Peter POV
"But you'll call and write?" my angel asked Emmett.
"Everyday. And make sure the pervert over there doesn't violate you?" he asked, draping his arm protectively over her shoulder.
"Emmy we talked about this! If he actually hurts me and I give you the OK you can hurt him in return otherwise...shut up and smile." she said.
"I just can't believe that you are grown up now!" he whined
"Oh Emmy I'll be your little sister forever but imagine I would interfere with your relationship..."
"I get it...I get it. We'll write me when you arrived in wherever you go first. And send pictures." he gave her a light kiss on her forehead and hugged her tight.
"I will. And say hi to the others for me will you?"
"Of course, Bells."
"Emmett its time. We have to go now or we'll miss our flight!" Carlisle said out of the car.
"By Baby-Bells. I'll miss you and don't forget I love you. I'm just a phone call away from you OK?"
"Yes. I love you too." Bella sniffled and it broke my heart.
Emmett got into the car and he had the same expression that Bella had. I took Bella into my arms and as I couldn't see the car anymore I led her inside.
Jasper was sitting outside reading a book we had bought for our trip. He had decided to join us for a while.
Bella went to sit next to him and lay her head on his shoulder. These two had gotten more than close as well. Jasper started reading out loud and I sighed.
I couldn't handle this situation. I didn't knew how to make her feel right again. I sighed again and went up into our bedroom. As I lay on the bed I inhaled the unmistakable smell that was Bella.
How could I make this right? I didn't knew. And for the first time in my life I felt lost. Really lost. And hurt.
Bella POV
"Jazzy?"
"Yes"
"What happened to you and Alice? Why didn't you leave with the rest of the family?"
"Well...Alice and I...we had a lot of problems. She couldn't understand that the lifestyle I had wasn't enough for me. I'm still a small country boy. I hate being dressed up all the time. I want to wear my jeans and boots. I wanna ride my bike and don't care about anything. We both...we were separating. Alice was happy with the way things were. Always having the same life. Repeating it over and over again. But that life is not made for me. I want more from life."
"So..."
"We decided that it would be best for us to separate for a while."
"Does love ever stay? I mean you and Alice were mates. How can you separate...how will this change Peter and me?"
"Bella...Alice and I weren't mates. We were in love but in our being we were to separated to ever be mates. You may not realize it now but Peter and you have so much in common. I never felt this special pull towards Alice. She saved me when I was lost. And I loved her for that. But she isn't my mate."
"What will you do now?"
"I don't know."
"I don't know how to act around Peter."
"What do you mean?"
"I'm afraid to open my heart fully and get hurt again. I don't know how to talk to him because I don't want to hurt him. I'm just so confused. I don't know how to be what he needs."
"All you have to do is be yourself. Peter loves you. When he sees you he gets a warm feeling all around him, he feels protective and he feels lust. Peter is a good man. Many don't believe that but its true. If you handle him respectfully he will treasure you for the rest of eternity."
"But what if I make a mistake?"
"We all make mistakes. But those mistakes help us grow. Peter will guide you through them. And if you do fall he'll help you up. But I guess he won't every let you fall. Love means trust Bella. Peter knows you can't open up fully but maybe you should give him a try."
"You're probably right."
"He's in your bedroom." Jasper smiled and gave my head a light kiss.
As I entered our bedroom I saw Peter lying on the bed. His nose was buried into my pillow but he looked out of the window. He seemed to be deep in thoughts and somewhat lots. I lay behind him and hugged him tight to me.
"I'm afraid I won't be good enough for you. I'm afraid my heart will get broken again."
Peter took my hand and kissed the back of it. "I'm don't know how to treat you. I'm afraid you will run away from me when I do stupid things."
I sighed and hugged him even tighter.
"Peter I do love you. I'm not going to run. I'm just...so lost. How can I satisfy you?"
"Be yourself. Bella I don't judge you. I love you. And I fight for you. You just have to let me help you."
"I'll try. But please be patient with me."
"Forever."
and with that he kissed my hand again and we lay on the bed for a little while longer.
When we came downstairs we saw Jasper already making dinner for me.
"Hey you two. Everything alright?"
"Sure." we said at the same time and laughed.
"So I've been going through all these books and I wondered what our first stop will be..."
"I wanna go to London."
"Sure. Than we'll go to London."
"Oh we don't have to. It was just my opinion. If the two of you want to go somewhere else thats fine with me."
"Angel look at me...this trip is about you. We will go where you want to go. We will do everything you want to do."
"OK so London."
"Great."
As I walked into my living room I stumbled over a bag and fell to the floor cursing. Within a second Peter and Jasper were next to me.
"Angel did you hurt yourself? Are you OK?" Peter started checking me to make sure I was still in one piece.
"Yeah, yeah...everything's cool."
"Thank God." he breathed and helped me up.
"Tell me again why we had to take the first plane we could catch...and that at 3:30 in the morning?"
"Well we thought that it would be best for us to be there as soon as possible."
"Peter...i got up at 1 am...I'm tired and moody and I didn't get enough sleep. Now its 2 and we have to leave. My vacation starts with stress!" I hissed. I really wasn't a morning person.
"I'm sorry angel. I just..."
"Peter let her be. She's just grumpy in the early hours. Bella you can sleep on the plane and now shut that cute mouth and get into the car." Jasper said and pushed me out of the door.
I barley remembered getting out of the car and into the plane. But some when during the flight I started to wake up.
"See there Peter, sleeping beauty decided to join us." Jasper laughed.
"Hey" I whispered.
"Hey" Peter whispered back and gave me a light kiss.
"Where are we?"
"Over the ocean?" Peter said
"I know that. What I meant was how much longer will we be on this plane before we land in London?" I hit his arm lightly.
"2 hours maybe. We'll be landing soon."
"Great."
The rest of the flight was spend in silence. Sometimes I would doze off only to be awake a few minutes later.
I couldn't wait to see London. I knew that the first minute I would set a foot on the British ground I would make myself a whole new person.
And for that I couldn't wait!
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