Author's Note: Wow, it's been a while. I'm really sorry about that, I just got caught up in "Lovestruck". However, I think that this chapter is well worth the wait. Many of you were frantically asking what Alice saw, and you're about to find out.
So I had this crazy dream about Edward. We went on a date, and he was taking me home. At the door, he leaned in to kiss me, and right as his lips were about to touch mine...I woke up and remembered that I don't own Twilight. Gah.
So here we go!
"Edward, calm down. You're overreacting."
"Am I, Alice?" I snapped. "After what you saw, you want to tell me that I'm overreacting? You can't be serious."
I was behind the wheel of my Aston Martin Vanquish, and Alice was sitting in the passenger seat, her knees pulled up to her chest. I glanced at the speedometer and noticed that I was pushing 190. That was why I loved the Vanquish. It's so much faster than my Volvo. I eased off the accelerator until the car was speeding along at 150, but that was as slow as I would permit myself to travel. I had to get back to Forks. Back to Bella. She needed me.
"I know you're angry because of what he did, but she's not hurt physically. Emotionally, on the other hand…"
"Thank you, Alice. I'm well aware of Bella's emotional state right now. I don't need you waving it in front of my face every five seconds."
"Well it's your own fault," she reminded me for the thousandth time. "Maybe if you hadn't decided to leave, things wouldn't be this way. Bella wouldn't be in pain, you would be happy, and Mike Newton wouldn't be trying to plant one on her!"
"'Trying to plant one on her'? He practically assaulted her!"
That had been Alice's vision.
Mike pulled his Suburban into Bella's driveway, parking it right behind Charlie's cruiser. He had conveniently parked it in a location that was not visible from the front window, where Charlie was undoubtedly standing. He turned to Bella.
"I had a great time, Bella."
"Yeah. Me too," she replied halfheartedly.
"You look so hot. Did I tell you that already?"
Bella cringed before answering.
"You might have mentioned it once or twice."
"Oh, well…"
There was a long, awkward silence, and Bella was the one to break it.
"Well, I guess I'll see you at school on Monday." Her hand was on the door handle, ready to escape the confines of the vehicle. Mike seemed to snap out of some sort of trance, and he sprang into action.
"Wait! Bella?"
"Yeah, Mike?"
Mike leaned toward Bella, his one hand grabbing her face. The other hand found it's way onto her waist as he attacked her mouth with his. Bella froze in shock at first, but then struggled. Mike held onto her firmly. She finally managed to pull away, glaring at him incredulously.
"What was that?"
"You liked it, huh? Come here, baby, and I'll give you some more."
He locked his fist into the hair on the back of Bella's head, dragging her face back to his. She yelped as he crushed his lips against hers, but he mistook it for a moan of pleasure and immediately forced his tongue into her mouth. Bella placed both hands on Mike's chest and heaved. He pulled back an inch, looking extremely confused.
"Please, Mike. No more," Bella whimpered. She was on the verge of tears.
The confusion that had been so prominent on Mike's face changed into an unmistakable fury.
"This is about Cullen, isn't it!? You wouldn't have said no to him!"
Bella's expression turned into one of extreme pain. She looked like she would begin crying hysterically any second.
"I…" she began, making sure her voice wouldn't break. "I loved him, Mike. More than you can possibly know. More than anyone knew. More than he knew! You expect me to go on one date with you and be over him?"
"Obviously not," Mike retorted. "Bella, face the facts. Cullen's been gone for seven months! He's not coming back. He doesn't want you anymore. Get the hell over him!"
Bella's face crumpled in agony, and she threw open the door of Mike's Suburban. She jumped out, almost falling on her face, and slammed the door as hard as she possibly could before running for the house.
I wanted to kill Mike Newton. I wanted to rip him apart limb from limb. Words could not describe the pain I wanted to inflict on that pathetic human being. I focused on breathing deeply. Though I didn't need the oxygen, it calmed me down, made me less irrational. I pinched the bridge of my nose between my thumb and forefinger, willing the fury I felt to dissipate.
Alice stiffened in her seat as she experienced another vision.
Bella was on her bed looking up at the ceiling, tears flowing freely from her eyes. She shook slightly as she cried, whispering words so softly that the human ear could not pick them up.
"Why? Why Edward? Why did you leave me? I loved you. So much. I still do. All I ever wanted was forever with you. That's all. Nothing more. I just want to be with you."
I pulled off the road and stared silently at Alice as the vision continued.
"I would give anything to have you back. I don't know how much longer I can do this. Life without you isn't life. It's just…time. It passes so slowly. Every second without you feels like a day. A day longer than I want to live. I don't want to be here anymore. Save me, Edward. I need you."
The vision ended, and I looked straight ahead, seeing nothing.
"Edward? I think you should let me drive."
I nodded dumbly and got out of the car, walking around to the passenger side. I lowered myself in, still in a stupor.
"Are you alright?" Alice asked, clearly concerned for my mental well-being.
"What do you think? Do I really look alright, Alice?" I asked, completely numb.
"Honestly, you look like hell, Edward. But everything's going to be alright. We'll be back in Forks soon, and you and Bella can work things out. Okay? Everything will be set right in a few hours. Obviously," she paused long enough to bring an image of a sobbing Bella into her mind, and I winced. "Bella still wants you. So you go to her and tell her everything. Tell her why you left, why you came back, and make her see that you still love her."
"That doesn't fix everything. Sure, she wants me back, but that doesn't change the fact that I'm wrong for her. She deserves to grow old with someone, to have children and be happy. I can't give her any of that. Regardless of what she thinks, I'm hindering her. She could have so much more than me, and she should. And what if any one of us hurts her? What If I hurt her? I would never be able to live with myself. But on the other hand, I need her. So damn much…" I trailed off, burying my head in my hands. A few seconds later, I felt Alice's hand on my arm.
"You know what I think?" she asked, a small smile in her voice. "Well, obviously you do, but that's beside the point. I think that Bella doesn't care if she can't grow old, or have children, or do any other human thing. She wants you, Edward. She doesn't care what the consequences of that decision are. And as for you hurting her, I don't think you could inflict any pain or suffering on her that she hasn't already gone through."
"Are you insinuating that I could do no worse than leave her?"
"Yes, Edward. That's exactly what I'm saying. She would gladly take death over what she's going through right now. I don't think you or I have ever known the kind of pain she's in."
"In case you didn't realize, Alice, I'm without a soul mate, too. I think I know exactly what kind of pain she's in."
"No, I really don't think you do," she said, slightly annoyed. "You're the one in control of the situation. You left. You decide when or if you go back to her. You know exactly where she is and if she's safe or not. You know that you still love her and that she loves you. Bella, on the other hand, has no control whatsoever. She has no idea where in the world you are. Can you imagine that pain, knowing that the one you love is out there somewhere, but not knowing where? On top of that, she thinks that you're never coming back. And most importantly, Edward, she thinks that you are no longer in love with her. That has to be the most excruciating thing of all. Do you want to tell me now that you're in as much agony as she is? Because I'm pretty sure it's impossible."
"Oh…my…God…" I was in disbelief. How could I not have realized this before? "What have I done to her? I'm…oh, God, I'm…"
"Shhhh. It's going to be alright, Edward. We're only 100 miles from Forks. You'll be back in her arms before you know it."
I hadn't even realized that we were moving again, but I glanced out the window to see trees speeding past me in the dark. The clock on the dashboard read 12:30 A.M., and it was obvious that I had overestimated the amount of time it would take to reach Forks. Perhaps we were so ahead of schedule because of my desperate pace. I didn't care about time, though. I cared about nothing. Nothing besides my Bella. Bella. I would be with her again soon. An hour at the most. I sighed and leaned my head back against the headrest, closing my eyes.
I spent the remaining hour with my angel beside me.
A/N: So there it is! Let me know what you think. I have some crazy plans for the next chapter…So I'll update as soon as I can. "Lovestruck" is my #1 priority right now, but I will work on this one too. I pinky promise.
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