatomy so I headed for my left thigh first I had tiny legs so I wouldn't have to cut too deep but I didn't want to miss. I pushed the razor deep inside first it hurt so much but I pushed that out of my mind and focused on what I had seen. I quickly tore the razor across my skin. I gasped at the pain. It was only momentary though. Everything went numb. I pushed deep into my left wrist and slashed it four times. I was already feeling the effects I didn't have the strength to do more then one slash on my right wrist. I looked down and was amazed at how pure red the tub already was. My eyes started to close when I heard the voices. They were calling my name. It was Edward. A smile came across my face. They were already way too late. Death was so close and wasn't going to fight it. I was surrounded by black but I could hear all the noises they made as they got closer. "Alice where are you?" that was Jasper. I knew his voice better then anyone's. I already had it stored in memory but I was shocked to hear him there. He was the one who knew to stay away so why had he come? The door opened I heard a gasp. "No Alice! No!!" I could barely make out Edward's footsteps. "Oh God, Alice!" suddenly the water felt gone and I was flying. This was it death had come. before death came upon me I pushed away all memory. I wanted to go in peace. I pushed myself into the darkness and found my comfort there.
Jasper's face kept flashing before my face as I lay there in darkness. I wondered if this was death or if I was still hanging on somehow. I had cut so deep and my mind had receded already to the darkness. That's when I heard Jasper's beautiful voice. "Alice please wake up. Please." Suddenly hundreds of visions of Jasper and me flew before my eyes. Holding hands, kissing laughing, it was endless and although I was dying my entire being was filled the love I felt towards him. He laughed a shaky laugh that I knew wouldn't reach his eyes, "I love you too Alice." This had to be a dream. He didn't even want me near him and with that I was swept away into the darkness again but this time some pain followed. I felt myself drift farther into the depths to darkness to escape it but I still felt some of it. It hurt, well it burned but I knew this wasn't the full extent the darkness had fought most of it back and burrowed as far back as I could.
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