An: im so sorry for not updating in so long but Ive missed a lot of school im behind in a lot of subjects at the moment so that's been my no.1 priority but with the holidays starting next Friday I will update more frequently. I promised an Oliver's pov so here is an insight to Oliver's twisted mind for all 3 chapters im starting another chappie as soon as this is posted.

Me, covered in blood and bruises: help I staked Oliver…In the wrong place he's going to kill me

Oliver, standing right behind me hisses: your right, and now you're going to be dead

Me: what if I say the disclaimer and then let you and Claire kiss on the lips in the next chapter?

Oliver consider: get on with it then

Me: I own nothing, happy Oliver you just ripped my heart into little pieces and burned those then jumped on the ashes

Oliver smiles: very happy

Chapter 4: I admit… (and a look into a twisted mind)

Oliver's pov (from start of chapter 1)

I couldn't help but smile briefly at Claire, she really wasn't afraid of me anymore. "What Claire" I did my best to keep my voice unamused, I couldn't tell if I was winning or not. She smiled and I had to admit her smile was beautifully. "mocha" I smiled, almost as if teasing her "what no please for me today" she gave a small elegant shrug "nah, don't feel like it" I had to roll my eyes at her as I started making the mocha, there was a teasing light in her eyes I don't think she even realised was there.

She took her mocha to a table across from the counter, I continued making drinks for natives and collage students alike, all the while watching Claire from the corner of my eye. I was starting to see her in a different light, a light I wasn't to keen on.

The rosser boy came in saying amelie wanted us, the boy had made a dramatic change if he hadn't I wouldn't have let him work here.

Claire followed me to my office stopping for a few seconds to dispose of her empty cup. When she finally came through the portal I was standing a reasonable distance away from the group of amelie, myrnin, Hannah and Richard

Amelie looked very happy as she made some announcement about myrnin being successful with bringing Sam back. I looked at Claire, who was happy and smiling, a wave of something came over me. Amelie's happiness left her face being replaced by confusion she looked at me "Oliver?" she now looked smug, I scowled "what" before she could reply I heard Claire mutter "hello mr grumpy aren't you happy today" that fool myrnin started laughing, I looked at her, eyebrow raised a small smile playing on my lips, a wave of emotion came over me, was it possible I cared about Claire?. The fools grin was replaced by confusion "Amelie, do you feel that, the mood" amelie gave a small, elegant nod causing myrnin to grin like a village idiot.

"He's in love" Amelie said, too loud for my liking, I scowled at her a growl building in my chest. Amelie sensed the violence I was ready to cause. "Im sorry, I got a bit carried away" I took a deep breath to help me calm down.

We all heard a small sneeze, the culprit being Claire. When we all looked at her she grinned sheepishly "this room is really dusty" she proceeded to sneeze again, I smiled warmly at her. "Oh dear Oliver, we best get down to why I called you here" Amelie motioned to a guard who went up to the stage he pulled a rope that pulled the thick, heavy curtains to the side. Claire's eyes focussed on Shane Collins, who was on his knees, in trouble.

"Im sorry but Mr Collins has killed a vampire, Jason rosser was an eyewitness and there is video evidence to back him up. He killed Dr Saltzman; he used a silver stake knife, cut his head of and covered him in silver." amelie said softly for Claire's sake, she looked at Claire, most likely seeing if she was able to stand "the attack was...unprovoked" amelie sounded sympathetic.

I saw Claire sway on her feet, a sign that she was about to faint. As she fell I ran over there, using my increased speed, I caught her before she hit the floor.

I gently lay her on the floor, the Collins boy looked scared and there was no sign of concern for Claire. Amelie and I went to talk in the corner.

"Oliver what are you thinking, I thought you hated her" amelie whispered harshly "don't shout at me amelie, Im not even sure exactly what im feeling" I replied, just as harshly "im sending Theo over to check on her later"

Before I could reply Myrnin leant down next to Claire and shouted "Claire, Claire! Its time to wake up". Claire jumped her eyes flying open "myrnin" she whined as she got up "don't shout in my ear" he just grinned. Then it hit claire as she saw shane.

I saw shane looking at her, as if pleading for her to do something. Claire turned away from him "where did Richard and Hannah go" she asked no one in particular. Me amelie walked over to her "they went to get you some water, you were boiling" I said, a worried tone creeping into my words.

Richard and Hannah came in, both letting out sighs of relief that she hadn't been hurt. "Your ok then" Claire smiled at Hannah "yeah, just shock" Hannah smiled at her but the worry in her face was obvious.

"Oliver maybe you should take Claire back, she doesn't seem very well and she shouldn't be here to witness Mr Collins punishment" the fool actually said something smart, Claire smiled at him gratefully but As soon as the words sunk in concern replaced it "is he going to…" her voice faltered "die" I supplied softly, she smiled at me as if to say thank you I smiled back.

"No he won't be dieing today, Sam and Michael have both requested for him not to be killed but he will be hurt, his crime was a big one he can not go unpunished" Claire nodded" I understand but please not too many visible marks" "we will try" "thank you amelie" and with that amelie turned to look at Shane. Claire opened a portal to my apartment.

She made towards the couch but I saw her start to fall halfway there, I caught her before she could get hurt. I started carrying her to my room "no your ill Claire, no couch for you" I said before she could protest.

I lay her down on the bed and lay down next to her using my speed. "Amelie's sending Theo over to give you a quick check up later" she groaned "it was just shock" I didn't believe her.

"So who's the lucky gal" I groaned at her change of subject "their just trying to wind me up, I've said it before love is for sentimental idiots and causes nothing but pain" the words, although they were my own, they sounded foreign.

"How are you feeling now" she sighed "a little tired" she turned as she heard Theo cough "I now know exactly what myrnin was saying" he mumbled a little too loud for my liking, or his well being.

I stood up and Claire followed suit. Theo looked at me "you look…different" I scowled and attempted not growling at him, instead I said "Theo with the best intentions for your health, be quick my patience is wearing thin" Theo just nodded probably unable to come up with a reply he would say.

Claire looked bored the whole half hour of tests, where as Theo now frowned. "Claire what are these lines on your arms" without waiting for an answer, knowing she would protest, he grabbed her arm and pulled her sleeve up "they're nothing" she snapped and pulled her sleeve down, Theo having let go of her arm.

Theo sighed and looked a little disappointed, I was still in a state of shock, could Claire be one of those many teenagers who cut themselves?

The moment Theo had left I was in front of Claire. I crouched down and pulled her sleeve up, she didn't try to pull it down this time, she just looked away. There were deep cuts up and down her arm some scars some fresh, a new one opened above an old one causing Claire to wince, I felt horrified.

At the sight of the blood which was oozing out I felt my fangs come down, I fought against it and made my fangs fold back up.

"Claire" I said softly "what are these" using her free arm she got some tissues and started to clean up the cut she didn't look fazed, she looked used to it "I don't know, Oliver, they've been appearing for a while".

I was confused "how did no one notice" she looked down "I normally put band aids on to stop people noticing" for some reason I felt angry, probably at her hiding them "why didn't you tell anyone" now she looked angry "I was scared, you saw Theo he practically ran out. If he reacted like that what about everyone else" I could see tears welling up in her eyes, threatening to break free.

I looked her in the eyes, concerned, but I turned away, I didn't like the emotion taking hold of me. "Im going to go get the first aid kit, you stay here" I didn't wait for a reply, I just ran downstairs and grabbed the firs aid kit but I stopped. "Jason" he popped his head round the corner of the wall "yeah" I sighed "call amelie immediately, tell her I need her to come here and it's about Claire" he nodded.

When I returned Claire was looking at the floor but as soon at I took hold of her arm her head flew up. Our eyes locked cold grey and warm brown but this she looked away.

I silently bandaged both of her lower arms, when I finished I put the box on the side table. "Claire, you should lie down and sleep" I knew she would protest so I lay on the bed next to her and pulled her down so that her head was on my chest and pulled the blanket over us.

"Claire, im sorry for getting angry but what if you died because of not telling anyone, ive informed amelie she's coming later" she moved her head so she was looking at me "thank you" then she smiled "I think that might be the first time you've ever apologised to me…and meant it" my lips twitched up in a smile seeing the funny side of it, knowing it was true. "There's a first time for everything"

I gently brushed my lips against her forehead, it was brief and they hardly touched her but I liked it, Claire shivered at the touch. I may be dooming myself but I finally admit the truth, I don't just care for Claire Danvers but I may…I may love Claire Danvers, no that's wrong, I do love Claire Danvers.