Chapter 4:
Zosia lay there for two hours watching Oliver sit and talk to Madeleine, she is still unsure about Oliver being the biological father of Madeleine and wonders if she should get him and Arthur to both do a paternity test because she didn't want Madeleine to grow up wondering who her father actually is. Even though she didn't want Madeleine in the first place she knew she had no choice but to look after Madeleine.
"Ollie I need to tell you something before I tell you what I need you to do" Zosia says as she sits up. Oliver looks up from Madeleine and looks at Zosia "I...I'm... bipolar" Zosia stutters as she breaks into a whisper. She expected Oliver to run to the hill but he didn't he just sat there and stared at her "Well aren't you going to say anything?" Zosia questions as she swings her legs out of the bed.
Oliver looks at Zosia and changes his arm which he is holding Madeleine in "What do you want me to say congratulations you have bipolar?" Oliver questions "Or is it because you have bipolar you don't think you'll be able to look after Madeleine properly?" Oliver adds and Zosia bites her lip.
Zosia looks away from Oliver and continues to bite her lip "Ollie I need you to do a paternity test for me" Zosia says still looking away from Oliver.
"Why well we did... you know do it... around about nine months ago" Oliver stutters as she stands up and places Madeleine back in the hospital cot.
She rolls her eyes and keeps her back to them both, Zosia lets out a weep and Oliver comes to her side "What's up?" Oliver questions noticing how fragile the young doctor could be.
"I can't do this" She mutters and Oliver puts his arm around her shoulders and pulls her close.
"Do what?" He questions as he looks down at the young doctor and awkwardly kisses her on the head.
"Do this, be a mother, I'm not ready I have my whole career to think about I can't do this" Zosia cries even more before Oliver agrees to the paternity test.
He sits and watches the young doctor who is still clinging to his top, he doesn't react to this but lets her carry on crying into his arms, it was the first time in a long while Oliver felt as if he had to get his priorities right.
Oliver stands up after a while and walks over to Madeleine who is now asleep and smiles "Ollie?" Zosia questions as he heads towards the door.
"Yes?" he questions turning around to look at Zosia.
"Please don't leave me" she sniffles and Oliver thinks to himself for a while was he really making the ice queen melt? he never really saw the other side of Zosia until now and now he is starting to realise how venerable Zosia really is.
He gives her a smile and replies "I won't be long" she watches him leave the room and then looks over at her sleeping new born.
Zosia stands up once again and peers into the cot, "I'm not good enough for you Madeleine I don't know if I can cope, I'm only 27 I'm not mother material" Zosia says as she tries to look brave as the midwife comes in and checks on them both.
Some of the thoughts that were now going around in her head where distraught and messed up the thought of over dosing came to mind quiet a lot and how one fatal overdose and the lights forever, or hanging but she thought it was a bit too much, running off and leaving Madeleine was another idea but she would be hated on for possibly the rest of her life.
"So have you a name for this little one?" the nurse speaks up and makes Zosia jump who instantly locks her phone and holds it close to her chest
She gives the nurse a smile and replies "Madeleine." The nurse nods and writes Madeleine on the little tag that is around Madeleine's ankle before leaving the room once again, leaving Zosia feeling lost and lonely.
Half an hour later Guy arrives to see his new granddaughter but he noticed something wasn't right with Zosia apart from her being very nervous when holding Madeleine she seemed as if she wasn't bonding with her enough.
Guy decided to research some of the ways in which Zosia could bond with Madeleine and he finally spoke up to Zosia and says "Have you tried skin to skin contact with her?" she shakes her head and lifts Madeleine out of the cot and onto her chest and rubs her thumb over Madeleine's head and smiles at Guy.
"Dad I'm scared" Zosia mutters and Guy gets up and walks over to her.
"You sound just like your mother you know that Zoshie, she was the same when you were born she had no idea how to hold you what to say to you or even how to change you. Don't worry darling you'll pick it up as you go" Guy replies placing a single kiss on his daughters head and moves back into the chair next to Zosia.
"Dad Arthur and Ollie are doing a paternity test now and I think I will know the result soon" Zosia says to Guy and his face lights up as he finally realises Zosia wants the father involved after all.
A few hours later Oliver and Arthur arrive with the results both Doctors looks at Zosia and smiles "So?" Zosia begins and Arthur and Oliver walk over to the side of Zosia and smile as they both have read the results alright. "So is anyone going to tell me or what?" Zosia says as she starts to get a little worried thinking that maybe Madeleine's father isn't either Arthur or Oliver.
Oliver hands her the evelope as soon as she puts Madeleine down and she takes a deep breath in and opens it and pulls the letter with the results on and begins to read it.