AN: Sorry it took so long to update, I worked alot this weekend and writers block : ( ....but enjoy as always please review :)

Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight

EPOV

For the first time in over a hundred years I was at a loss for words, not just words but thoughts as well. What was I to do? I wanted to write back immediately and tell her it was me and I was sorry and I loved her…but I couldn't for a number of reasons. For one, we would both fail the course, and I couldn't do that to her. And to add to it, I did not want to upset her. I was glad she was happy and I didn't want to ruin that for her. But I couldn't shake the feeling that this message did not sound like she was happy. Was it wrong to want to talk to her, I decided because she did not know it was me, it would be harmless; and for the next few months I would be in contact with her and my life would be semi complete with mere communication with her. So I type a response…

Dear Elizabeth,

It seems we have some reasoning in common in choosing Dartmouth. I hope you find what you are looking for here, but know that you should not be afraid of people I'm sure you are more wonderful than you even know. What other classes are you taking besides Lit 103; do you think any of them will be hard? Do you like it here in New Hampshire; it's quite astonishing here isn't it. Although I must admit I have seen things that captured beauty in more accurate manner.

Until we speak again,

Tristen

O and p.s. I am so utterly and completely in love you with and would run to the ends of the earth if you merely had an interest in seeing it. Well at least, that's what I wanted to say.

BPOV

I didn't plan on responding to my, "pen pals," e-mail but when he responded to my so kindly I decided it would be rude not to.

Tristen,
It appears we do have our reasoning in common. Thank you for your kind words but the things I'm looking for I'm afraid are lost beyond finding, but I will get by. I am taking the usual general ed courses Bio, Computers, Math, that kind of stuff, they all seem pretty simple, or at least so far. To be honest I haven't seen much but the inside of my room, I don't get out much, but I hear things here are beautiful.

-Elizabeth

It seemed odd to me that the person I had been paired with was so sincere. It also struck a nerve that he seemed so interested; my message had been generic and uneventful. It was almost as if he knew me. I finished some of my math subjects online and decided to fix something to eat. I got a bowl down from the cabinet and pulled out the Easy Mac. All I had in my room was a microwave and I refused to live off that awful stuff they call Ramen, so Easy Mac it was.

That was one down fall of dorm life, no stove in which to cook on. I curled up on my bed and flipped on the T.V. ironically enough I landed on the weather channel. Rain, rain, and more rain, not that I wasn't used to it, but even if I would have wanted to explore it would be to crappy outside. I almost felt pity for myself; I had literally not seen the light of day since I got here. I decided for my sanity I needed to get out tomorrow, come rain or come shine I would go out to see something, anything…

I woke up the next morning and sure enough the clouds were out with no sun in sight. I decided to walk down the street to the nearby park and recreation center. I normally wasn't one to be outdoors all the time, I fall a lot. But, I figured, since I could walk there it would suffice.

I put on my rain boots, a gift from Sue Clearwater for graduation; ever since her husband Harry died she spent a lot of time with me and my dad. I didn't mind of course I loved Sue. She insisted that if I was going to go somewhere with a similar climate to Forks then they would be a must have. She was no Alice, but Sue liked to shop, especially for other people. They were solid purple with pink around the rims, not exactly the color I would have chosen but I was just glad they didn't have some obnoxious print on them. I put on my rain coat and I walked outside.

It was cold but I didn't shiver, I kept it freezing in my room. The boots were awkward to walk in so I would probably fall sometime today. It was less than a mile away so I was there in about ten minutes. I really hadn't thought about what I would do once I got there. So I just sat motionless on one of the swings. I inhaled the scent of the trees mixed with the rain and mulch. It was intoxicating. I hadn't realized how much I missed the air.

I took out my favorite books, Wuthering Heights, from my raincoat pocket and started to read it. I had read this book so many times I could probably quote it word for word but it held a sort of constant fascination for me. After a few chapters an eerie feeling crept over me. I was being watched. I looked around and saw nothing, but I decided it was time to head back anyway. As I was passing by the nearby fountain I heard the roar of a car on the opposite road. I whirled around to see and I swear I saw the back end of what I thought was a silver Volvo speeding away into the distance.

EPOV

I knew it was wrong but I could help myself. I found the dorms she was staying in and spent the majority of my days waiting outside of them, yearning to catch even a glimpse of her. Finally after a few days I saw my beauty emerge. She was wearing big rain boots and a sudden concern rushed over me at the thought of how awkward they would be for her to walk, she would probably fall and I would have to resist the urge to run at the speed of light to catch her.

She walked to the nearest park and I decided to drive so I wouldn't attract attention to myself. I didn't want people to see me watching her and then tell her she had some guy stalker who just happened to be a vampire…ok the last part was a bit of an exaggeration but I still couldn't risk her seeing me. So I sat in my Volvo studying her every move. She took out a book after swinging for a few minutes. I didn't have to look at the book to know which one it was. She had taken that book with her a lot when we were together. After about a while she got a weird expression on her face and I knew it was time to leave. It killed me, I didn't want this time to be over yet but I sped away anyway, I just prayed that she didn't see.

BPOV

I was running now, but because I was scared but because the gaping hole in my chest was clawing at the darkness again. It couldn't have been. It was just some cruel joke that fate dangled in front of me. It was raining again so the ground was extra slick. I slipped running up the stairs to the dorm and fell down the whole flight, solo predictable Bella… I didn't care about the pain I just got back up and continued running till I made it to the destination of my bed.

My body shuttered as the tears exploded from my eyes. My body felt like an earthquake and I was going to break open at any moment. I thought of my family. The ones that left me, I thought of Esme and Carlisle and Emmett and Rose and Jasper and Alice. I loved them so much why, how, could they ever leave me. And ….Edward, my body shook just to think his name, my cries became so heavy that nothing but silent sobs were echoing my room. I must have fell asleep because I dreamt of that day in the forest, when Edward broke my heart, but only this time it was different. He didn't say he was leaving, he told me he loved me and he would always be there. This was the worst kind of nightmare, because it led me to happiness I know could never exist for me again.