It's been over a month...
Yeah...
Life isn't better.
Trust me, I was on the verge of committing suicide twice, a rumour's been spread about me and I feel like everyone hates me.
These girls, they've done this before, they wanted to walk home with me after school. This may seem nice but they wouldn't leave although I'd said I didn't want them to, they recorded me and were basically bitches toward me, pretending to push me over and even trying to steal my school bag twice, claiming they need it more.
My Nan, my father's mother, tried to take a chocolate after I'd asked Mum over the phone if I and my friend could have one and I told her no... She got violent and held up a fist. Not sure about my dad's father.
My mother's parents' age are getting to them - Granddad is getting confused and forgetful and Nan had a cancer in her pancreas I think. Sometimes Mum will go up there and visit and I, Dad and Nan will be left at home. Things go wrong without Mum, and then when she gets back, she and Dad argue because he hasn't done the washing up or walked the dog or whatever and it's really depressing.
I'm not sleeping well at all - my average is four or five hours now. I fell asleep in History, slept throughout the whole lesson and no one could wake me up. If I had a pound every damn time someone offered me advice I'd be fucking rich.
I recently got into an argument with one of my school friends - male - and this carried out into Science. I had this test tube holder with a base and held it over my shoulder (I don't know why) and I was kicking my friend... The base hit someone in the head and apparently they're in the opposite and could have brain damage.
Somehow this turned into 'I hit someone on the head and gave them brain damage' or 'I tried to hit someone with the base for no apparent reason and hit this person over the head and gave them brain damage' and I think one time it was 'I tried to kill someone'.
It's not funny - another one of my friends refused to work with me because he thought I was going to hit him with a chair.
Honestly, now only my best friend, E7 and a couple other people can make me smile genuinely - the 'couple other people' group is slowly getting smaller.
I don't know why I had the test tube holder over my shoulder. I don't know why I was holding it to be honest or why I needed it.
My family doesn't feel like a family anymore. Home is hell, school is hell and role-plays and Fanfiction are an escape.
I feel more depressed than ever.
On the bright side, my best friend and I are near completion of planning Crystal Kids, and I'm writing another Ninjago fanfiction. I watched Season 6. It was good. Hoping for some angst, perhaps what it's like being trapped inside the sword.
Or some Elemental Masters (*cough* Neuro *cough* Griffin *cough* Karloff *cough* Shadow *cough* Make them live together *cough*). That'd be awesome.
That was written a while ago by the way.
So yeah...
I can't write a short story.