Another day, in the hospital. Dr. Roberts was taking more blood, which I really do not understand why. I've been really sleepy lately, so I hardly ever know what their doing anymore. I really hate this. Dr. Roberts says I've been sleepy because my body's becoming fragile and weak. Audrie has been coming by a lot lately which is really nice. One time her brother, John, came by. He was really hot, and very nice. I kind of wonder if he'll come by. I really hope so. Wait, what am I thinking? He'd never be interested in someone like me. Someone who is in a hospital bed everyday, someone who is having God calling their name every single day, maybe one day for good, but someone who can't even share their love with. It's not like I'd be worth it all, but I wish I was. I wish I was a lot of things, I wish so many miracles to come true. I'm so pathetic as to make a wish at 11:11 every night and morning. Audrie had a concert today so she said she wouldn't be here today, but she did say John might visit. I've never talked to him without someone else in the room so I'm kind of afraid that it might get awkward if he does come. Not like I care if he does. Oh, don't be fooling yourself, you so care if he does. You've been wanting him to come see you again for the past week and a half. I have no idea what my feelings for John are to be quite honest. I feel that I sort of have a middle school crush on him, but he doesn't have feelings for me. I mean really, he's visited me once about two weeks ago. As Dr. Roberts left, I fell right to sleep. As I woke up, I was met with someone's eyes. Yeah, you guessed it. John's.