Ok here is chapter 4. I hope you all like it and there is another twist lol! Thanks to those few of you who have read this so far! I promise more good stuff to come! Thanks again to preciousfairymom80 who is the reason this story is here. She gave me the idea and is working on every chapter with me. So, read, enjoy, and review please!

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Chapter 4

BPOV

I pulled up at the house and started to get out the few groceries I had bought when Emmett startled me.

"God Emmett! Warn me or something!" I yelled at him but I wasn't mad. I should be used to vampire reactions since I had been living with them for the last 4 years, ever since…well for the last 4 years. They had taken me in and been my rock when everything went horribly wrong. A simple baseball game had torn my life to shreds and being near them was the closest thing I would ever have to him.

"Chill out Bella!" Emmett scolded me. "I was just trying to help. I know you have a hard enough time walking without carrying anything else. Hey Bella? Are you ok? You are paler than normal?"

"Yeah Em I am fine. I just had a weird feeling at the grocery store. It felt like someone was watching me and I just felt it again now" I explained to him.

"Want me to go check it out?" Emmett offered and I couldn't help but hug him.

"No Emmett, I am sure it's nothing. Let's just get this stuff inside. I, the measly little human, am hungry" I teased him and headed for the house while Emmett gathered the groceries and beat me to the door. "NO FAIR! You never let me win!"

Emmett chuckled at my fake pout and said the same thing he always said "next time sis, next time."

"Uh huh!" I said as I opened the door and headed for the kitchen. I was the only one who really needed it since I was the only one who actually ate.

"Bella?" I heard a pixie voice calling my name. "When are you going to give up on that human food and just let us change you?"

I let out a big sigh. This conversation had been coming up more and more lately. They just couldn't seem to understand why I wanted to stay me.

"Alice, I thought I talked to you about this. I don't want it anymore" I said softly.

"Why not Bella?" Alice asked with a pout forming on her lips. "Don't you like us?"

"Alice! Of course I do, I love all of you but…I just can't imagine eternity without Edward. I want to be able to see him again one day and remaining human is the only way I think that could ever happen. I have to hope Alice."

"I know Bella. I was just hoping you would be my sister forever" Alice said and turned away from me.

"Alice? I will always be your sister, for as long as you live" I said and she smiled softly then left the kitchen.

I turned to the bags that Emmett had deposited on the counter and started unpacking them. My thoughts drifted to my recent dreams, Edward had been in them more and more and I didn't know why. It bothered me and I often woke up crying to find Esme or Alice there comforting me. Why did the dreams have to start back up? They gave me hope that maybe, just maybe, but I knew I was wrong and scolded myself for it. Edward was gone and I would just have to live with it.

I made myself some pasta with butter and salt and sat in the kitchen enjoying it by myself. I stared out the large windows that filled up one wall of the kitchen and started daydreaming. I let my mind wander to how things used to be and was brought back to reality by the same uneasy feeling I had outside. Someone was watching me. I could feel it.

I looked into the trees outside the window and thought I saw something or someone running away. I shook my head and tried to dismiss it again. I was seeing things because of my dreams; an overactive imagination was all it was. I quickly finished up my meal and washed my dishes. I didn't feel right leaving them for someone else since I was the only one that used them. I went upstairs to my room and shut the door behind me, closing my eyes.

When I opened them again I saw Edward in front of me smiling. I heard him humming my lullaby as I crossed over to our bed and he joined me there. I leaned against the headboard with him and looked around the room. Everything was in the same place as it had been in Forks, I made sure of that. Carlisle had fought me every step of the way on setting up this room but I won out. It was the only way I could have Edward back. Just being in here helped me picture him, hear him, smell him. I kept it unusually cold so I could feel his presence. I knew it wasn't healthy for me to imagine him like I was but it was the only way to keep the hurt from becoming unbearable. I didn't want to torture Jasper like I did for the first year. This was my way of making things better for everyone.

I closed my eyes and drifted off to sleep letting the thoughts of Edward and I together consume me.

*****

I woke up and it was dark outside. How long had I been asleep? I reached over to turn on the bedside lamp and noticed the shape of someone outside the window. I screamed and everyone was in my room in a second.

"Bella? Bella? What's wrong?" Esme asked panicked as she took me in her arms and rocked me gently.

"Some…some…there…out…window…" I mumbled.

"Bella? What happened? Was someone out there?" Carlisle asked and all I could do was nod. Emmett and Jasper were gone in a flash and within a few minutes they returned whispering to Carlisle.

"What?" I asked finally getting my words to come out right.

Alice came over and sat behind me rubbing my shoulders lightly and Rosalie sat on the other side of me from Esme. I felt a calm wave hit me and I yelled at Jasper "STOP AND TELL ME! What was out there?!?" I was starting to shake.

"Bella, nothing was out there. Emmett and Jasper checked and didn't see anything. There were no tracks either. Are you sure you saw something?" Carlisle said.

"YES! I saw someone not something! I know I did! I am not crazy!" I said and started crying.

Jasper tried to calm me again and this time I let the waves wash over me, consuming me to peace.

"Bella, you need to go back to sleep. Do you want me to stay in here with you?" Alice asked me, hugging me softly.

"No thank you Alice. Carlisle? Can you give me something to sleep?" I asked him.

"Bella, you know I don't like doing that" Carlisle said in his doctor voice.

"I know but I feel bad that I keep taking Alice away from Jasper just so I can sleep. Please Carlisle?" I begged.

"Ok Bella, but this isn't going to become a habit" he said as he went to retrieve his doctor's bag. I turned my head towards Esme and closed my eyes while she rocked me gently. The next thing I knew there was a stabbing pain and burning in my arm.

Carlisle had snuck back in and given me the shot without me knowing. I would have to remember to thank him for this later since I despised needles. I felt the drug start to take affect and let my eyes close. At some point I fell asleep and was tucked into bed then left alone.

*****

I awoke to the sun shining into the room and looked at the clock. It was 3pm and I realized that I had been out for about 12 hours. I stretched and felt my stomach grumble. I made a quick trip to the bathroom and headed downstairs in search of something to eat. I found some cereal and poured myself a bowl, got a spoon, and headed for the living room where I heard the TV blaring some sport thing.

"Hi Emmett" I said before even entering the room.

"How did you know it was me?" he asked surprised.

"Sports, who else?" I said with a smile on my face and he grinned at me then turned back to the TV.

Alice and Jasper came into the room and sat down. Alice looked from Jasper to me and back to Jasper.

"Why are you looking like that Alice?" I asked warily.

"Well, we know you have class tonight and we are unsure if we should let you go alone. But, since the sun is out we can't come with you, we can only meet you there when it is over" Alice said.

Class! I mentally smacked myself in the head. I had forgotten all about it being today. I had decided to take some night classes at the local community college. It made Charlie happy when I told him about it since he had been pressuring me for the last 3 years to do it.

"Can't I just skip tonight?" I suggested.

"Noooo" Jasper drew out. "You have that history test and I have been tutoring you for it. I will not let you miss it!"

I stuck my tongue out at him and he and Alice laughed at me.

"Fine! I will go; I will keep my cell on me at all times. Besides, I think I was just imagining things anyways. I will be fine" I said standing up. "I have to go get ready or I will be late" I said as I exited the room, ignoring the worried look that Alice and Jasper gave each other.

I took a quick shower and threw on a pair of jeans and a blouse. Alice had thrown out all of my t-shirts and I was stuck with 'dressy' shirts now. I ran a brush through my hair and pulled it up into a pony tail, I didn't feel like messing with it. I grabbed my messenger bag and my purse and headed downstairs calling bye out to everyone as I headed out the door and went to the familiar silver car.

I had talked Carlisle into letting me have the Volvo. I could still smell Edward in it and it was just another piece of him that I was able to hold onto. I started it up and smiled at the soft purr of the engine before putting it in gear and heading towards school.

I got there in about 15 minutes and parked. As I got out of the car and reached for my bag I felt the same feeling down my spine like someone was watching me. I spun around quickly and noticed someone running into the woods. I picked up my phone to call Alice but decided against it. I was at school; no one could get to me.

I hurried inside and took my seat as my instructor handed out the tests and told us we had 3 hours. Here goes nothing…

*****

I was still trying to decide over the last few questions when the timer went off alerting us to the end of the test. I looked up and I was one of only 3 people left in class. I walked up and handed my test in then gathered my things and headed for the door.

I walked down the hall and heard some footsteps falling softly behind me. I looked over my shoulder but no one was there. I sped up my walk a little and the footsteps resumed and matched my pace. When I stopped and looked over my shoulder again there was still nothing there. I quickly turned the corner and broke into a run towards the doors. I burst through them and crashed into Jasper's arms while shaking with fear and screaming.

Jasper was trying to comfort me when I heard Alice's soft voice beside me, "Edward?"

I turned my head to look and saw a pair of green eyes staring at me. My knees went weak and I drifted into blackness.

Well??? What did you think? I won't know unless you review and tell me cause Edward isn't telling me anything other than how much he loves me and wants me hehehehehehehehe. So, please review and let me know and I will get to work on chapter 5 as soon as I can!