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Characters: Elijah, Elena

"The truth. It is a beautiful and terrible thing, and should be treated with caution."
― J.K. Rowling

Chapter Four ~Truth~

One month later-

Each night I wondered about him. They were only casual thoughts, but thoughts nonetheless. I would think of our alliance, our negotiations, how did all of that turn into this?

How did all of this get so far out of control?

Then I remembered how he made me feel unstoppable, not weak and helpless as the others did. Elijah had helped me get my life back to how I wanted it.

Elijah was the one who set me up.

Elijah was the one who was making me fall.

Each day was the same after that.

Wake up.

Go to school.

Go to the Salvatores.

Klaus had been in hiding since Elijah left, most likely in fear of his mother, but unfortunately I could not shake Rebekah off of me.

"She is only sticking so close by to hear any news about Elijah" Caroline reasoned. She had no idea of my conflicting emotions on the Original matter, but that did not make her blind. With Elijah and her other two brothers gone, all Rebekah had was Klaus.

I had peered over my friend's shoulder; Rebekah was listening intently to our conversation.

"Well he is avoiding me like the plague, so she is going to only be disappointed," I responded coldly, looking in her direction.

Avoiding me, always…and forever.

I did not want to talk about Elijah anymore, so I changed the subject to our friends. I had no reason to talk about him, I never had a reason to worry, or be upset.

Elijah was never tied to my side. We hardly knew each other.

I was not his ward. He was not required to talk to me. I was means to an end.

I found that to be a lie soon enough.

I sat on the sofa at the Salvatores house, deep into my essay. Stefan and Damon were used to my constant silent presence. Since Klaus has been lying low, I no longer had to be in one hundred percent defensive mode. So they weren't attached to my side. It was a nice comforting feeling.

I assumed that Damon figured that is where I would be when he decided to search my bedroom.

I looked up from my essay to the sound of the front door practically being torn off it's hinges.

Damon. Just what I need.

I closed my books, prepared for a fight to break out between the two brothers. I had not done anything to my knowledge.

I wasn't expecting to have Elijah's letter shoved in my face.

"So when were you planning on telling us about your steamy love affair with our favorite backstabbing Original?"

"What are you talking about?" I cried out, reaching down to the floor where the paper fell.

Elijah's letter!

I carefully picked up the only piece of Elijah I had left off of the floor, my heart trembling.

"Damon! What were you doing in my room?"

"I asked you first!" he yelled, childish as always. I guess it was stupid of me to think he would ever change.

By then, Stefan descended the stairs, hearing our argument.

"Brother- Elena has been sleeping with the enemy!" Damon, always jumping to irrational and false conclusions, pointed a judgmental finger in my direction.

The irony was astounding.

"Elena…you told us that Elijah left." At least Stefan was calm. Not that he had any right either to be angry with me.

I nodded, fighting back tears. Bonnie wasn't speaking to me, I could never talk to Caroline about this and the Salvatores thought I was lying to them.

I was alone once again.

"He did leave. I haven't heard from him since this letter."

Stefan took the letter carefully, trying not to rip it.

"Always and forever." Damon pointed a finger on the parchment. I cringed. Nobody but I should be touching the letter. It was personal.

"Elena, always and forever? That is an eternity for a vampire."

"Even more so for an Original" Stefan jumped in. "Elijah being so careful with his words, he would never say this unless he meant it."

The words, even stronger coming from Stefan, ignited the feelings I had been hiding for the past few weeks.

"You have got to be kidding!" Damon was angry, not that he could ever contain his emotions for my sake "He is just playing mind games with you so you will feel bad and we won't try and kill him. Elena honey, you have got to be delusional if you think he has any feelings for you. Or am I the only one that remembers our last encounter with him?

I shook my head angrily, ready to scream.

Maybe I did have feelings for Elijah.

Maybe I was just too busy being stuck in the middle of the Stefan and Damon drama that I hadn't seen was really was perfect for me, until ironically both brothers shoved it right In my face.

"Please Damon, do fill me with your wisdom." I lashed out, all of my emotions shooting from me at once. I was losing control. All of the stress, the past 3 years I have known them. It all came out now. The only time I ever felt a sense of clarity, was when Elijah was standing by my side.

How is it I am only seeing this now?

That's when it really hurt.

"Please Damon. Please do tell me that the pain I am feeling is not real. Please tell me how much better I am than all of this. PLEASE Damon, tell me how delusional I am, just so that I can go and forget it all! That will make everything that much better right?"

I grabbed the letter from Stefan and stormed out of the front door of the manor. My emotions that had been festering inside, were now at their boiling point.

It was all too much for me to handle right now.

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