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Chapter 4

Carlos and Logan

Carlos' POV

It was late. Well late enough that I know that Logan should be at home and I should be in bed, because I have work tomorrow. Logan was in my room, lying in my bed, right next to me. He was snuggled into my side, reading a book assigned by his AP English class. He was actually reading it to me and his soft voice sounded like hymns of blue birds. It could be that love has elevated his voice or that I just love listening to him.

"You should be getting home." I said, looking at Logan, who put the book down and started to lazily drawing random circles on my arm.

"Are you kicking me out?" He said, turning to face me, his lips pouting and his eyes all doleful. How do you expect me to deny him, when he's already so…undeniable!

"No!" I said. "I…I…uh…well, it's getting late and…uh…your parents will get worried." I stuttered.

Logan smirked. I love when he does that and also hate it, because it means he know something that I don't know. "I'm staying over." He said simply.

I didn't know what to say. So I just stared at him. And when his eyes roamed over my face and his hands finished touching everywhere it could reach. And finally the flicker of his eyes from my lips to my eyes started, I spoke. "Okay." I didn't realize I was holding in a breath, because all too soon, I felt the air flood back into my lungs and I was choking on the overwhelming feeling of Logan in my arms.

He smiled, when he saw the reaction he made me have. "Carlos?" He asked, looking me in the eyes, serious as all living day.

"Hm?" I asked, because I was incapable of forming any words.

"Make love to me?"

He looked so innocent, like he had the world in his hands, but had yet to find out the secrets of it. I bent down and captured his lips, met with the warm soft embrace of his own. Is this what it feels like? Because I feel this every time I kiss him. When I first kissed him, I was expecting the clichéd firework feeling when kissing someone... But I didn't get it... Instead I felt something more intense. No electricity or fire. When my lips met his, my stomach dropped and felt completely empty.. And my heart... Instead of my heart racing. It completely stopped. Not a pump. Not a beat. It was exciting, yet scary... I didn't know what to think of it, until that rush came. The pit in my stomach furled and morphed into what can only be described as a thousand butterflies wings fluttering, lining every inch of my tummy. I swear it almost tickled. My heart suddenly jump started and began to hurriedly pump in an attempt to make up for the loss of blood flow for the few seconds that our lips were touching. I leaned away from the kiss and opened my eyes, only to find Logan staring back at me. His lips were so pink and his eyes blown. What I wouldn't do for him.

"Will you?" He asked.

"It'll be our first time…" I said, voicing out my concerns. "I want to. But I want it to be perfect. I want you to feel the love that you deserve. I want to give you everything I have."

He looked hopeful. "So…"

"I will make love you, but not tonight. I will do it, when I take you on a romantic date, where I get to hold your hands, pull of your chair for you, kiss you at your door and then…" I strayed. "I want to make our first time special."

Logan smiled. He looked so calm and it made the butterflies in my stomach flutter like never before. "Thank you."

"What for?"

"What you said. It was beautiful." He smiled. "I'm glad we're back together."

"Me too." I said. "I promise you won't regret this."

"Are you sure you won't?"

"Yes." I said as fast as possible, I didn't want to give him anymore reason for doubt.

He smiled again and leaned into me to touch our lips, well I thought. He stopped only a centimetre away. "Can…we…still kiss and touch?"

I couldn't bring any words into my mouth, he looked so…so…intoxicating. "Huh-uh."

"Good." He said and the euphoric sensation of his lips on mine started all over again.

Kendall POV

This is not good. Not good. Lunch is in half an hour and Katie and still prepping Jett. This is not good. I'm just pacing here. Katie should know that this thing is giving me more asthma attacks than I can handle and I can't deal. I keep losing my inhaler! This way James has one in every room!

"His favourite colour?" Katie asked Jett.

"Green."

"His birthday?"

"November 2nd." Jett said confidently.

"His weird idiosyncrasy that he does when he concentrates?" Katie asked. How does she know this?

"Bites his lips and when he thinks that people aren't watching, he bites the skin off. That's why his lips are always chapped."

Katie had an evil grin on her face and she played with her fingers, his arms on her knees. Yep. She was an evil genius and definitely Brooke's daughter, the better of the two.

"One more question." Katie started. "What do you like about Kendall?"

Jett was unaffected by the question at all. He had a self-satisfied smile on his face and it was getting on my nerves. The dude was so self-absorbed and he is worse than the old James Diamond. "I like Kendall because every time I'm near him he makes me want to be who I want to be, he makes me want to the best for him. Every time I see his smile, I wish that I am the reason for that smile, because it brings this warm feeling at the bottom if my chest. Every time he laughs I feel like my ears are hearing for the first time. It's just…being with him makes me complete and I can only hope that Kendall feels the same way." He said softly. His eyes met mine as soon as he started his speech and something in them drew me to him. Something put his words around my heart and I felt the pull, the attraction. I felt it. His words hypnotised me, then he looked away, blushing. And I lushed too.

"Perrrrrfect." Katie said. "Now we're ready."

I snapped out of my daze and looked at Katie and then back at Jett and then my thoughts went to James. I asked myself what I would be feeling if I saw James with Jo and they seemed like they were genuinely in love. And…well, I'd want him to be happy. I'll always want him to be happy. He gave up his career to keep me. "It's not going to work."

Katie's smile was wiped off immediately. "What?! Why?"

"Because, put yourself in his shoes. If he saw that I was genuinely happy with Jett, he'd want me to be happy. He'd want me to be with him. He's going to take one look at our relationship, see that Jett is in –act like he is in- love with me, and boom! Not reaction and the wedding's still going to happen!" I ranted.

Jett looked taken back from the outburst, but then shrugged. "Blondie's got a point."

"Argh! I can't believe I didn't think of that!" Katie yelled. "We're going to need to come up with a whole new strategy and lunch is in twenty-five minutes!"

Sebastian POV

I would just like to say that I only offered the idea to Miss Katie, because I want her to have a stable family. She needs to know that James will not always be working and that Kendall will be here for her. I want her to be happy and loved. She might not show it, but she is hurting more than the other two. Her mother…let's just say she's not the best role model, Jennifer Knight was more of a mother to her than her real one. She needs James and Kendall, but that won't happen until they have each other.

Anyway, for dinner, we have a light chicken-lemon salad, which is Kendall's favourite, followed by James' favourite chicken Bolognese and Katie's favourite Apple-peach pie. Those three are the closest thing to children I have ever had. It has been a pleasure being with them and I wouldn't trade it for the world. However, I am getting old and it's high time I think about retirement.

I hear the door to the back door open and I turn to look at who it is. "Ah. James. Welcome home. Lunch will be ready shortly."

He smiled and went to the fridge, taking out a bottle of water. He took a long drink and then, sharply turned to face me. "Is he here?"

"Who?" I asked, like I didn't know.

"Kendall's boyfriend."

"Ah, yes. He is in Kendall's room, right now." I said.

I could see a change in colour in James' eyes. He was suddenly on guard, his body shifting to accommodate the intruder in his house. I really don't understand young people now days. If you love someone, go for it. Don't wait until all your hair is white and your skin is wrinkly to make the first move.

"Have you seem him? What's he like?" James masked, I could hear a little growl in his voice.

I internally chuckled. "I have. He seems…decent."

"Decent? How decent? Is he treating him right?" James said, as fast as possible.

"Sir, I only met him for two seconds and I didn't even answer the door." I said, putting the finishing touches on the salad. "Now if you could call the others and freshen up, I will have lunch on the table in a few minutes." I said, shooing him away from the kitchen.

Carlos had asked for a day off, well more like he had been demanded by Logan to get a day off, so that they could evolve their relationship beyond this house. I had no problem with it. They were young and they were doing what Kendall and James couldn't do. Ah. How I wish I was in love.

Line Break

James' POV

Stupid boy comes into my house, talks to my Kendall, probably kissing him and toughing him and urgh! Stupid boy. I bet he's not even as good looking as me. I can bet that I am way more Kendall's type than that douche of a kid is. And what gives Kendall the right to start dating at this age? He's only 17…okay 18 in a few months, but he's way too young. He should be focusing on Hockey and school, not some stupid boy!

"Nope Jetty. Flash is better" I heard Kendall say. Jett? What type of name is that?!

"No way! Hal Jordan is better, and he was a war hero!" I heard a slightly higher pitched voice reply.

"No way. Wally West is better than any other hero out there and he's cute.!" Kendall retorted. Since when does Kendall have a thing for red heads? I stopped and listened in on their conversation.

"Hey! What about this brunette guy standing in front of you?" I head a pout in his voice, it disgusted me.

"Well I do have a soft spot for brunettes…" I head him drift off and U could only imagine the things they were doing. Not in my house!

I walked into Kendall's room, without knocking and immediately I saw the two teens move away from each other. Kendall looked flushed as did the other boy in the room. "Kendall." I started, wanting to scream at him, but I held my tongue. I turned to the guy next to him and looked him from top to bottom. He's not bad. Just not good enough for my Kendall.

"Ja..James. Uh. Hi." He said, flustered. He turned to Jett and smiled at him. "This is Jett, my bo-bo…"

"Boyfriend" Jett finished. He turned to me and held out his hand. I reluctantly went to shake it. I didn't want to make Kendall feel bad. "Hi Mr Diamond, it's a pleasure to meet you. Kendall's told me a lot about you."

"Yeah, well I've heard nothing about you." I said quietly. I got a glare from Kendall…

"James, be nice." Kendall mouthed to me.

"Lunch is ready." I said and walked out of the room

Katie's POV

This is bad, the plan was a sheer disaster and the one we just came up with has so many kinks! This might not work. But it has to work! We're at lunch right now and I swear I can feel the tension, it could be me, being delirious, or maybe James really doesn't like Jett, but I didn't think this through.

"Lunch looks delicious." James said. "Thank you Sebastian."

"It's my pleasure." He replied, giving James a little nod.

James smiled back at him.

"Thank you for making our favourites." I said, looking up and Sebastian, smiling.

"You're welcome." He said.

"And thank you for always being there for us." Said Kendall.

Is it just me or is everyone really hoping that Sebastian stays. We all love him. He's family and he's been with us and we've been through even more than the Kardasians…those people really need to tone down the drama. Seriously, it's not even drama, it's just stupid trivial stuff with a hint of soap opera, why are they so famous, again?

Jett kept quiet. I knew that if he said anything to Sebastian, it'd blow his cover. I looked at James and he was more or less engrossed in his salad, biting his lips, making sure that he didn't say anything that would make the poor boy cry for the hills. When Sebastian finished serving them, Jett gave him a smile and a nod of the head and we were left to our own demise.

James coughed a little, so that we'd get his attention and we did. He put down his fork to his half eaten salad. He was never a fan of lemon, but ate it anyway because it was Kendall's.

"So, Jett. Tell me about yourself." James asked.

I saw Kendall take Jett's hand in a loving manner and squeeze it. This was perfect.

Jett looked nervous, but managed to speak, with one more squeeze of the hand. "I'm in my senior year of high school at LA High and I plan on continuing with acting."

"Acting? That's a risky job. It's all about rejection." James said bitterly.

Jett took a gulp. "I think I can make it. I've been acting since I was five years old. I've gotten small parts here and there, but I'm still looking for my big break."

"How long do you think that's going to take?" James fired.

"Um…"

"Because it takes ages to get scouted, and then there are auditions and then actually getting the movie or show out and what if it's a flop. What then?" James continued.

"Umm.."

"How do you plan on supporting Kendall?"

"Um."

"Are you even serious about him? I find it hard to believe that you just magically popped out of know where. I don't even know how the two of you met." James said

"Ah.."

"And thi-"

"James stop." Kendall protested. "He's going to make it, because he's the best. He's going to get scouted and get into a movie. He will do it. I have faith in him. We met, how? During a hockey game. He was in the bleachers and we hung out with a group of friends and got to know each other. I like him and he likes me. If you have a problem with that, tell me now so I can pack my stuff and leave." Kendall said, in shivering serenity.

James didn't say anything. Does anyone else notice a complete 180 in Kendall's attitude?

Kendall's POV

No. NO. NO. He doesn't get to play the fucking protective older brother card. He isn't my brother and he sure as fuck isn't allowed to interrogate the guy I'm dating. Forget the details.

I'm mad beyond rage. I don't feel anything anymore. It's not because I'm sick of this situation, it's because I'm sick of pinning for a guy I know will never love me back. I'm done.

"Well?" I asked, when James could just look at me with his mouth hanging open. Jett was quiet and Katie was taking everything in with wide eyes.

"Ken…Kendall, I-I. No. There's no p-problem." James took a sharp intake. "Jett, I am sorry if I offended you." He said quietly.

Jett knew it was his queue to speak. "It's okay."

"No, it's not. I apologize for my behaviour." James said.

I saw Katie with his mouth hanging open. I was surprised too. James was always so proud of everything and now that he's apologized to Jett…it doesn't seem real. I keep my face still, not giving away any emotions. I can't stay here anymore. I don't want to do this and I'm not going to do this.

"I think it will be best, if Jett and I ate in the kitchen." I said.

James was silent. He looked overwhelmed, but you wouldn't be able to tell, because he's trained that look to look professional. "No. I was at fault I apologized. We are going to eat here."

I looked at him. Long and hard. I made sure to tell him that I was still angry with him, through my eyes. I hope he didn't see my insides breaking.

James' POV

Dinner last night went….He's not good enough for Kendall. He's a pretty boy who will get rejected from Hollywood and then have to do this minimum wage job just so he can support himself. He can't support Kendall. This is not happening. I have worked for too long and too damn hard for Kendall to be taken from me. This cannot happen. And Kendall actually stood up for this prick. He defended him. He doesn't even know what's he's getting himself into! This is his first boyfriend and NO. NO. NO FUCKING WAY.

God. If he wasn't my step-brother. God.

If he wasn't I would treat him right. I would give him the home, the love, everything I can. I would do anything I could to see him smile, for him to be happy.

And what type of name is Jett? Really? I get parents want to be creative, but really?

Whatever, I need to get so dirt on this guy and I have a fucking meeting with Jo.

Calm down Diamond. Calm the fuck down. Kendall is going to be fine. He's going to be staying under my roof…. Then it's my orders. Shit. He said he'd leave if I didn't like it. He isn't making this easy. Why is everything so fucking complicated when it's to do with him?

I'm meeting Jo about the bogus wedding plans, as much as I hate to do this, it has to be done. I saw her walking in, in her designer Gucci red heels and LV tight white, knee length dress. She looked stunning, absolutely gorgeous, too bad, it did nothing for me.

"Hi! Jamie Boo!" She said, in a sarcastic voice.

"You know I hate being called that, why do you keeping doing it?" I whined.

"Because I'm supposed to act like a whiny spoilt ditzy blonde brat, that's why. If I have to act like this, I'm going to make you suffer too." She retorted.

I sighed. "We don't have to do this." I told her. What I should've said was I don't want to do this.

"I know." She said, clearly reading my mind. "As much as I don't want to, I owe my dad this and besides if it's not you, then it's Wayne-Wayne and do you want Wayne Cosmetics to rise or Diamond Cosmetics?"

"You don't have to marry because of the business. Wasn't there this one person you used to like…what was her name? Camy?" I thought, when we used to go to high school together, they were inseparable, literally. Initially I thought they were best friends and it was a girl thing, but then Jo, who was my best friend during High School and College, confessed.

"Camille Roberts." Jo said, in a saddened tone. "I…haven't talked to her in a while." She let out a sigh.

"What ever happened between you two, anyway?" I asked, taking a sip out water.

She looked sad and I could literally see a black cloud hover over her head as she poured her heart to me. "I broke up with her. You know how it is…If my dad ever found out…I lose everything."

"So instead you choose to give up the one person who truly made you happy?" I questioned. Yes, I was judging her, why would she sell her soul to the devil, just to keep her living standard.

"You're one to talk. You were going to Hollywood, I did what I did, because I thought it was right." She rationalized. I was speechless. She let out a tired sigh. "How's Kendall and Katie?" She asked, genuinely.

"Katie still won't talk to me. And Kendall… Kendall…. he came out. I met the guy yesterday" I said, still pissed.

"Well, what do you know, they kid finally did it." Jo cheered.

"What?! You mean you knew he was gay?!" I said, was it only me? Am I the only one who didn't know Kendall was gay?

Jo looked over her menu. "What, you didn't?" She snorted.

"NO." I said, "I was too busy growing up! In case you don't remember, I have a family to support!" I retorted.

Jo chuckled. "James, you're too nice for your own good. I mean look at us, I gave up the love of my life for money and you can't even have yours because he's family. But still, you choose to take care of him, giving up your own dreams to make sure that he and your sister were safe. Too nice."

"If I was so nice, I would be fucking happy for him, I'm not." I said.

"Well, it's not your fault." She set her Menu down and leaned closer to me. She was acting, again. "Tell me about Kenny's boo."

"God, never call that ass that." I said.

"My, my, Jamie Boo, doesn't like Kenny's Boo. Boy, I can't wait to hear this" She sneered.

"He's ever parent's worst nightmare. Completely wrong for Kendall and Kendall can't even see. He told me if I had a problem with them dating, then he's move out. Can you believe it?!"

Jo, had managed to get a drink in her hand. "Hmm." She said, while she sipped her cocktail. "Yep."

"WHAT!" I nearly screamed.

"Calm your sissy pants down. Don't make a scene. I can and I think you are stupid to not see what's going on." She said calmly.

"What do you know that I don't?" I interrogated her.

"They're playing you."

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