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J.P.V.
Talking to Esme wasn't as hard as I thought it would be and she seemed eager to meet the man who changed me. I knew how much kids meant to her and Carlisle maybe this was their chance to have a family. I quickly raced up stairs and knocked on Bella's door. "You can come in Jasper." Bella's voice came through the door.
I opened the door and she turned to face me. Her beautiful long hair moving as she turned and a warm smile on her face. Why hadn't I ever noticed before how incredible and beautiful she was? "What wrong?" she asked noticing me staring. "Nothing you umm just you look very nice." As I spoke warm color flooded her cheeks. "Well thank you." Bella said quietly.
"My talk with Esme went well she said I can stay in their house till whenever. She was also eager to tell Carlisle about this man I think there going to see if they can have kids." I hoped this would cheer her up but suddenly her smile fell. "What's wrong Bella?" I asked very concerned. "Well I still get to see you?" her voice was quiet and she wouldn't look me in the eye.
"Of course Bella I did come to Forks for you mostly." I approached her carefully hoping I wouldn't scare her. I gently, slowly pulled her into a hug. I was shocked that her body relaxed into mine and she didn't seem frightened. "I wont leave till you order me to." I don't know why I just said that but I knew I had meant every word.
B.P.V:
Jasper slowly pulled me into a gentle hug. I knew I still loved him but there was something about the way Jasper held be that made me believe I might be whole again. I instantly relaxed into his arms happy about the way it felt. Jasper seemed so different then when he was a vampire more open to me and less afraid.
We hugged a little longer then went out to find furniture. We spent the whole day picking out some furniture for his house and went out to eat. I learned many things about Jasper and he learned things about me. I dreaded the moment when he would bring up Edward knowing tears would flow easily. I didn't understand why he left I never would. Jasper seemed to take the separation from Alice hard but not as hard I took Edward leaving me.
I was the one who brought up the dreaded subject. We went for a walk through a nice small park in Port Angles. "Jasper can I ask you something?" we walked side by side never grabbing for the others hand. "Of course Bella." He smiled warmly as he spoke. "How do you hold up and not break down? I find it hard to live day to day with everything I have nightmares, I cry myself to sleep, and I emerge myself into homework shutting everyone out. Yet, here you are just left your wife of 90 years and seem like it hasn't been this long." I sighed knowing he wouldn't have my answers.
Jasper looked deep in thought then motioned for me to sit down. "I love Alice, Bella with all my heart but it's a love of respect. We never had a conventional relationship we wanted a partner. We wanted someone to talk to. We didn't really kiss or be intimate at all. She was more of my best friend for 90 years then a wife." He looked at me with a soft look full of apology.
"Then why did you get married?" I asked before I could think what I was asking. "You don't have to answer. " I quickly added. "No its fine we more had a wedding to symbolized are friendship and Alice always wanted a huge all eyes on her wedding. So I made her happy they way she made me happy being in my life. Bella I can't understand what your going threw nor will I try. What happened between you two is your business not mine. I will promise you this though I will help you as much as I can." He looked me directly in the eyes. He had the most beautiful blue eyes I had ever seen.
I sighed and looked away I was shocked I hadn't started crying already. "I can't talk about it I try and all that comes out it tears and a pain deep in my chest. This feeling like nothing will ever be the same." The tears started to stream as I spoke and Jasper pulled me into his arms. We stayed like that for a few minutes then Jasper said he would drive us home. We stole glances at each other and maintained a comfortable silence. Maybe I would be all right and maybe just maybe Jasper would be the person to fix it.
*GERMANY ALICE:
Life was slow here especially without Jasper. The days were long but the nights were longer. I wondered a lot how long it would take until Bella and Jasper realized they were suppose to be together. Knowing my Jazz it wouldn't be long. I knew we never suppose to be together I knew that Jasper was meant for someone else. That someday he would become human and we would no longer be together. That he then would have to find a girl I saw in my vision with Brown hair and Chocolate brown eyes.
I just believed I had more time because when your vampire time is all you have. When we first met Bella I thought she might possibly be the girl of my visions but quickly thought otherwise convincing myself she wasn't it. Then everything happened with Edward and Bella. He left her broken and Jasper was even more desperate to find a way to become human after he almost killed Bella on her birthday.
I never thought in a million years he would succeed till that day he came home. My heart was ripped from my chest if I could cry I would. I loved him though he never knew it. He believe we were together just for companionship nothing more but to me it grew into love. Now here I sit in a modern luxury apartment staring at divorce papers and wondering what happened to my life.
Suddenly an angry buzzing sound came for my pocket I debated to answer then I saw the called ID. It was Edward.
J.P.V:
Bella and made dinner together then watched I am Legend. Bella fell asleep on my shoulder and when the movie was over I slowly picked her up and carried her to her room. I slowly tucked her into bed. Then sat in the rocker to watch her sleep for a little bit which fascinated me. She looked so peaceful and calm.
As I looked at Bella I felt a twinge of sadness I didn't understand. I then realized I was sad because I knew we had no future together she would never see me as anything other than a monster. Then Bella rolled over in bed and spoke my name softly. I paused thinking she woke up but quickly realized she was asleep. As she spoke my name I thought maybe there was hope for us. I quietly left the room then went down stairs. Maybe the girl Alice was talking about was Bella.
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