Thank you everyone for the reviews and what not. It motivates me to write more! So here we are with Chapter 4. Enjoy :D

She regrets what she says almost immediately. The look that he has is unreadable but she knows she's crossed a line. Hit a nerve in Castle that she really wish's she hadn't. It's not his fault that Kate always keeps him at arms length. Push's him away any time he steps over a line, or push's her too far. It's also not only her fault that they haven't come together as one. It's also him, he's never deliberately asked her out, never made a straight forward move on her. Not if you count the first day he worked with her, when he asked that they debrief each other over dinner. No that was something different, that was when they were different. Now it would mean something, now she would probably accept his offer, instead of laughing it off like some type of joke.

"You know what I think" His tone is foreign to her ears. Never hearing him sound so angry or is hurt? She can't tell.

"I think that you're too scared to face what we have and that's why you push me away any time we start to get closer, that's why you're still with that damn doctor, and that's why you kicked me out of your apartment the other night."

His breathing is hefty and unsteady. But his eyes are glued to hers.

Kate suddenly feels Claustrophobic in the small space he is practically cornering her in. She feels as if his eyes are burning into hers and it's making her feel so much, she can't handle it anymore. Just as she's about the speak there's a noise coming from the bathroom door. Kate turns but can still feel Castles eyes stuck on her.

It's Lanie opening the door with keys in hand.

"Hey you guys almost done in here?"

Castle still facing Kate answers "Actually I was just leaving." Every word meant for Kate not Lanie.

He makes his way out of the bathroom with long struts. Not wanting to be there any longer. Can't face Kate anymore, not when she seems to have nothing to say to him. He can't believe after him practically telling her how he feels she still stood there silent. Maybe she really just doesn't care. Maybe he should just stop wasting his time on someone who doesn't want him to. If she cared wouldn't she have said something? Maybe told him that he was at least right? Hell he would like if even she had said he were wrong at least THEN he would have had some type of response. Something to go by, but I guess silence can speak more words than actual words do. And what it is telling him is that she doesn't want him. She doesn't care. She doesn't share the same feelings.

Castle makes his way through the crowd of dissembling people to find Montgomery's wife. He gives her his condolences and starts walking out of the house down the street. In the distance he can hear fast footsteps only someone he knows heals would make. Once he hears his name that's when he stops dead in his tracks.

"Castle!"

She doesn't care if she sounds like a crazy lady yelling at the top of her lungs across the neighborhood; she needs to get to him, fix what ever needs to be fixed between them.

That's why she is running now to catch up to him and is so thankful that he stopped at the sound of her ridiculous hollering. When she finally catches up to him he still looks pissed. But there's a light of hope in his eyes that she can tell he is try to hide.

"What?" Is all he says his tone still cold.

"Look I know your angry-"

"You're damn right I'm angry!" That gets Beckett to shut right up. She's now listening to what he has to say.

"I know our arrangement is some type of joke to you, I'm just a stupid writer following you around for research, but damn it Kate I have been following you around for almost four years now and I am tired of you holding me at arms length. It's not about the books anymore to me." He stops, running a shaky hand through his chocolate colored hair. As if to catch up to his own brain, that is currently running one hundred miles a second. He has never let out this much before, always scared she would just laugh in his face. Tell him to stop messing around. But now he knows that she knows he's as serious as a heart attack.

Kate is speechless, completely shocked. He's always been a man with words, but damn. Her eyes are burning, she's getting pretty accustomed to the feeling for today.

"I don't"

Looking down playing with her fingers nervously to buy herself some extra time she looks back up at him.

"I don't think of you as some type of joke, Castle." Her words are as sincere to her ears as they are to his.

The next question is as hard for him to ask as it is for her to answer.

"Then what do you think of me as Kate? Because I'm lost here"

HOLLLLLLLAAAA! Sorry for dragging this on so long, it's just coming to me weirdly. So hope you stay around long enough for this story to finish out ;D