~Kurt~

It was like a pile of bricks punched me in the face after I had gotten horrible sunburn and then had lemon juice squirted in my eyes, that how hard it had hit me. It happened a couple days ago when I was with Mercedes, Quinn, and Sam, we were rehearsing our song, a mash up of A Thousand Miles (Vanessa Carlton) and Storm (lifehouse). I had looked over in Sam's direction for a second too long and now I had these feelings that I didn't know how to deal with.

Then I forgot my part and started mumbling, Mercedes came over to me and asked if I was okay when we were done. All I told her was that she needed to come over to my house after school so we could talk. I left rehearsal before I could think, Mercedes followed me out to my car and got in. I drove down to my house and we headed to my room.

"Kurt, what is wrong with you?" She asked when I threw myself on the sofa.

I ignored her and just asked "Remember when I told you that I liked Finn?"

She nodded and asked "Do you still like him?" she jumped to conclusions and said "Kurt, you said you wouldn't fall for another straight guy, and to not be over Finn-"

I interrupted her with "I know! I know, I said that and I don't like Finn. It's someone else." I said, wrapping an arm around myself, trying to cut myself off from the world. I had to chant in my head You'll be alone when she leaves. You'll be alone when she leaves. You'll be alone when she leave. It was the only thing keeping me calm.

"Who?" She asked. I stayed quiet and looked down. "Kurt, I can't help you with this if you don't tell me who it is."

I nodded and lifted my head. "Sam." I said calmly, a heavy load lifted of off my chest when I said it and I sat up.

"Sam?" Mercedes thought for a second and said "Kurt, a couple of days ago you were going on about how you'd rather be singing with barnyard animals than you with him and now all of a sudden… this?"

I rolled my eyes and said "I know, and he's still annoying and all but he's different than the other jocks, more different than how I said Finn was." I took a deep breath and continued "It doesn't matter, I'm just going to try to forget about this and move on. I Can't fall for another straight guy. It's terrible, he can't even return the feelings."

Mercedes laughed and said "Remember when we first joined the glee club and I told you that I liked you?"

I took another breath and said "Mercedes, this is different. If I tell him then we won't even be friends, unlike you and I."

"Relax, Kurt You don't have to tell him, just forget about it. You have to accept the fact that he won't like you, I had to." She said, she patted me on the shoulder and sat down

I was still scared out of my mind as to how I would act around Sam, so I skipped every class that I had with him on Monday and went to the nurse's office to lay down. I even got my dad to take me home early so I wouldn't have to go to glee rehearsal. I felt childish, really, avoiding Sam just because I might blush around him. But despite how childish I felt I avoided him on Tuesday and Wednesday and then I planned to on Thursday but…

I ran into Sam on my way to the Nurse's office. "You know if you're sick and you go home everyday you should stay home from school." He said, I looked up from my locker, shocked that he knew where it was.

"Just what do you mean by that?" I asked.

"I've seen you talking to Quinn and Mercedes, you're not sick, you're avoiding me." He said, he looked down at me with his green eyes, they were sharper than ever. I turned my head away from him as soon as I realized that I had been staring at him. I closed my locker and said "I haven't been avoiding you, Sam. I've been sick."

"You don't look sick." He said accusingly.

I rolled my eyes and said "Well, I'm feeling better." I immediately slapped myself in the face on the inside.

"Good, so you can come to class." Sam smiled and headed in the direction of the first class that we had together.

I stayed a distance behind him and stared at him as he walked. He was taller than me, not as tall as Finn but taller than Puck. He had short blonde hair that actually made him look more fashionable than I'm sure he meant to be. I knew he was straight because he had a girlfriend, she was on the Cheerios with me and she was almost as ditsy as Brittany but had the common sense she needed to survive.

I thought about what Mercedes said "You don't have to tell him, just forget about it. You have to accept the fact that he won't like you, I had to." I smiled and dashed forward, I stood next to Sam.

"See, you are feeling better, Hummel." He laughed and kept walking.

I laughed to and said "Yeah, I think I was just over reacting because I don't normally get sick." I walked ahead of him and got to the classroom first. I was greeted by Mercedes and Tina.

"Boy, you are not sick." Mercedes said.

"I was, Mercedes." I lied.

"Whatever, I'm glad you're 'feeling better'" She laughed. Her eyes moved to the door and I turned Sam walked in Mercedes lowered her voice and asked "It was him wasn't it?"

"Who?" I asked, trying to act like I had no idea what she was talking about. I searched the room and found Sam. I subtly pointed toward him and mouthed "Sam?" Mercedes nodded and looked at me, almost worried. "No, my being sick had nothing to do with Hughes." I laughed.

"You're a horrible liar." She said and headed over to her seat.

I sat next to her "Who says I'm lying?" I asked. She laughed and didn't respond, I looked across the room at Quinn. She waved and smiled, I returned the gesture and looked back over at Mercedes "If you want to know, I'm definitely over him." I said.

Mercedes looked back at me and laughed again "Yeah right, Kurt. I'm just glad you can come back to rehearsal, we almost have the whole song down and you need to learn the dance."

"Well, we can just go over that later. I'm coming over your house after school." I said, directing my attention to the teacher who had apparently started class.

Mercedes laughed quietly and said "We have a boy dance and a girl dance, Sam can help you." She looked over at Sam and back at me "He's actually a pretty good dancer." She smiled and said "Don't worry, if you're really over him you have nothing to worry about." I rolled my eyes but felt my insides ease a bit, she was right and as far as I was concerned, I was over Sam.