Chapter 4 - Confession
Seifer's POV
"Fujin...please...tell me what's bothering you." My words flowed out of my mouth before I could stop them. The girl in my arms looked up at me sharply. I saw her bit her lip slightly and look away again almost as quickly as she looked up. Her gaze travelled toward the floor behind us. It was obvious that she wasn't too keen on telling me. Her red eye looked hesitantly towards me again. I could see from the expression on her face that she was still overcoming the trauma that had just happened. But I knew that a girl of Fujin's strength, not just physically but emotionally, could bring herself to tell me what happened.
Her mouth opened as if to say something, but no sound entered my ears. I looked down at her frightened face, reassuring her to continue with what she was going to say. But suddenly she moved herself closer to me resting her head once again on my shoulder. I was, to say the least, shocked at her affectionate actions, but I responded as she would have wanted me to. Then she quiet words found their way out of her mouth, and she told me her story.
"Everything was ok to start off with... My mother, father, and me all lived together happily only having the occasional fight. But one day...I was playing outside when one of my neighbours came up to me. We started playing with our cards together. Everything went fine until she was losing and accused me of cheating. My mother came out and told us to stop arguing, but after my friend went home she had a real go at me for making her upset. This kept happening over and over again until another day when we were playing baseball. My friend broke the one of our windows and at once ran home. My mother came out and thought I did it. My mother adored where we lived, but we were a bit short of cash at that point, so we didn't have enough money to pay for another window... She...hit me...and shouted at me...I...I tried to tell her it wasn't me but..."
Fujin broke off at that point bringing with her a fresh cascade of tears. I tried to comfort her, but I didn't know quite what to do. I'd never been in quite a situation the same as this. My feeble attempt to calm her down was only rubbing her back slowly up and down. Her arms had tightened around my waist in a death grip, but by now, Fujin had exceeded her limit. The tears still trickled down her cheeks, but her body had become weak and tired of writhing backward and forward, her breathing was becoming harder and deeper, and her face had become as red as her eye.
My hand reached up to her face to stop her twitching. As my skin contacted the soft surface of her face, I almost withdrew it. Her red tear stained face was burning up.
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Fujin's POV
I felt Seifer's icy cold hand come into contact with my hot clammy face. I thought I could even feel my own face let off steam as the cold impacted the heat. I tired to slip off my blue jacket to cool me down, but my body wouldn't obey my thoughts. The strength I had possessed had fled the stronghold in which they resided. I felt lifeless and inadequate when I realised that I couldn't even get my jacket off of my shoulders. I leaned onto my wall of comfort as that was about the only thing I could do.
Suddenly I felt the heat entrapment that enclosed my shoulders being lifted up and sliding down my arms that now lay by my side. I looked up at my friend and saw him working my arms out of my jacket. I silently thanked Seifer in my buzzing head. My free shoulders welcomed the cold air that drifted through my room. I heard my jacket fall to the floor in a heap, and Seifer's arms came back around my fragile form. I had calmed down a little but still felt as if I would fall apart any moment.
"I'm sorry..." I said quietly. "I'm...so...sorry." I felt as if I could cry again.
"Why are you sorry? You haven't done anything..." Seifer's words sounded confused.
"I don't want you to have to sit through all this...because I'm not worth caring about. You must think I'm such an idiot..."
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Seifer's POV
A wave of anger soared through my body. I wasn't angry with Fujin, but I was annoyed that she could say such a thing about herself.
"An idiot? You're anything but an idiot." I held her tighter, not wanting to let her go.
"But...my crying..."
"Fujin...I would have cried. There's no reason to call you an idiot. If anything I've been an idiot for not realising what's wrong. I'm sorry."
"Seifer..." I felt her arms reclaim their place on my shoulders. I knew that it was now or never. I bent my head down past her face and whispered softly in her ear.
"I love you." At once she drew herself back. Her eye was wide with astonishment. She almost looked scared of what I said.
"You...what?" Her voice was faltering. Her unstable words sounded frightened, but in a surprised sort of tone.
"I love you Fujin..." I repeated again.
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Fujin's POV
My mouth hung open a little as I stared at him. I didn't know what to say. I wanted to answer him in the same words, but I was too overwhelmed to speak. Instead I sat up straighter in his lap and reached up toward him. I saw him lean down and my hung open mouth found his. I kissed my guardian with all the passion I had left in me. His lips felt soft against my own. My hands came to toy with Seifer's hair at the back of his neck, and his hands pulled my body closer to his own. The kiss wasn't rushed or too lustful, instead it was full of gratitude and commitment.
A lone tear fell down my cheek as I knew that someone loved me. No one had said anything like that to me since...forever. It felt good to finally realise that someone cared for you, someone who would look out for you, who would care for you at all times even when everything looked critical. I pulled back and looked at my lover. I smiled, something that I hadn't done for a long time.
"I love you too." I leaned forward again and reclaimed his lips showing how much I loved him, how much I needed him to help me through this. I leaned forward towards my bed and pushed him down with me. I lay on top of him as his hand came to my face and caressed my cheek lightly. His other hand remained on my waist keeping me against him.
Suddenly both of us heard the front door of our apartment open. I broke the kiss immediately and stood up. Seifer rose off of my bed too and then both of us realised who it was.
"I'm home ya know." I heard Rajin's voice shout through the door. I looked at Seifer and he caught my gaze. His blue eyes looked at me half with love and the other half with concern.
"Stay here..." I then left my room to greet one of my best friends.
Seifer's POV
"Fujin...please...tell me what's bothering you." My words flowed out of my mouth before I could stop them. The girl in my arms looked up at me sharply. I saw her bit her lip slightly and look away again almost as quickly as she looked up. Her gaze travelled toward the floor behind us. It was obvious that she wasn't too keen on telling me. Her red eye looked hesitantly towards me again. I could see from the expression on her face that she was still overcoming the trauma that had just happened. But I knew that a girl of Fujin's strength, not just physically but emotionally, could bring herself to tell me what happened.
Her mouth opened as if to say something, but no sound entered my ears. I looked down at her frightened face, reassuring her to continue with what she was going to say. But suddenly she moved herself closer to me resting her head once again on my shoulder. I was, to say the least, shocked at her affectionate actions, but I responded as she would have wanted me to. Then she quiet words found their way out of her mouth, and she told me her story.
"Everything was ok to start off with... My mother, father, and me all lived together happily only having the occasional fight. But one day...I was playing outside when one of my neighbours came up to me. We started playing with our cards together. Everything went fine until she was losing and accused me of cheating. My mother came out and told us to stop arguing, but after my friend went home she had a real go at me for making her upset. This kept happening over and over again until another day when we were playing baseball. My friend broke the one of our windows and at once ran home. My mother came out and thought I did it. My mother adored where we lived, but we were a bit short of cash at that point, so we didn't have enough money to pay for another window... She...hit me...and shouted at me...I...I tried to tell her it wasn't me but..."
Fujin broke off at that point bringing with her a fresh cascade of tears. I tried to comfort her, but I didn't know quite what to do. I'd never been in quite a situation the same as this. My feeble attempt to calm her down was only rubbing her back slowly up and down. Her arms had tightened around my waist in a death grip, but by now, Fujin had exceeded her limit. The tears still trickled down her cheeks, but her body had become weak and tired of writhing backward and forward, her breathing was becoming harder and deeper, and her face had become as red as her eye.
My hand reached up to her face to stop her twitching. As my skin contacted the soft surface of her face, I almost withdrew it. Her red tear stained face was burning up.
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Fujin's POV
I felt Seifer's icy cold hand come into contact with my hot clammy face. I thought I could even feel my own face let off steam as the cold impacted the heat. I tired to slip off my blue jacket to cool me down, but my body wouldn't obey my thoughts. The strength I had possessed had fled the stronghold in which they resided. I felt lifeless and inadequate when I realised that I couldn't even get my jacket off of my shoulders. I leaned onto my wall of comfort as that was about the only thing I could do.
Suddenly I felt the heat entrapment that enclosed my shoulders being lifted up and sliding down my arms that now lay by my side. I looked up at my friend and saw him working my arms out of my jacket. I silently thanked Seifer in my buzzing head. My free shoulders welcomed the cold air that drifted through my room. I heard my jacket fall to the floor in a heap, and Seifer's arms came back around my fragile form. I had calmed down a little but still felt as if I would fall apart any moment.
"I'm sorry..." I said quietly. "I'm...so...sorry." I felt as if I could cry again.
"Why are you sorry? You haven't done anything..." Seifer's words sounded confused.
"I don't want you to have to sit through all this...because I'm not worth caring about. You must think I'm such an idiot..."
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Seifer's POV
A wave of anger soared through my body. I wasn't angry with Fujin, but I was annoyed that she could say such a thing about herself.
"An idiot? You're anything but an idiot." I held her tighter, not wanting to let her go.
"But...my crying..."
"Fujin...I would have cried. There's no reason to call you an idiot. If anything I've been an idiot for not realising what's wrong. I'm sorry."
"Seifer..." I felt her arms reclaim their place on my shoulders. I knew that it was now or never. I bent my head down past her face and whispered softly in her ear.
"I love you." At once she drew herself back. Her eye was wide with astonishment. She almost looked scared of what I said.
"You...what?" Her voice was faltering. Her unstable words sounded frightened, but in a surprised sort of tone.
"I love you Fujin..." I repeated again.
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Fujin's POV
My mouth hung open a little as I stared at him. I didn't know what to say. I wanted to answer him in the same words, but I was too overwhelmed to speak. Instead I sat up straighter in his lap and reached up toward him. I saw him lean down and my hung open mouth found his. I kissed my guardian with all the passion I had left in me. His lips felt soft against my own. My hands came to toy with Seifer's hair at the back of his neck, and his hands pulled my body closer to his own. The kiss wasn't rushed or too lustful, instead it was full of gratitude and commitment.
A lone tear fell down my cheek as I knew that someone loved me. No one had said anything like that to me since...forever. It felt good to finally realise that someone cared for you, someone who would look out for you, who would care for you at all times even when everything looked critical. I pulled back and looked at my lover. I smiled, something that I hadn't done for a long time.
"I love you too." I leaned forward again and reclaimed his lips showing how much I loved him, how much I needed him to help me through this. I leaned forward towards my bed and pushed him down with me. I lay on top of him as his hand came to my face and caressed my cheek lightly. His other hand remained on my waist keeping me against him.
Suddenly both of us heard the front door of our apartment open. I broke the kiss immediately and stood up. Seifer rose off of my bed too and then both of us realised who it was.
"I'm home ya know." I heard Rajin's voice shout through the door. I looked at Seifer and he caught my gaze. His blue eyes looked at me half with love and the other half with concern.
"Stay here..." I then left my room to greet one of my best friends.