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In the shadows, chapter 4: Conflict, alchol and romance.
Monday 30th June 2012.
I woke up with a thumping head, bloody hell I better not have concussion, I have enough on my plate. I can already tell today is going to be absoloutly crap and ive only just woken up.
I placed my hand on my head and recollected yesterdays events, the idiots at the building site, my slight argument with Dylan in front of the whole ED. Crap! The whole conversation with Zoe. Oh god I'm so in for it today, shes going to have a proper go at me. AGAIN! Why oh why do I have to open my big mouth?
I got up and quickly and pulled on my tight black running bottoms , along with my long sleeved sweatshirt, and trainers before grabbing my rucksack, and heading out of my flat door. I headed acroos the river passing the building site on my way, and couldn't help myself looking at the building site where I have been injured just a day ago, I ran straight past it with luckily with no incidents this time.
A car slowed as it passed me, but I was under the assumption it was just due to traffic, but really was it?
I ran into the car park, slowing down and removing my earphone and taking a deep breath.
"Sam, wakey wakey. Your standing in the middle of the car. Get out the way." Tom said shouted out of his window amking me jump out of my skin lituarly. Making me fall over in fright
"What, what the hell Tom!" I shouted back beginning to pick myself up before Tom jumped out of his Red Suberu and coming to my aid.
"You alright?" He asked pulling me up by my hands.
"Yeah, im fine, you just scared me a bit" I said brushing the dirt off my clothes.
"Sorry!" Tom said guiltily before breaking out in a smile, "Come here!"He said pulling me into a hug, I couldn't help but smile as his muscular bdy pulled me into an embarace"Come on, we don't want you to be late, again …." He laughed.
"Yeah, true got enough of an earache from Zoe yesterday" I said returning his grin with a cheeky smile of my own.
"Ah, yeah, I heard you well and truly peed her off."
"You could say that, it wasn't deliberate!"
Tom gave me a funny look, as if to say your not fooling me you liar.
"Ok, so it was kind of deleberate, but she deserved it." I said laughing and puching his arm playfully.
"Ouch, your mean!" Tom said grabbing him arm and pretending that I actually hurt him.
"Oh, I can get a lot worse. Trust me."
"Oh I believe you! You broke a mans neck, did you not?" He said a smile spreading across his face. Oh he's in for it!
"Your dead" I said beginning to chase him throught the ED doors, I was less that a leg behind him when I pounced on his back.
"OY, OI whats going on here?" Linda asked coming out of a cubical to see me on Toms back grabbing his neck both with smiles sprrad across our faces.
"Urm nothing," I said eyes wide before jumping off his back.
"If you say so" Linda teased, I swear this is all this woman lives for!
"Shut up Linda" I said before walking towards the staff room quickly.
"Well done!" Tom said to Linda.
"What did I do?" Linda responded looking confused.
"Were just friends, you've now destroyed all chance of us being any more than that, by making her self-concious AGAIN." Tom said angrily twards the bleached blonde.
"Well, sorry!" Linda said sarcastically rolling her eyes.
"So you should be." Tom said before walking off into the staff room to speak to me. "Sam, just ignore her, she dosent mean it." He said placing his hand on my shoulder supportively and in return I gave a slight smile.
"Yeah, I guess. I don't think she means any harm by it" I replied quietly. I was still upset of being made to look like a love sick puppy in front of the whole department.
"She just dosent think sometimes, I guess." Tom replied understandingly.
"Hmm"
"Sam, we need you. On coming RTC, ETA 3 minutes" Llyod shouted into the staff room.
"Yeah, coming." I shouted back, before leaving the room.
"See ya" Tom shouted to me.
"Later." I responded slamming the dorr behind me.
"What we got?" I asked the team in front of me which conciseted of Llyod, Linda Zoe.
"Emma Jackson, 24 . Lacerations to the head arms and upper chest, briefly KOed on the scene, possible Fracture of the left fib, tib and lower back " Zoe replied.
"Ok, hi Emma my names Sam, can you tell me where it hurts?" I asked the young woman who laid in front of me.
"My leg." She cried through gritted teeth.
"Alright!" I said, it was understandable after all her bone was sticking out of her skin. " Can we get 10mg of morphine please?" I asked Scarlet who drew the medication and inserted it into her UV. "Anything else?"
"I cant feel my back!" She cried her breathing becoming panicky .
"Calm down, take some deep breaths for me, in and out." I said trying to soothe her, but upon failing to do something I placed an oxegen mask over her face. "Look at me, look me. Copy my breathing, ok?" I said slowing my own breathing, I was desperately trying not to hyperventilate but I was sucsesfull in slowing my patients breathing down. That's always a good sign.
"Good girl." Linda said rubbing the young womans arm comfortably as I began to examine her along with the assistance of Zoe who seemed to have forgotten about our little disagreement yesterday.
"Emma, can you wiggle you toes for me?" Zoe asked.
"Ok, can we get an MRI and a head CT, please?" I asked upon the woman being unable to move her toes.
"Am I going to be able to walk again?" The injured woman asked tears in her eyes.
"We wont know until the MRI results come back." I said quietly, there was little hope for her she showed more than a few symptoms of paralysis. Poor girl! But in my experence working in an ED people tend to supprise you.
"What chance do you think I have?" She asked me, I couldn't bare to answer she was my age, her whole life ahead of her as had I. I shot a pleading look at Zoe , to deliver the news which I felt incapable of doing.
"There is a chance you may be paralysed below the waist due to the damage we can see, but then again you may have only ligament damage, or nothing at all." Zoe said sympathetically.
"So, I may never walk?"
"Emm…." Zoe began before Emma cut in.
"Truthfully please?" She looked pleadingly at me the same way I look at people when I need the truth no matter how cold and hard.
"Yes it is possible that you may be paralysed." I said sadly. "Im sorry".
"When willl, I know?" The young woman asked holding back tears.
"We need to do some test and then we'll know. We don't even know if you are, don't count yourself out yet!" I said giving her a smile before leaving the room.
"Llyod did you get a slot?" I asked the nurse.
"Yeah, 10 minutes" He replied.
"But that was 5 minutes ago" Linda said peeping up behind me.
"Thank Linda" I smiled at the cheecky nurse, she may be older than me but we both acted like children sometimes, which made us such good friends. I quickly walked back into the room where Zoe was still waiting with the patient. "Right Emma, looks like we've got a slot free for you in the scanner, you ready?" I asked.
"As I'll ever be." She mumered.
"You'll be fine." I said squeezing her hand as I sighn of comfort, I rarely got this involved with my patients I found it rather odd though. We wheeled her quickly down to scanner.
"Sam, can I talk to you?" Dylan asked coming up behind the trolley.
"Urm no, ive got a patient here." I said pointing to the woman laying flat on her back.
"Since when does it take two nurses and 2 doctors to escort a patient to a scan?"
"When we was finding out, if she would be able to walk again." I hissed at him.
"Sam, go on ive got this!" Zoe said winking at me. COW!
"You alright, if Dr Hannah takes you up?" I asked, Zoe hadn't yet got to a first name bases yet as I had.
"Urm, yeah. You have other patience to see too! I understand." Emma said sadly.
"No, no I just need to clear something up" I said. She looked petrefired "I'll see you in a minute, ok?" I asked her.
"Yeah" She said uneasily.
"You'll be fine." I said before following Dylan towards the staffroom.
"What do you want Dylan?" I asked annoyed at being pulled away from my vunerable patient.
"To talk." He replied nonchalantly.
"To talk? Really? You pulled me from my work to talk!?" I questioned. What the hell is wrong with him? I mean Im paid to do a job, and he just pulled me away from it. Who does he think he is?
"Yeah, about yesterday, you don't really think I don't care about you?" He asked.
"You blame me?"
"Well no, but yes. How can you think that?"
"You said me going to Afghan was a relief and basically I shouldn't have come back!" I said raising my voice slightly.
"I didn't mean it like that!" He said also raising his voice.
"Well then, how the hell did you mean it?" I shouted, slamming my hand on the table. Flip that hurt! "Crap" I muttered under my breath.
"Well, urm I just. I was annoyed Sam cant you understand that?" He said grabbing my hand which I immediately pulled away in pain. "That looks swollen" He said pulling my hand back.
"No it dosent its fine, like I said don't pretend you care."
"Sam, you can say a lot of things, about me, but saying I don't care about you is just not true!" Dylan shouted.
"Dylan I haven't got time for a domestic in the middle of the department so goodbye" I said leaving the room.
"This isn't over Samantha." Dylan shouted after me.
"Yes it is Dylan" I shouted back as soon as I left the room, I shook my hand reaching into my bag and pulling out a bottle of water and some paracetomol. Better bloody kick in soon, this hurts like hell!
I walked back into recus intendant on finding Emma to see how she was after her scan.
"Time of death 19:24" I heard Zoe say as Linda covered Emma's face with a white sheet.
"What the, Zoe what happened?" I stammered.
"She had a bleed that would have only been detectable with the MRI" Zoe replied softly.
"But she was having the scan." I said trying to hold back tears.
"We was on our way up"
"I trusted you with her! You said you'd look after her" I shouted, I may have only known Emma for a few hours but I felt closer to her than I had anyone else in the department, like I'd known her as a child.
"Sam! We couldn't have known!" Zoe said trying to calm me down. NOT WORKING!
"I said she'd be fine! She trusted me and ive let her down." I said
"Sam it wasn't your fault" Zoe said rubbigmy bac comfortingly I couldn't take it no longer, I peered at the clock 19:30. Im off!
"Urm my shifts over, bye" I said rushing out the room unable to hold back the tears any longer. I ran straight into Tom.
"Hey, you alright?" He said as he spotted my running tears.
"Yeah, yeah" I said as he pulled me into a hug obviously not believeing me. Why do I have to be such a crappy liar?
"Bad day?" He asked sympathetically.
"Could say that."
"Drink?"
"Drink!" I nodded.
"Come on" He said taking my hand and pulling me out of the deartment and towards the local pub.
"What you having?" Tom asked as we walked in and took our seat at the bar.
"Vodka and coke, please? Make it a large" I said getting a laugh in response.
Tom quickly ordered our drinks and brought them to the table.
"Wanna talk about it?"
"Not really, no." I said picking up my drink and downing it in one.
"Flip! Your thirsty!" He said in shock.
"Yup." I said the bitter taste overwhelming me.
"Another?"
"Hell, yeah." He got up and brought back more drinks. After the 6th round he looked like he was about to pass out.
"Flippin' hell, Army girls know how to drink." He said in admiration.
"The army has nothing to do with it" I laughed.
"So this morning, sorry about Linda." Tom said half with worry, half with embarresment.
"Yeah….."
"I urm, enjoyed it. We have a laugh don't we?" He said awkwardly.
"Yeah, I guess."
"I like you." He said to me with a smile.
"I like you too." I said a large grin spreading across my face as he leant in for a kiss which I returned. "I urm better go" I said pulling away before getting up and tucking my hair behind my ear and heading towards the door.
"Let me walk you home." He said grabbing my arm and walking me towards my flat which he weirdly knew the way to.
As we walked up towards the door I pulled my keys out of my bag anf placed them in the lock whislt he loitered there.
"Want to come in?" I asked.
"Sure." He replied following me into the flat.
"Nice place you got here." He said peering at my mainly boxed up flat.
"Havent unpacked from Afghan yet." I said quietly. "Want a tea?" I asked as well as it warming us up. It would help to cure both of our wooziness brought on by the alchol, I did not want a hangover tomorrow I had a feeling Tom would have one much worse than me though.
"Yeah thanks." He said following me as I walked into the kitchen, where glass was all over the floor and kitchen counter. "What the hell?" He said.
"Broken window, brilliant" I cursed under my breath bending down, retrieving the dustpan and brush and beginning to clear it up, befor I doubled up in pain due to my injured arm, I had completely forgot about that!
"Go sit down I'll sort this out." Tom said.
"No, no its ok I can do it." I protested.
"No! Go sit down." He said assiting me to stand up then placing me on the sofa.
"Fine" I yawned leaving him to clear up the glass and laying my head on my comfy sofa.
Closer now! My revenge is getting closer now, pitty that girl got caught in the way. May that be a lesson learnt never get in the way of a get away car! Broken window she got off lightly, too bad she wasn't at home but I guess shes jittery enough. She must be getting suspicious by now right? Or is she that stupid? Never mind my revenge is soon, I just have to wait. Patience I must have patience.
Hope ya like'd this update I am aware it is very long and kind of boring but it's a filler hapter and well I needed Sam and Tom to get together for this story and somehow I thought achol might help that haha.
Sorry if I wrote the getting drunk bit worng, im 14 and have not experienced getting drunk yet so, yeah haha…
Also sorry that Sam, Tom and Dylan were all out of character but i needed Sam to be a bit Soppy to get her to have alcohol to achieve the goal of drunk. And i have no excuse for Dylan apart from dragging her away from the patient which all contributed to her being massively drunk!
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