A S T O R Y A B O U T L O V E .
Chapter Four – Long Time Coming
Your patronizing stare can watch me heal.
What I would give for you to tae the wheel
It's just been a long time coming
The strong resemblance to my mother's womb
is the reason why I will not leave this room
It's been a long time coming
The lack of self-esteem has grown on me
I'm not as strong as I appear to be
It's been a long time coming
My flesh makes little sense compared to yours
I wish my restlessness would open doors
It's just been a long time coming
"All set?" Derek asks when he walks back into the house after throwing the luggage in the trunk.
"Yeah how late is our flight?"
"10.''
"Yay two hours on a plane with two fuzzy children." I fake enthusiasm.
"Come on, stay positive it won't be that bad."
"Forgot the last time we flew with Jamie?" I question, raising an eyebrow.
The last time we flew Jamie was 1 and didn't stop crying and screaming until we landed.
"That was like 4 years ago, he's older now."
"Yeah now we have a 6 month old."
"You think she's going to make a scene?" He looks at me and I nod. "Aww you little princess, are just a big drama queen like your mom?" Derek says in a sing-y voice to Charlie.
"Don't listen to your dad." I shoot him a glare.
"I was just kidding, although you know how to make a scene—ouch!" He yelps out when I pinch his arm.
"You're such a child."
He mumbles a reply but I don't hear him instead I walk with Charlie into the kitchen, grabbing the diaper bag.
"Can you get Jamie?"
"He's already been in the car for half an hour." Derek says laughing. "He even asked me if he could help me with the luggage."
I let out a small laugh and walk closer to him, smiling.
"What's with that smile on your face?"
"Nothing, can't I just be happy for once?"
"No of course you can." He smiles back.
"I mean, look at you, suddenly all husband/daddy-like, I feel like I could wake up any minute."
"Well this is reality Add, you deserve to be happy."
"Yeah but…that still doesn't mean we haven't got issues to work." I say, shifting Charlie, who was asleep, against my chest.
"True, I'm not denying that but could we for this week not think about that?"
"Of course, we're just going to be happy this week."
"We are." He leans in for a kiss and I quickly kiss him back, although he caught me off guard.
"Are we there yet?" Jamie asks impatiently.
"No we aren't."
"How long?"
"Long."
"How long is long?"
"Long."
"You just said that."
"Jamie please." I respond annoyed.
"But mommy my movie ended and I'm bored!"
"Hold on there bud, you can see another movie." Derek patiently said, putting another DVD in the portable.
"Now you're just showing off." I whisper.
"Hey anything to impress my girl right."
"Right." I shake my head laughing, grunting when Charlie began to cry next to Jamie.
"Mommy, mommy make her stop!" He cries out, covering his ears.
"Jamie calm down, we can't stop here, try singing her something okay."
He nods, remembering she would always calm down when I sung a song for her.
"The wheels of the bus go round and round, round and round, the wheels on the bus go round and round all through t—Mommy she doesn't stop!" He yells, making me more desperate because we can't stop on the middle of a busy road.
"Sshh calm down baby, mommy is right here see, she's right here." I try to calm down the crying baby, my hands just long enough to stroke her sock clad feet.
"There's a gas station where we can stop."
"Thank God.'' I breathe out.
"See what was all that fuss about?" I coo to the now content girl who's sweetly drinking her bottle while Derek and Jamie are getting something to eat.
"Hey beautiful." Derek sneaks up behind me. "I got you something." He gives me a sandwich over my shoulder and lightly kisses my neck.
I turn my head to the side and kiss his lips. "Thanks I'm starving."
"Yeah this seemed more tasteful than those gross sandwiches you have in the car, I got Jamie an ice-cream"
"Ice-cream?" I raise an eyebrow at him, darn well aware of how my little guy manages to smear ice-cream all over himself.
"He wanted ice-cream Add, how can I refuse a 5 year old ice-cream?"
"Hhmm where is he now?"
"Playground." He points at the small playground next to the parking lot where I see him sliding of the slide excitedly.
"I'm glad we decided to go." I detach the bottle from Charlie's lips as she already fell asleep.
"We're not on the plane yet so don't yell yay too soon."
Rolling my eyes I answer. "Still, I do."
"Me too." He answers quickly, capturing my lips between his.
When we walk towards the car 10 minutes later Charlie instantly starts crying when I try to buckle her up in the car seat.
"Oh oh baby, you don't like to sit in the car seat now do you?" I coo to her in an attempt to calm her down.
"I think she'd rather cuddle with her mom." Derek says, laughing slightly as he buckles Jamie's seat belt, who is talking to him about the cool slide.
"Hmm yeah, do you think I could hold her in my lap until she's calmed down?"
"Addison no, you know how dangerous that is!"
"But Derek she won't stop crying and we can't stay here for longer because we will miss our flight." I explain hopelessly and see that Derek is considering it.
"Okay until she's sleeping, then we'll stop somewhere and lay her in the car seat again." He replies and detaches the baby car seat from the back seat and holds it out to put Charlie in it.
"There ya go."
I sit down in the passenger's seat and Derek gives me the baby seat to hold in my lap.
"You've got her?"
"Yeah."
Derek makes his way around the car and sits down in the driver's seat. "There we go again."
"Daddy who is your favourite Superhero: Superman, Spiderman or Batman?"
"Well that's a rather hard question! Let me think." Derek pretends to debate between the answers. "Hmm Superman."
"That's my favourite Superhero too!" Jamie yells out excitedly and Derek chuckles because he only chose that answer because he knows Jamie loves Superman.
"Really, now who would've thought?"
"Where is Charlie, where is Charlie?" I say in an exciting voice as I play Peek-a-boo with her and cover my eyes. "Oh there is Charlie." I say surprised when I remove my hands, which makes her let out a giggle followed by some baby gurgling. "Yes there is my pretty pretty girl!"
"What is that moron doing?" Derek yells out when the car in front of us suddenly slows speed before increasing it again.
"Derek calm down."
"The guy in front of us is driving like a maniac!" He says frustrated, when the car begins to swing over the road.
Derek rolls down the window and pokes his head out. "Hey asshole there are children in the car!"
"Son of a b-!" He tries to slam the breaks in time when the car in front of us suddenly stops, but the car slips through and slams into the other one with a loud crash.
All I hear is loud screams and cries until the sound gets harder and harder for me to hear and I slip out of conscious…
& My lullaby sounds more like distant screams
I wake up sleep deprived after every dream
It's been a long time coming