When she first decided to tell them the truth, Serena thought it would be best if she gathered them all together and got over with it once and for all. But after thinking about it she changed her mind and decided it would be better to be alone with each one of them to tell them the truth. She woke up and decided to start with her mom, even though she would be devastated her mother always knew how to keep it cool and act calm and Serena really needed all the support she could get. Her mother let her in smiling and offered her some tea. They both sat and Serena didn't know how to start with the topic. It's wasn't an everyday conversation to say I have cancer and this may be my last week living. Everytime she was about to say something words got stuck in her mouth. Lily noticed something was wrong.

"Honey what's wrong? You seem to have a lot on your mind." She asked concerned.

"Mom I'm about to tell you something and it's probably the hardest thing I could ever tell you. I know already you're not going to like it but there's nothing we can do about it so I'm going to just say it."

"Serena, please tell me what is it you're making me nervous" Lily pleaded.

As much as Lily tried to pull it together and support her daughter, she couldn't. Tears were flowing down her face with every word coming out of her Serena's mouth. It's a cycle of life. First mothers, than daughters die not the other way round. No that isn't right. it couldn't possibly be right. Serena's life can't end before mine it's not how it works. I gave her life, I carried her for 9 months and to what? To let her pass away before me. NO that can't be happening.

As soon as Serena stopped talking and told her that the surgery was to be scheduled next Thursday, Lily hugged her tightly and they were both crying and going back and forth. It wasn't clear who was making the other feel better but it was certain that they were both in pain. Lily kept hugging Serena for a long time refusing to let her go, she wasn't ready to let her go, not yet anyway. Serena told her mother that she had to go and tell everybody else what's happening and Lily nodded understanding.

"Mom I don't know what's going to happen to me, but if by any chance the surgery doesn't go well I want you to take care of yourself. I don't want you to end your life just because mine ended, Eric needs you and you need to keep living. Can you promise me that?"

"Serena stop. Please don't say things like these, the surgery is going to work and I am going to keep living with you and Eric right by my side. I know that I haven't been the best mom but I love you both more than anything and I really hope everything will go as planned. I'll see you soon good luck with telling your friends honey. I'm proud of how strong you are." They hugged one last time before Serena headed to Blair's place to tell her.

Serena knew telling Blair was going to be really hard. How do you tell your bestfriend you may leave and never come back again? What kind of friend would I be if I wasn't there at her wedding? Who's going to be the godmother of hers and Chuck's kids? What if Blair has one of her episodes and she needs me? Who's going to babysit her kids when she and Chuck need a time out just like they always talked?

To say it was hard would be an understatement. Blair started weeping as soon as Serena started talking and mentioned the tumor. She couldn't manage to form any word after her friend's statement, she was in shock already imaging her life without her friend. Serena and Blair's relationship go much further than friendship, it wasn't as simple as that. As kids they were both raised in a home lacking for love, they were both raised by mothers who cared more about themselves than about their daughters and by fathers who eventually left them. Everyone knows that growing up, a person needs someone to rely on, to go to, to cry on its shoulder. For them they were each other's person. No matter how many times they fought they both knew that all grudges will be instantly forgotten if the other one needs help. That's Blair and Serena Blair and Serena. It was always like that.

"What did they tell you?" choked Blair barely managing to ask.

"I have a surgery next week, there's a 30% chance it might work out and I will be tumor-free."

"Wh-att ?! Serena you idiot. How could you scare me like that? Next time try to start with the solution before telling me you're dying in a couple of months. You scared the hell out of me. I know you may think that a 70% risk is too much but It's not. You will make it I'm pretty sure of that. Oh my god I thought that I lost you for a second." Believing something doesn't make it true right? Well to Blair it does. It was always a form of reassurance for her, whenever something bothered her she would say that it didn't exist out loud and it would disappear.

"Blair I really hope you're right but it's important not to get your hopes up. I don't want to disappoint you more than I already did but believe me there's nothing else that I would like more than living. Seeing you everyday, attending your wedding, raising your children and be with you with every step of your success because I know for sure that you will succeed. And I want you to promise me that if, the surgery fails you will not stop. You will do all the things we talked about when we were young, you will have kids and you will never ever leave them as our parents did." Blair nodded hugging Serena and whispering assurance in her ear. Just than Chuck entered and saw the two girls hugging and crying. As soon as he asked what was going on Serena started explaining and a lump formed in his throat. That was the only thing Chuck Bass couldn't fix, they say money fix everything but apparently it doesn't. How come this multi-millionaire is losing his step sister and there's nothing he could do about it. He stayed silent and hugged them both so hard hoping it wouldn't be the last time he does that. Serena stayed over for an hour before excusing herself. She still had one more person to tell, she still had Dan to tell. She purposely left him to the end hoping that something will happen and she wouldn't have to face him and tell him the truth but the time did come and she had to see him and tell him everything. She texted Rita telling her she was on her way over to talk Dan. Serena was really glad Rita would be there supporting her and helping her while telling Dan.

As soon as she entered the house she sat on the couch facing Dan and Rita took place next to her already holding her hands in hers. Dan could sense something was going wrong and he didn't dare to ask. Serena was scared and he knew it.

"Dan I have something to tell you. You're going to listen until I finish everything I have to say. Please I really need you to keep calm so I can say everything I have to say." She said looking straight into his eyes.

"Of course you can tell me everything what's wrong?"

"The reason I came back here wasn't because I got offered a new job. The truth is I quit my old job because I had to come here and spend time with you guys. Dan they found a tumor in my brain and they said I have little time left to live so I decided I should spend my last time with the people I love going through everything I wish to do before I pass away. So I came back here and I visited the hospital and a doctor said that he is willing to operate and try and remove my tumor with a 70% chance it might fail. But I'm going to do it, even though the chances are low it's still enough to make me believe I could have a chance and be with all of you longer because I'm not ready to leave yet." Serena said it all without taking a breath it sounded like it was recited, like she had been working on speech forever. And it was true, Serena didn't sleep a second last night going through all the things she could say and all the reactions she's going to face. But what came out of Dan wasn't anything she expected.

"NO ! You can't just come back here and promise me you're not leaving and then suddenly telling me you're going to leave. You're the most selfish person I ever met. How could you do this to me? You promised you'll stay here forever. You promised Serena and now you're breaking your promise. It's not okay to break a promise now is it? I can't deal with you right now" he said as he stormed out off the living room and slammed his bedroom door. Serena was sobbing. Rita held her tight and caressed her back whispering "it's going to be okay. He's just shocked" in her ears. But Serena's sobbing was nothing compared to Dan's who was sitting on his bedroom floor, head between his knees and crying his heart out. Dan was never a crier but hearing that the love of his life may disappear forever wasn't easy and him acting like a complete douche bag wasn't making anything better. His thoughts got interrupted by a knock on the door.

"Come in" he chocked out. Just then Rita entered and slid next to him taking his hand and caressing it with her thumb.

"How are you feeling?"

"You know, I've been better." He said sarcastically.

"She saved you for the last you know? She was so afraid to tell you that she decided she'd tell everybody before you, you have to know it's not easy for her and blaming her isn't the right thing to do. She came back. She came back to spend her last days with you and for what? For you yelling at her and leaving her in her deepest needs?" Dan nodded his head like a 8 years old boy who just listened to his mother telling him he did something wrong. He knew he did something wrong but he wasn't about to change anything about it. Serena hurt him and she should suffer, she should know the feeling of being left. He hugged Rita tightly and reposed his head on her shoulder, just then he started kissing her neck and collarbone but was instantly stopped by her.

"Sleeping with me won't make Serena hurt more she may be dying Dan there's nothing that could break her more than that. Think about it and for now I'm going to crash at her mother's place with her she needs a friend since her so called best friend is too arrogant to jump in into his job and support her decision."

Please review if you would like me to continue. I have so many ideas but I don't want to write unless someone is actually reading this fanfic xx