Author's Note: Sorry it has taken me so long to get new stuff posted and this one is so short! I've been really sick lately and it's taken all of my energy. I know you guys are worried that Hikaru is ignoring Kaoru but I assure you, he has never been more aware of his presence and it will show in the next few chapters. I'll try to post sooner from now on! -Luna
Kaoru is looking thinner lately. I hear him in the middle of the night, tossing and turning in his bed and the dark circles underneath his eyes worry me. I watch him in the
morning in our shared bathroom, he tries to cover them without me watching and I just pretend not to notice. I don't deserve him. I see what I'm doing to him and I just
continue like it doesn't matter. Like he doesn't matter. The truth is, when he kissed me I wanted nothing more than to simply kiss him forever. I loved the way his body
pressed against mine and how his lips were so soft and warm. But then it stopped and I was left with turmoil. Was it wrong for us to be in love? He is my brother, my twin.
Kaoru and I played around with our 'Brotherly Love' act but I never thought about it going further. I never thought of it waning either, though. Now he just watches me from
across the room and I pretend not to notice. If I don't address the situation then I don't have to make up my mind. But it's not fair. He's falling apart and I do nothing but
wish it never happened. And that's not even true! I can't stop thinking about that kiss. It's on my mind so much that I've even dreamt about it. Our lips were pressed
together and our bodies were writhing fervently. I woke up gasping for air and watched Kaoru sleep for hours. When he sleeps his features are so soft and contented, like
he has no worries in the world. I wanted to kiss all over his perfect skin. I carefully slid my fingers up his stomach and over his chest and watched in awe as his body
responded to my touch. "Hikaru." His breathy whisper made me want him more than ever. I can't do this. I don't deserve him. It was that night I moved into my own room.