Confessions of Castiel Novak

by Thebuttchesters

Castiel is a freshman and the University of Chicago. He has began writing to cope with his father's abandonment and his fading faith in the Lord. He meets a friend named Dean Winchester who helps him find the things worth sticking around for.

4. 9-31-13

9.31.13

It was chilly today. So I put on my maroon crewneck, old blue converse, and went to class. I was happy as I walked. Because it all felt really… nice. I like when it is cold and I can see the smoke from my cigarette drift through the wind. I like the leaves turning orange and the feeling of sweaters. I feel like a 13 year old girl when I say that but it is true. I like those simple things.

Of course class wasn't happy. I listened to my professor talk about the lord and I watched my classmates get enthused. I saw my old self in them. I saw hope and belief. Dedication. I felt empty and bitter. Faith was my purpose. But my Trust in God faded as the Problem of Evil rose.

I wish I wasn't so cynical.

Well I guess that is why I am writing.