Hey guys! Here is the next chapter of my story, Chapter 4! There is a very special person who I would like to thank for writing this Ezria chapter for me. That would be the one and only MLollyLucy. She wrote this chapter for me so that it would put a little bit of mystery and I thought it would be cool to have a change. So, here is something form fellow liar, best friend and the most amazing gal that pulled an all nighter on skype with me just to finish this!
Hey guys this is Mlollylucy here. SamLuvsPLL asked me to write this chapter because of the amount of Ezra in it… no that is a lie. I practically begged her to let me write it. Sorry if it's a little more on the weird side but to be fair I finished writing this at 1:20 am! I hope you enjoy and please please review! Okay so there it is! I'm done! If you guys don't review I'm gonna have to set ~A on you and I'm sure you don't want that! So Review, review, review!
I don't own Pretty Little Liars and all rights belong to Sara Shepard and Warner Bro's. If I did, Ezria would be public and Hanna and Hardy (Hardanna) would be real ;)
Love my little liars 3
(Aria POV)
Jason went to his kitchen to make coffee after he wrapped me in a big fluffy blanket. When he came back he handed me the coffee, slightly grazing my hand. It was time to pour my heart out to somebody…
"What happened?" he asked, looking into my eyes. I couldn't exactly tell him everything. But some of it I could… most of it would help me and hopefully he wouldn't judge.
"Promise me you will listen to all 0f it with out interrupting or judging?", he nodded and took my hands into his which I thought was a little weird but it was warm…
"Spencer and I are fighting… I said something along the lines of she doesn't know where Toby is all the time. You know how I was dating Ezra Fitz?" he nodded, "Well he was also my English teacher, so things were more than complicated. Only the girls, one of Ezra's best friends and now you know. Well, Spencer said she always knew where Toby was and I should keep a closer watch on Ezra because Toby was working and not… not screwing his high school students… we never did anything like that, I mean we kissed and sometimes it got pretty heated, but never to that level! After she said that I raced to Ezra's apartment and broke up with him… I mean, if I can't trust one of my best friends with this then I couldn't trust people who didn't understand the relationship," I could feel tears rolling down my cheeks and Jason wiped them away. It was nice to know there was still someone that was willing to wipe my sadness away.
"I can't go home because my parents are fighting, so you were the only one left, the one person I could go to and not be judged for what I have done…" I looked down into my coffee cup and saw my blurry reflection in the steamy brown liquid. I saw the black lines running down my face and how my hair had started to dry into a massive frizzy knot.
The tears fell of my face and into the cup of coffee making little ripples and making my face look even more distorted. I looked over at Jason and he was sitting so close to me that our thighs touched, he took the coffee from my hands and placed it on the coffee table that was in front of us. He pulled me onto his lap leaving the blanket behind. He captured my lips with his and it became passionate very quickly. It may have seemed like I was kissing back, but in reality I was trying to get him away from me. My small arms didn't have the strength to get him off me and before I knew it he had pulled my wet clingy top over my head… he was on top of me within seconds unclasping my bra. He pulled it away as his tongue entered my mouth. Maybe if I vomited in his mouth he would pull away, because I was about to. My best bet of getting his huge form off of me was bitting his tongue; it grazed over my bottom teeth and now was my chance.
CHOMP!
Right down of his filthy tongue, I held it in between my teeth tightly and he tried to pull away. I could taste his blood in my mouth, much to my disgust, and I unclenched my jaw letting his tongue go free. I wiped my mouth on my bare arm trying to get rid of as much blood as possible.
"What the hell did you do that for!" he sat up holding his tongue and taking in the site of my naked torso. Tears rolled down my face and I put my arms over my chest.
"Aria you and your boyfriend are over… its okay we can do this now!" he said trying to climb on top of me again. I jumped off the couch and pulled my bra on along with my wet top. I grabbed my bag and ran to the front door, as I was steeping out outside he yelled at me.
"Where are you going to go? No one wants you Aria!" I wiped the tears off my face and squinted at him through the rain. I looked down at him… metaphorically…
"Its better to be loved by nobody, than to be loved by you!" and with that I made my way to a local coffee shop to buy a coffee. I took it outside to sit at a bus stop. Probably where I would spend the cold wet night in my soaked clothes. I clutched the heatproof paper cup to my chest, hoping to draw a little warmth from it. I closed my eyes settling into the cold metal seat, closing my eyes and listening to the rain as it collided with the tin roof of the bus shelter rolling off and onto the ground, only to collect in small puddles.
(General PER)
The bus stop she was sitting at was in a secluded part of Rosewood very quite and full of normal families. Across the street in a big old wooden house she could see a little girl lying down with a small teddy bear in her arms. Her small head resting on her fathers shoulder. The man looked to be around 30 and he seemed happy, what with a small child in his arms, sitting in a huge house that seemed normal from the outside, at least. She couldn't help but notice how the girl giggled as her father made a funny face. The man flipped through the pages of a book making illustration with his face along the way. As the book came to a close the little child drifted of to sleep. Her father planting a goodnight kiss on her forehead before turning a nightlight on and the big light off, checking on her once more before he left her bedroom. Aria got off the metal chair taking her coffee with her and crossing the road to get a closer look at the girl. The rain was falling hard and as Aria looked up, droplets found themselves stuck in her eyelashes. She stood there for a little while, watching the child that had her thumb in her mouth and an arm wrapped around the teddy bears neck. All the lights went off in the house. The girls bedroom door opening again, a little puppy making its way from the door to the end of the princess bed. A lady and the man from earlier stood in the doorway watching their little miracle. The lady held a small baby in her arms and the man had his arms around the lady. Soon after, they walked out of the girl's bedroom. Aria turned back around making her way back to the bus shelter. She couldn't help but wish her family were like that. Well maybe they were once but everything grows bitter! One day that little girl would grow up to find disappointment in her life along with regrets.
Aria wished her family were still that happy… how they used to be. She wished her life wasn't so complicated with Allison's death, Ian and the Ezra thing. She wanted so much for Ezra's warm arms to be around her but it was her fault that they never would be again. Yes, she would like to point all fingers at Spencer but Aria knew she was stronger than that… She should be able to take a few nasty comments! She loved Ezra and what people think should never change that! She thought to herself. She took the last sips from her coffee cup, placing it down on the ground under the chair. She lay down on the metal seat, ready for sleep to over take her body. But her teeth started chattering and the rain fell heavier and faster. It was dark and Aria felt a little scared!
(Hanna POV)
I followed Aria into an apartment block and hid round the corner as she broke up with Mr Fitz. I watched from behind a pot plant as she raced down the stairs, choking on her tears. My eyes started to well up with tears seeing how much pain my best friend was in! Once I knew she would not come back up the stairs, I made my way over to Mr Fitz's closed, door tapping on it three times. It swung open to reveal a distorted Mr Fitz.
"Aria?" he cried out before he saw it was me.
"I'm sorry…" was all I could push out of my mouth.
"No, no its fine… can I help you with something Miss Marin?" he tried to contain his emotions.
"Umm… do you know where Aria might have gone?" now I thought, why did I feel the need to knock on his door?
"I'm sorry I don't… can I ask you something?" I simply nodded sadly.
"Do you know why Aria… why she?" he couldn't say the word out loud so I cut him of.
"Yes… Spencer said something and it hurt her to think that no one would accept this." I gestured to him and he knew what I meant. Mr Fitz, we have to find her… I know she won't go home… he parents are fighting and she thinks it's her fault. She won't come to one of our house and she just left here…" I said sadly.
"Come on then. Let me grab my keys…" and with that said we were in his car driving around the dark streets of Rosewood.
(Aria PER)
I decided that the chair was uncomfortable so I sat up pulling my knee's to my chest and started to sob. The rain became much louder on the tin roof and I looked up to see no only rain falling but also hail. (If you guys don't what that it's like ice cubes falling from the sky! Kill the cars!). I put my head back down to my knees and the tears fell from my eyes, then I heard footsteps. I looked up to see the one and only Hardy standing there! He didn't recognise me at first,
"Its coming down really fast!" he turned and smiled at me until he saw who I was and that I was crying, "Aria?" all I did was nod and he came and sat next to me, draping his jacket around my shoulders.
"What happened?" he said wiping away my tears. I didn't really know Hardy, I mean we had met once and we were cool with one another but would he really care about my whole life story?
"I broke up with Ezra!" on came a new wave of sobs.
"Why? And why didn't you go home?" he said patting my back.
"You know about the whole student teacher thing? Well my… someone said that she always knew where her boyfriend was and that I should keep a closer eye on Ezra because her boyfriend was working and not… um… screwing his student. So I broke it off with Ezra and I can't go home because my parents are still fighting…" it felt weird talking to Hardy like this… but he listened.
"Aria…" he looked to be deep in thought, "you can't take note of what other people say! You love Ezra right?" I nodded and he continued, "then what people say shouldn't get in the way of your love because he loves you more than life its self!" more tears fell down my cheeks as I looked into his eyes.
"Come on sweet heart come back to my place to keep warm?" I nodded because it had to be better then spending my first night on a bus bench in the rain. The hail had mostly stoped but Hardy carried me to his car placing me in the passenger seat.
(Hardy PER)
I took Aria back to my house and lent her some dry clothes also putting a blanket around her
I left her on my couch and went to call Ezra… knowing him he would probably be looking for her.
"Hey Ez!" I whispered into the phone so that Aria wouldn't hear me.
"Hardy I really can't talk right now I'm looking for Aria." He asked someone if that was her and there was a girl in that back ground who said 'open your eyes Aria is much prettier than that!'
"Ezra? Aria is with me… I found her sobbing under a bus shelter in wet cloths so I told her to come back to my place…"
"WHAT?" Ezra almost squealed into the phone.
"I-have-shortie! Your-shortie!"
"We are on our way!" and he hung up so I went back to sit with Aria. She was asleep so I put the TV on until there was a knock at the front door.
"Ezra?" I saw Ezra and a cute blonde behind him.
"Where is she?" he got right to the point.
"On the couch…" he and the short blonde pushed past me to get to Aria.
"Aria are you okay now?" she looked up with tears in her eyes and flung her arms around Ezra's neck. They both ended up sitting on my couch with Aria on Ezra's lap. It felt like an intense moment…
"I'm going to make some coffee." I said walking into my kitchen.
"I'm coming!" the little blonde called out.
"I'm Hardy by the way" I stuck my hand out and she shook it.
"Hanna" she flashed a bright smile.
"So how do you know Ezra?" my hand still entwined with hers.
"Mr Fitz is my English teacher…" she pulled her hand back, blushing.
"Very cool, so are you friends with Aria then?"
"We have been best friends for ages, well, since she left" Hanna said
"Where did she go?" I asked her curiously. She looked down at the floor and then back up at me.
"She left to Iceland after our other friend, Alison, went missing" she said in a low whisper her eyes becoming glassy.
"So you were close with Alison?" I watched her full glossy lips quiver as she nodded. I wanted nothing more than to feel my lips against hers to take her pain away. She took a moment to pull herself together.
"Do you need help with that?" she said looking down at my hands they were balancing 4 cups of coffee.
"Sure" I said handing her 2, my hand slightly lingering on hers. We took the coffee into my family room to find Ezra and Aria making out. Hanna cleared he throat and they both looked up, their faces turning identical shades of scarlet. Hanna and I both laughed and then I handed them their coffee. Aria giving Hanna a smirk and in return Hanna stuck out her tongue.
(Aria POV)
I woke up to Ezra shaking me. His face was fairly close and all I wanted to do was hug him, what was the worst thing he could do? Push me away. I flung my arms around his neck and he took me onto his lap willingly.
"I'm sorry," I said against his neck drenching him in my tears.
"Its okay sweetheart… Hanna explained it to me. Why didn't you tell me? We could have worked through it together…" he said wiping my tears away. I shrugged not knowing how to answer that. He brought his face to mine and kissed me… then I heard Hanna clear her throat. Ezra and I jumped apart, red faced to see Hanna and Hardy watching up with mugs of coffee in their hands. I threw Hanna a knowing look and she stuck out her tongue. I took the boiling hot liquid into my hands and so did Ezra.
"So you two love birds figured everything out?" Hardy asked, sitting next to Hanna on the love seat across from us.
"Mmmhm" I mumbled looking at Ezra. We chatted for a while but Ezra decided it was time go home. Hanna stayed behind.
We reached Ezra's car and he turned the heat on. I really couldn't believe that he wasn't mad at me… if I was him I would be furious with me! I am furious with me for the record. My phone buzzed in my bad and I pulled it out.
Dearest Aria
You take all the fun out of things!
~A
"Who was that?" Ezra asked breaking the silence.
"… N-nobody, just my mother asking where I am." I stuttered.
"Ezra I really am sorry…" I said sensing the awkwardness in the atmosphere.
"I already told you its fine but… I just wish you hadn't given up on us so easily," he saw my face fall, "that's what I thought at first but then I realised how much you have to lie to your parents just to stay over at my apartment and how much your friends do for us… I never really took note of how hard this is for you, how much you have to lie to get away with this all to protect me…" he said looking at the dark road ahead of him.
"Ezra I don't mind doing those things for you… I love you and now I realise that the only thing people can do to hurt me is take you away because there would be no point for me to continue living…" I said also staring at the dark road ahead of us.
"Aria please never talk like that! You have a whole live a head of you… if anything happened to me I wouldn't want you to throw that away… all I want is for you to be happy!" he pulled me onto his lap before I could protest because he was driving I realised we were parked in his apartment block garage.
"Can I… can I stay with you tonight?" I asked with hope evident in my voice.
"You don't even have to ask my sweet!" he pecked my lips and then carried me up to apartment 3B. That night I slept in Ezra's arms where I belonged.
The next morning I woke up to the beeping of a smoke alarm. I ran out to Ezra's kitchen to find him swatting it with a tea towel. When he finally got it to stop he turned around and gave me one of his boyish grins that I loved so much. All I could do was giggle as I walked into his strong arms. They caught me in an embrace that quickly tightened.
"What's so funny?" he asked against my neck.
"How the only time you fire alarm goes off is when you cooking!" I giggled into his chest.
"Hey I'm such a good cook that even the fire alarm feels the need to cheer me on!" he pulled away from me and walked back over to the pan. I let him have this one since I was too tired to hold my head up let alone argue with him.
"Smells good chef what are we having?" I cuddled him from behind.
"Eggs!" he smiled. I let go of him and went to my bag and pulled my phone out seeing one new message from Hanna. It simply said call me? I went to my contacts not bothering as usual to just type the number in.
"Han? Good morning!"
"OMG meet me at the grill about 1:30 for lunch? I really need to talk to you!"
"Sure… 1:30?"
"Yep! I'll see you then! Love ya babe!"
"Okay, I love you to Han" and I hung up. When I turned around the eggs Ezra had successfully cooked with a few minor hiccups along the way and laid the coffee on table.
"You're not staying all day?" Ezra said with a frown.
"Hanna just wants to go to lunch to talk about something… but ill be back after if that's okay with you?" I put on a puppy dogface and he couldn't resist. He leant over the table and placed a soft kiss on my sleepy lips.
"I would love you to come back!" he said against my lips. I was surprised at how easily we could get passed what ha happen the night before.
Within a few hours I was on my way to the Apple Rose Grill to meet Hanna for lunch. I walked in and the bell above the door chimed signalling that someone had just entered. I hated the bells they put above doors they always made me feel like I was the centre of attention for that split second before people returned back to their conversation or doing whatever they had been doing before I came in. I tried to ignore the glance I received and spotted Hanna.
As soon as I sat down she was clinging on my arm bouncing up and down.
"Aria he's the most amazing guy! He's so sweet and a great kisser!" her eyes were starry and she continued to bounce and stare off into space.
"Han are you talking about Hardy?" when I spoke her name she snapped out of her trance.
"Maybe…" and her head ducked, "He asked me out tonight." She giggled.
"What did you say?"
"Maybe, I just wanted to make sure it was okay with you first…" well that's confusing…
"Why would you need my permission?" I asked trying to hide my confusion.
"I'm not sure… he's Ezra's friend and I didn't want… I just thought that you would like to have a say in it all." She shrugged and I blew it of.
"I really don't mind by the looks of things last night you got along pretty well." I winked at her and she pushed me playfully, "go call him and confirm for tonight!" a grin erupted on her face before she got up and stood out the front of the grill to call Hardy.
"Okay now that's confirmed you coming with me to find a dress." I groaned and she pulled me to her car and took us to her house.
After 3 gruelling hours of looking through Hanna's closet we settled on an elegant yet tight black dress with red pumps and a red clutch to match. She was all done up and driving me back to Ezra's apartment.
"Maybe we could double date sometime since Hardy understands the situation!" she exclaimed.
"Hanna I would love to… one day… but Ezra and I aren't public yet. So moot point." I said sadly, she was now dating an older guy but she could go out in public and people would spare them a second glance! If Ezra and I went out there, pictures would be taken for the newspaper, laughing and pointing. It saddened me to think that we would never be just a normal couple here in Rosewood… that here we would always be laughed at and made fun of. If we ever had some sort of future and I hoped that we did then we would have to move out of Rosewood, only coming back to it was inevitable!
"What's bothering you babe?" she asked clearly seeing my sad face.
"Nothing…" she could sense that I didn't want to talk about it. The rest of the ride to Ezra's was spent in silence letting me wallow in my thoughts. We reached the apartment and I stepped out of Hanna's car into the humid night air. That was the one thing I didn't like about rain, the 'Aftermath' if you will… how it made everything hot and sticky!
"Thanks Hanna! Have a lovely night!" I said trying to cover the disappointment that I felt about not being able to go on a date with Ezra that didn't confine us to his apartment, all our relationship knew was the four walls of his apartment. I waved as Hanna drove off then made my way up to 3B. A sharp tap on the door and then it swung open to reveal Ezra's open arms so I crawled into them willingly!
"Hey chicky! What took you so long today? Is Hanna okay?" he said kissing my fore head.
"Hanna's fine… I had to help her pick out and outfit for tonight… Hardy asked her out tonight." I said sadly pulling him closer to me.
"Why does that bother you honey? Are you jealous?" he said lifting my chin forcing me to look within the depths of his blue crystal eyes.
"Not in the sense that you would think… I don't like Hardy but I'm jealous that Hanna is dating an older guy but can still go out in public with him with out being laughed at…" I said trying to look down again.
"I'm so sorry Aria… come on let's go out now!"
"What? Ezra that didn't mean I want to go out tonight!" I said in pure shock.
"Why not? There is never going to be a perfect time… so why not now!"
"I agree but I'm not dressed and I just want to be in your arms tonight… please for me? Stay?" I pouted.
"Okay but we are going out within the next week, on a real date!" with that he pulled me over to his couch. I kicked of my shoes and crawled into his lap.
For about an hour he read to me but I was continuously yawning involuntarily.
"Go put some clothes on and I'll read you to sleep?" I merely nodded and padded of to his bedroom where I found one of his shirts and some boxers. I wondered sleepily back to the couch.
"I think your phone buzzed…" Ezra said peeping up from behind the book. I grabbed it out on my bag in the corner and crawled back into his welcoming arms.
1 new text message: Hanna Marin
Aria I just spoke to Spencer she's gonna call you… btw having a really nice time with Hardy!
Luv ya and talk to you tomorrow!
~Han
I lay my head back against Ezra's chest as he continued to read to me while I awaited Spencer's call. The phone buzzed twice then had a short break before buzzing to more times. I sighed and climbed out of Ezra's lap.
"Hello?" I spoke to the receiver.
"Oh Aria I'm so sorry you have no idea how much I regret saying that to you! You know that's not how I looked at the relationship! I didn't mean to break you up! Aria you have to go back to him… tell him what I did and that's why you did what you did! I don't have any other way to fix this." She poured her heart out to me and by the end I could hear the tears in her throat.
"Spencer it fine, I'm with him now! Ezra's friend found me on a bus bench and took me to his house… long story short Ezra came and got me…" I said bluntly. I did have reason to be mad at her… but fair is fair she had just as much reason to be mad at me!
"Oh thank GOD!" she sobbed.
"Spencer can we do this later? I'm tired, I'll call you tomorrow…" again I yawned involuntarily.
"Sure! Good bye Aria have a nice night!" she said and then hung up. I locked my phone and threw it back into my bag and once again crawled back onto Ezra's lap. He began to read to me again from the love poems of Pablo Neruda, I loved the way his voice flowed through the poems. I settled into his lap, the last poem I herd that night was extraordinary:
Morning is full:
The morning is full of storm
In the heart of summer.
The clouds travel like white handkerchiefs of
Goodbye,
The wind, travelling, waving them in its hands.
The numberless heart of the wind
Beating above our loving silence
Orchestral and divine, resounding among the trees
Like a language full of wars and songs.
Wind that bears off the dead leaves with a quick raid
And deflect the pulsing arrows of the birds.
Wind that topples her in a wave without spray and substance without weight, and leaning fires.
Her mass of kisses breaks and sinks, assailed in the door of the summer's wing
I let the darkness over take my body, slowly sinking deeper into Ezras warm lap. Dreams and sceneries play in my mind continuously all night long but the only one I remembered the, only one that was worth remembering was Ezra and mine first date out in Rosewood. I guess you could call it bittersweet the only dream I have ever had with an oxymoron involved…
The hours spent getting ready and all for what? So I could go out and be pointed at by people who had no clue what they were talking about that didn't understand the relationship… but if Ezra and I understood the relationship that's all that counted right?
Ezra knocked on my front door so I raced down to get it before anyone else could but my mother beat me to it.
"Ezra what are you doing here? And looking so dashing I might add!"
"I'm here to pick Aria up… we are going on a date" and before my mother could grab me, I took of out the front door with Ezra close behind.
"ARIA MONTGOMERY YOU WAIT UNTIL YOU GET HOME!" my mother exclaimed from the front door. But it didn't matter what was waiting for me when I returned home, I was with Ezra now and none of that mattered! For our first date Ezra took me to one of the most expensive restaurants in Rosewood. Red Rose Bay is one of the most posh places to eat and to the plus side most of the kids in my grade couldn't afford it there but the down side, there is always a down side! And this time it was that Ezra was the one paying, I mean of cause I would try but he always won with the ways of money!
A man standing behind the podium at the front of the restaurant asked if we wanted a table… no I would prefer to eat on the floor. What pieces of floor do you most recommend? No for God sakes I want to eat a table! Why was I speaking to myself like this? What had gotten into me? I had to snap out of it! We were lead to a table and Ezra pulled the chair out for me. Dinner was a peaceful affair. It all started when we took a stroll in the park across from the restaurant. It had to be one of the best meals I have ever eaten with Ezra but the walk was when it all started to go down hill. I couldn't help but feel like there was someone watching our every move… my nerves started to settle the more we walked around the park hand in hand. We walked further into the park and found a small brightly light gazebo. Ezra put his hand out and asked me to dance. There was no music but what did that matter? We had each other and were doing something we never got to do at homecoming… dance.
We circled around the small space for over ten minutes before our lips met. Then there was the flash of a camera and the rumble of entire crowds laughter. Ezra pulled back from out first kiss in public. The kiss was warm against the cool night air. There was another flash of a camera and a rumble of laughter followed close behind. There were people in all direction. Not just people but teenagers and teachers from school. Their laughter echoed thought the park making chills run down my spin until I could smash into a million pieces. One more bash of laughter woke me up… It was followed not by a flash of a camera but of lightning, I was all for rainy weather so long as it didn't throw electricity across the sky and kept its laughter to its self.
Ezra's strong, buff arms were around me when I awoke. I had tears on my face and was covered in sweat.
"Its okay it was only a dream" he repeated In my ear. I rolled over so I could look into his eyes.
"What happened? What were you dreaming about?" he wiped my tears away and held me close.
"It was awful all those people just laugh, Ezra they don't understand, why should we care what they think?"