chapter 4

'The Site'

Finally it was time for Edward to leave Forks, he decided that it would be best for him to travel by car to meet his family this would give him time to think about everything and especially time for him to think about Bella.

"What am I going to do without her?" He thought quietly "at least she will be able to carry on with her life. She can be safe now, without me" he continued to think as he was driving out of Forks on to the highway past his home, ahead he could see a traffic jam.

"In Forks, this kind of thing never happens. Something really bad must have happened" Edward said to himself looking around slightly confused.

As the traffic jam was going down and he was about to drive past the obstruction on the road he saw a police car, infact he saw Charlie's car, an ambulance and as he got closer he saw that it was a car crash. And then it hit him when he saw the car, he realised it wasn't a car infact it was a truck... Bellas truck.

He drove his car to the side of road and thought for while about getting out, he needed to know she was ok. What would it do to her now if she saw him? And if he found out she was fine would he still leave her?

He just couldn't leave knowing that Bella was in danger, why would he? The very reason he was leaving, was to save her from danger. But look at what happened, no matter what he tried to save her from he could never save Bella from herself.

Eventually Edward got out of his car, he walked toward the crash site, Charlie had turned around and spotted him. Edward could see so much pain in Charlie's face and knew it didn't look good. He needed to see he now.

"Edward, stay away please. She doesn't look good" Charlie said to Edward as he tried to get near Bella

"No, I need to see her Charlie!" Edward insisted slightly louder than he meant.

"You can see her at the hospital, they need to work on her" was all Charlie could say before the tears started dripping down his face. Edward knew then at that very moment for the first time that this was all his fault how could he face anyone now.

The paremedics final finished getting Bella out of the cab of the truck, and on to a strecher. They then put her in the ambulance and whisked her off to the hospital right away. As they were putting Bella into the ambulance, Edward saw her face she was not awake, she looked like she was dying and he couldn't do anything to save her. Edward final starting feeling the pain more than ever, more than he had when he left Bella all alone the night before, more than the thought of being alone for eternity, and more than know that Bella was alive and happy without him.

He then go back into the car and made his way to the hospital he didn't need to follow anyone since he already knew where it was. As he was sitting in the car driving down the road listening to the same song he had taken from Bella room for a reminded thoughts of her starting over powering his mind.

"No! It just can't be, not her, not my sweet Bella." Edward stated clearly. "She can't die, not now, not after all we have been through together." He continued "she's meant to be happy and safe, that's why I left, not lying half dead!" He shouted angry at what had happened, angry that he was powerless to help.

Finally Edward got to hospital when he arrived inside he realised everyone was there: Mike, Jessica, Eric, Jacob, even his own family all of them where there. Alice was able to see what had happened knowing that there was never time to save her, she told the family, and they knew they had to come straight away.

Everyone was crying, he was sure his whole family would be if only vampires could cry, Bella meant so much to them all. But he knew they were in as much pain as anyone else around them. Edward didn't say a word to anyone he just went to Bella's room, Charlie was there, right beside his daughter, right beside his crumbled, broken daughter holding her hand. He wasn't there as the chief of police he was there as a tentive father worried for his daughter's life.

"Hey Charlie, I was wondering if I could have a few moments alone with Bella?" Edward asked never taking his eyes off Bella as he spoke.

"Of course, I will be right outside if you need me." Charlie replied before he left the room. Still standing at the door Edward could hear Charlie was outside talking to the doctor. He could overhear their conversation.

"How do you think she is doing doc?" Charlie asked

"I'm sorry, but she might not make it through the night, the damage is to bad." The doctor said, then he moved off leaving Charlie outside the door. Charile just went and sat down, he put his head in his hands and Edward could hear the tiny whispers of Charile in prayer, crying for his beloved child.

Edward was sure everyone could feel the pain he was in now. Esme knew how it felt to lose a child, she was able to calm him down and help him come to terms with what might happen, she was there just comfort him and he needed it more than anyone right now. Though Edward would need it later, at least for now, they could deal Charlie, Edward could wait, 'it was my fault anyway.' ge kept thinking to himself.

Edward saw how fragile Bella looked just lying there, he went over to her bed and lay right next to her putting his arm around her, laying his head next to her's. He began to speak to her, though he knew she probably would not be able to hear or answer him. He had to try, he needed to explain.

"I'm so sorry Bella, I never meant for this to happen." He said quietly "please come back to me, I promise to stay for ever if you do." He said pleading with her "I can't lose you now I'm not strong enough without you" he admitted. "I love you."

Edward stopped talking and lay right next to her for a while, the pain was too much for him. Later Alice came in, it must have been hours, it was getting dark outside. He got up off the bed and stood there staring at Alice with so much pain and tourture in his face. Bella was still lifeless, he perfered it when he knew she was just sleeping and at anytime she would wake-up, but everyone knew she wouldn't. They might never see her sunny smile again. Alice walked upto Edward and put her arms around him giving him a long, strong hug. Edward stood there lifeless just like Bella how couldn't picture a world without her in it, he just couldn't it was impossible for him now.

"What are we going to do Alice?" Was all Edward could ask or say. "What are we going to do?" He whispered repeating himself.