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rye and i lay in bed playing with our babies. two months ago, rye gave birth to a little boy, we named him hudson. he looks just like macaulay when he was younger. macaulay is getting bigger, he's a year old.
manny and i sit up against the headboard reading a book and eating grapes. we take the story one word at a time. he listens closely and gets lost in his own imagination. holden says i used to do that when was a kid.
rye lies across the bed tickling our new baby. smiling and kissing him, it's adorable. hudson is laughing and reaching up to his mother. she kisses his hands and feet then picks him up and holds him in her arms.
the love she has for our boys is so great. ive never seen a woman as happy as she is to be playing with her kids. she shows them as much love and care as she can, its unconditional. the love she has between her and our babies is inseperable. she hates to see them cry and longs for their smiles. little manny has just learned how to start talking and he likes to call our names all day and night, mama and daddy.
when i finish the book im reading with manny i look at rye who is holding the baby in the air kissing his stomach, "are you hungry babe" i ask her. she turns to me and clutches the baby tighter as she crawls over. she sits next to me and leans into my arms and rests her head on my cheek. "no" she says finally. "i just wanna spend the whole day with our boys" she says to me. i smile at her answer and kiss her head. "daddy" manny calls. "yes" i answer. he points to the bowl of grapes on the counter. i grab some and feed it to him. "me too" rye says and opens her mouth. i kiss her instead. she smiles and then reaches past me to grab the grapes.
the doorbell rings through the house and rye tenses up. she isnt herself around visitors, i just got her to start acting normal in the house but outside and around people, it doesnt work. she doesn t trust ANYONE except for holden and i. mostly because holden was her mentor and she knows he did his best to help her out of the arena.
i get out of bed, "stay with the babies" i tell her, "and put your robe on". i leave out of the room. whoever is at the door cant see what rye is wearing, it's too inapropiate. she is wearing a white and brown nightown from last night, which was filled with sexual activity.
i head downstairs and get to the door. "who is it" i call. "your mother" i hear. my mother!? i unlock and open the door and standing there is my mom. her eyes are dark and spiritless. her hair is dull and not as flawless as it used to be when i was younger. back when dad was alive she kept her appearance at it's best, just for him. she was eye candy for all the men, kind of like how rye is now. not anymore though.
"hey mom, what are you doing here" i ask. "i came to see the babies" she answers. "ive never officially seen them...". mom never bothered to spend time with macaulay, she would look at him while we were around but she never asked to hold him or anything. and she has never seen hudson, and i dont remember telling her about him. holden mustve said something.
"ok, well come on in, they're right upstairs" i say nicely and shut the door behind her. i lead her up the stairs and into rye and my room.
rye tightens her robe and pulls the boys closer to her at the sight of an unfamiliar face. ive forgotten that rye has never met my mother, and my mother has never introduced herself to rye. i guess its my job.
"uh..mom, this is my wife rye" i say, "rye this is my mother" i say to rye. she nods cautiously, eyeing my mother, prepared for anything.
"these are your boys?" mom asks. i nod, "yeah"i say. "they are adorable" mom says . i smile at that and pick up macaulay who willingly runs into my arms. "this is macaulay" i say. "hi" she says to my son. he doesnt respond, rather hides in my neck. "macaulay, this is grandma" i say patting my sons back. he peeks at the old woman before him. "say hi macaulay" i tell him nicely. he shakes his head, "cmon now be nice" i say. he waves at my mother. she smiles. i put the baby down next to rye. she looks at me and holds hudson closer to her. she's not going to let me hold him. "and this is hudson" i say. she smiles and says, "he looks just like holden when he was a baby" she says. "can i hold him" she asks. i look at rye. she shakes her head.
my mother looks dissapointed. "mom dont worry, h-hes our newest you know how mothers are" i make up an excuse. she nods understandingly. "...so um, can i get you anything" i offer nicely. "oh no thanks i ate at home" she says. i nod. "okay well do you want to stay over for a while or..."i ask. mom scratches her head, "i guess ill go. thanks for letting me finally meet your boys. i know i havent been the best mother ever, and i know you probably hate me for never being around. but i do love you haul, your my youngest boy. it warms my heart to see you with a family. two beautiful kids, and a wife that loves you. im proud of you" she says to me. i smile and get up to hug her. i kiss her cheek, "i love you mom, i could never hate you" i assure her. she smiles and nods.
i walk her to the front door and she leaves. i grab more grapes from the refrigerator and head back i walk into the room i see macaulay laying on the bed with his feet up and rye sitting on the pillows feeding our baby. she wipes her eyes i can just make out a sniffle.
on instinct i rush over and look at her and sure enough she has tears running down her face and her cheeks are flushed. "baby what happened!?" i ask. she shakes her head as more tears fall down her face. i take the baby and hold him to me, "what is it" i ask. she covers her eyes, "i miss my family" she cries.
this makes my heart sting. i can just imagine how she felt watching me talk to my mother and hug her. she hasnt seen her parents since she was three. she's twenty years old now. "i-um..baby i dont know what to say...im really sorry i dont like to see you like this" i whisper and put my arm around her and pull her into me. "mama" macaulay says realzing his mother is crying. he stumbles over and lands in his mothers arms.
she rubs his head and smiles sadly. "i know that your heart is harmed from the past...but...just look at the present. you have a family. you have holden, he's your brother, you have my mom, thats who your mother is. you have me, your husband. and you have two boys, our kids. okay. baby you have a family. you will always have a family" i say and kiss her cheek. "alright" i whisper and she nods then smiles at me gratefully. she sits macaulay between her legs and wraps her arms around my neck to hug me.
"thank you" she whispers. "your very welcome baby" i reply.
i look at my baby in my arms and bounce him gently. he smiles and giggles. his eyes are dark like mine and he has silky straight hair. i lie down and lay the baby on my chest. he isnt old enough to hold his head up on his own yet. i pat his back gently and sigh. rye removes her robe and lies down beside me with macaulay in her arms.
this is nice, just rye and i with our kids. i remember less than two years ago we had the room covered in flower petals and candles, planning to get pregnant so we could start a family. i cant believeits finally happened.
that night rye and i tuck our boys in their cribs and we head to bed. we both lie awake in the dimming lamp light. rye cuddles closer and looks up at me. "thanks again for earlier..for reminding me that you guys are my family.." she says. "of course baby. anything for you" i reply. i tun my head to look at her and kiss her nose. she smiles and i see her bite her lip..
"speaking of family...what do you think about...expanding a little more" she whispers. i close my eyes and chuckle. "you want ANOTHER baby" i ask surprised. she nods, "why dont we wait a little..just until hugh is a little older" i suggest. she sits up and smiles, "ok fine", she says and climbs onto my chest, "we'll just wait and see how long it takes for you to get me pregnant. hugh should be a couple hours older by then right?"
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