Oh my goodness, don't kill me! I'm sorry it's taken me so long! But to make up for it I did this, and I'll have the next chapter up soon. All I have to do is type it (I have it written, just not on the computer) and send it to my beta! Anyway, you shouldn't be too mad and you should pity me because I broke my toe on Thanksgiving. Anyway, I kinda lied when I said the rest of the chapter wouldn't be creepy. Sorry! Go read.
Beta Note: Hi it's PhantomGirl12! ^_^ Anyway, you guys better read the author's notes because for some reason I have to seperate eachandeveryword. Yeah. So someone better apreciate my hard work!
Previously-
The entire day. I missed the entire day. And I didn't even transform. That's not how it's supposed to work. I'm supposed to transform into my inner spirit and spend the rest of the day figuring out how to use my new form.
I looked up at the sky again, and my breath caught in my thought. But then I blinked, and it was gone.
The last bit of sun was just dipping below the horizon, but light stilled filtered through the sky, making it glow soft orange tints mixed with pink, the dark blue seeping in on the opposite side of the sky.
But for a moment, just a fraction of a second, the sky had been stained a deep, dark, blood red.
Chapter 3 ~ Golden Hatred
I couldn't breath.
My heart leapt out of my chest with every breath. I was moving faster with every pound of my feet. My limbs burned with every movement. I had to keep moving.
I had too.
The sky was fading into darkness, the first stars appearing in the sky and the moon was beginning to glow. People were scattered throughout the street. Businessmen with brief cases, girls in tight dresses, old men begging for change, the temperature was rising rapidly.
Move.
Searing pain ran through me. The last rays of light were on the edge of disappearing and the street lamps flickered to life as cars zoomed past. The heat was blistering, unbearable.
Go.
And then the sun light was gone. The sky so dark it swallowed the light. Street lamps dim and flickering, my bones screamed and my muscles constricted, my eye sight dotted with stars. But I couldn't stop. My heart beat ferociously against my ribs, my lungs gasping for air and receiving none. My head was spinning, and the air turned so cooled my teeth were chattering.
Don't stop.
I was getting bigger. My muscles were growing, my bones shifting. My flesh tore open and I was still running, my feet and hands clawing at the pavement as I went. I was warm, the wind racing through my hair. My teeth were sharper, and spiked. Some even molded together. And the world was suddenly a mesh of muted and distorted color.
Faster.
I turned down another street, the buildings taller than I remembered. The flickering lights farther away. The few people located on the block were all bigger than they should be. And just like that, they were sent into a frenzy. I didn't stop, didn't pay attention. They were running and screaming and looked flat out terrified. But I was still moving, still running away, and I didn't notice how they were all cowering in fear. Didn't notice how some were even crying. Didn't notice the sirens in the background.
Didn't notice that there was nothing there.
And then I was gone, moving faster and faster, speeding past buildings, the sirens blending into the intensified sound of the city. The smells invigoratingly strong. Air rushed into my lungs, and I was gasping for more. My heart beat was strangely calm, and nothing hurt anymore.
Move.
And when I turned the corner, everything came rushing up to meet me. The way everything was so much bigger than it should be. How I could hear for what seemed like miles away. The smells all so strong and the strange coloring of EVERYTHING.
Run.
And I took off, faster than ever before and I was lost. I couldn't see where I was going, my mind still stuck in what I saw. When I had rounded the corner I was cut off by a building made of mirrors, and I sawit.
It was a wolf. A large and beastly one. The limbs looked strong, rippled with muscle and power. It was as dark as the sky and looked as if it were made of the shadows themselves. Its ears were big, its tail bushy, and its muzzle long. But the teeth, the teeth were dripping with blood, as if it had taken a fresh kill, its fangs as sharp as razors. There was only one spot where its fur was a color other than black. A strange, lopsided star right in the middle of its forehead, radiating with the same eerie glow as the moon. And its eyes.They were indescribable. The pupils were slits, as if they were a felines, and the irises, a fierce, burning golden, were surrounded by a stark white. They were sharp and calculating, but filled with a hatred so strong it sent shivers down my spine, and they were clouded in what could only be blood lust.
It took me a moment to realize that I was looking at the wolfs reflection in the mirror I was facing, and not the wolf itself. I turned around quickly, but the wolf wasn't there. I looked back at the reflection, trying to find where it might be in relation to my own reflection, and that's when I heard the sirens approaching. It took me another minute to connect the dots, but soon I was off again.
Faster.
I tried to shake the memory from my head as I raced down the sidewalks, but it wouldn't go away. I wasn't in the mirror. Iwasn'tinthemirror.I had been standing a few feet from the building, right in front of the wall. I should have been there. Ishouldhavebeenthere.But I wasn't. Just the wolf. Nothing else. But I wasn't looking at a wolf. I would never be able to find my self in the mirror. Because I wasn't there. Not in the way I should be.
I was the wolf. I amthe wolf.
The wolf wasn't just a reflection. It was my reflection. And suddenly, I didn't want it. I didn't want my spirit form. I didn't want to be from another dimension. I wanted to be from your world. Where people don't turn into monsters and beasts. Where there's just one sun and just one moon and you have science that can explain everything and an order to the world where everything works the way it's supposed too. I didn't want to be a wolf; I didn't want to be a phoenix. I just wanted to be me, curled up in my nice condo drinking your coco like everyone here would. But I can't. I can't be normal.
Move.
And as much as I was terrified of the wolf, what terrified me the most was the fact that I didn't want to be homewith my parents. Back in my own world, before it was ravened by war. Back under my asile tree. But that I wanted to be HERE. Here, where my parents are still dead, and where I have to work for everything down to the cloths on my back. Here, where I was all alone.
I was broken from my reprieve by the sirens. They were growing closer, and I realized that they weren't just part of the city soundtrack anymore. The sirens were coming for me. And I didn't know what to do. There was nothing I coulddo. I couldn't sneak back into my condo. Central Park was on the entire opposite side of the city. There was no where to go. And I was getting tired.
I didn't know what to do.
Keep moving.
Okay, now I know I'm not the only one who gets mad when a story turns out creepy and all the author says is: I didn't intend for it to be this creepy, really. And doesn't explain how that woks. Well I don't know how other authors do it, but what happens with me is I start with a little one sentence idea for the chapter, figure out the first sentence of said chapter, and I just go for it. I just start writing and keep writing, and writing, and writing. And I made the decision to never change what I write completely. That's what happened with the old version of the story and it ended because it was originally going to turn out like this but I thought that was too dark so I changed it and it ended up being too much like the story it was based off of and I wasn't happy with it and instead of changing it again I just started from scratch and that's how this story was made. By the way, the title of this story will probably be changed soon so don't get all confused by that. But I know some of you will because if you're like me you never bother to read long author's notes. Anyway, like I said, I'll have the next chapter out as soon as I get it edited by my beta!