"She locked the door." I heard Ruby say.
"She clearly wants to be left alone, so I say, let her be alone," Jaune replied.
"Jaune, you clearly don't understand, back when we were students, when we found out about her past she made a promise to me, to our whole team, not to hide things from us," Weiss said rather loudly, then her voice turned to demanding as she said: "so let us help you Blake Belladonna!"
"I already told you everything, you know about my past! You know about Lily! Now please LEAVE ME ALONE!" I exclaimed.
After that they seemed to get the message, for they stopped trying to converse with me and proceed to whisper among themselves, then they left altogether. After a few minutes I seemed to have cried myself to sleep. When I Awoke I whipped away the remaining tears from my eyes and looked around my room, to find my eyes landing on some books, but not just any books, but the Guardians of Ga'Hoole book series and tears filled my eyes once more as I remember Lily's sweet voice reading me those novels to me. Well known fact, I love to read, little know fact, I love being read to even more, Lily knew that and this was our favorite book series ever since we were kids. after I left the White Fang the first books I bought was that series. I even went through them, folding the pages to mark their favorite passages. so it would almost be like they were the same the collection that she shared with Lily a nostalgic whim I pick up a random book, book six, The Burning, and open to a random page, at this point in the story the little elf owl Gylphie just escaped from her captors and was flying back home to her friends. In the book there was a song sung about the little owl, and the song is what I quietly read aloud to myself.
"At the edge of the avalanche
at the glacier's icy rim
grows the flower of the snowfields
trebling in the wintry wind.
it dares live in edges
where naught else would ever grow,
so fragile, so unlikely
an owl slices through this blow.
she dares the katabats
her gizzard madly quivers,
but for her dearest of friends,
she vows she shall deliver.
like the lily of the avalanche
the glaciers icy rose
like the flower of the wind
the bright fierceness in her glows
the bravest are the smallest
the strongest are the weakest
the most fearful have the courage
to battle what is wrong"
By the end of the passage I was more resistant than reading, I memorized multiple passages from this series, but I believe that this was the first one. As a kid the words didn't quite resonate with me as they did that evening. Like little Gylphie, facing the dangerously strong karabate winds to be with her friends again, I will fight unfathomable odd to get Lily back. It's not that I'm afraid of many of the possible scenarios for falling; but like the skog sung '... the most fearful find the courage to battle what is wrong,' and it is wrong that Lily's locked up, what she did was not her fault, she was just with the wrong people, if was anybodies fault; it was mine. I should have taken her with me. A new wave of tears came at that thought, but I knit my eyebrows and had a new thought: I'm going to make things right.