A/N: I love that you all seem to be enjoying this story. I have to say I am loving writing it! :) Thank you for bearing with me writing it on my iPhone, if we waited for me to be at my computer you'd still be waiting for chapter 2. Thank you for all your wonderful reviews.
Present Day...
Casey still stood in the window of her office fighting off tears and praying somehow that the rain would erase her pain her memories to be cleansed from her eternal soul. She didn't want to remember any more. She wanted the whole thing to be gone. She wanted to be spared the looks of pity as she walked through the halls at the office. She wanted to have her old self back again.
Then again, like it says in Alice in Wonderland, 'I can't go back to yesterday because I was a different person then.' It was true. As much as Casey wanted to return to her old self it was pointless. Everything was different now. She was different now.
Hearing a knock at the door, she barked out a "Come in." Turning to face the door she locked eyes with the guest. Frowning, the redhead weakly asked, "Why are you here?"
One year ago...
Casey drove up the cold winding road. Alex owed her big time for this and she better damn well treat her better after this...this ridiculous drive to the middle of nowhere. Not to mention, it was snowing and the roads were already becoming white from the snow.
As she got closer and closer to the cabin, the roads became worse and worse with traction becoming more and more questionable. The road was gone under the power and Casey suddenly was immensely happy for keeping her Range Rover when she moved to the city. Something about the big SUV with 4 wheel drive on invisible roads made her feel much more secure.
All logic kept telling her to stop for the night, but she couldn't leave Alex alone in a cabin like that. The last weather forecast for the northeast she heard on her satellite radio gave warning of a blizzard for the area with record snowfalls. She had a good feeling if she didn't reach Alex tonight that she wouldn't reach her for a few days. Saying a silent prayer she pushed on towards the cabin.
An hour later Casey arrived. Pulling up as close to the cabin as she could get, she put on her coat and toboggan and opened the door to the freezing cold snowy wind. The icy air whipped around her cheeks instantly freezing her. Stepping out into the snow, she was instantly up to almost her knees in the snow. She was amazed her Rover had even made it.
Smelling the inviting scent of the wood burning fire, she got to work and grabbed her bag from the back seat and headed up to the porch. Reaching it she began beating the wet snow from her jeans and working it from her boots before entering the cabin, before she could finish the door opened.
Looking up she came eye to eye with a seemingly drunk Alexandra Cabot. She could tell from the blondes swollen red eyes that she'd been crying. Casey felt for the woman. She wanted nothing more than to take her in her arms an hold her while she cries for her failed relationship. Yet before she could say anything, Alex crossed the space between them and pressed Casey against the outside wall and forcefully pressed her lips to Casey's.
Casey was so taken aback that she didn't think her actions through at first. Instead she fell into the kiss, enjoying the feel of Alex's lips pressed against hers, the feel of the blondes body pressed into hers, the feel of hands roaming her sides and moving to her back to pull her closer. Instinctively she tangled her hands in Alex's long blonde hair as she allowed the blonde entrance to her mouth at the feeling of Alex's tongue running along her bottom lip.
Kissing Alex was more amazing than she'd ever dreamed. Maybe it was the drastic difference of hot and cold playing across her every sense at this exact moment, or maybe it was just the magical mystery that was Alex Cabot, but Casey didn't care because she had Alex.
Flipping their positions, Casey began to kiss down Alex's neck. Hearing a moan escape Alex as she enjoyed the skin of the blondes neck and her hands roamed the blondes fantastic body made Casey's body ache with want. Casey moved to Alex's ear and whispered, "I want you so much Alex."
Unexpectedly Casey was quickly pushed back causing the redhead to trip off the porch and land in the knee deep snow. As the powder settled around her Casey sat in shock as Alex looked at her wide eyed and a bit horrified at her actions. "Oh my God, Casey I am so sorry!" Alex cried out.
Shaking her head at the blonde, Casey stood and walked back up to the door re-brushing the snow from her body. Thinking the whole thing over it was a bit humorous especially as Alex had turned herself into a blubbering mess of apologies. Standing to face the blonde, Casey bursts out laughing much to Alex's continued shock.
"Alex, sweetheart chill out. You clearly have been drinking and are upset. I am sure it was just an accident don't be so hard on yourself." Casey assured. Smiling a wicked smile with a raised eyebrow at the now settled blonde, she added with a smirk, "Plus it was nice payment for the treacherous drive here."
Shaking her head, Alex said, "Get inside Casey before we freeze to death." Looking a bit puzzled, Alex asks, "Is, I mean was, wait is, whatever, am I speaking English?"
"Oh dear god, get inside Alex and sit down. Have you eaten anything?"
Alex didn't try to speak, she just shook her head no and laid down on the couch. Walking into the kitchen to examine the options Casey quickly decided spaghetti was a good choice. Browning the meat and adding it to a pot of sauce, she set a pot to boil. Once the noodles were cooking Casey walked over to check on Alex.
The blonde was curled up asleep on the couch. Casey smiled at how peaceful she looked. Waking her seemed evil, but she knew Alex needed to eat something.
Sitting next to her she rocked her co-chair easily whispering, "Alex, sweetie, wake up. Dinner is going to be ready in a few minutes. Alex..."
"Let me sleep please." Alex grumbled.
"I promise I will after you eat. Sit up I will fix you a bowl."
"Hmm, okay." Alex said sitting up weakly. Casey quickly drained the cooked noodles and fixed Alex a bowl. Sitting down next to the blonde she handed her the bowl.
"Tell me how bad your drive was here." Alex said.
"Umm, okay. Long and dangerous. Honestly, I am surprised the Rover made it here in to snow. There was so much. I am pretty sure I should have stopped way earlier." Casey stated.
Alex took another bite or two before stopping to look at Casey, "Why didn't you?"
"I didn't want you stuck here alone." Casey replied.
Alex set her bowl down on the table, "Why are you so nice to me Casey? If it was dangerous you should have stopped."
"Alex I would move heaven and earth to help you. I wish you'd let me show you how you deserve to be treated." Casey said standing and taking Alex's bowl.
By the time, Casey came back Alex was asleep again. Casey walked to the bedroom and turned down the bed. Then she walked back to Alex on the couch, slowly and gently she lifted the blonde into her arms and carried her to the bed. Laying her down, she tucked her in gently and kissed her on the head.
Whispering softly Casey said, "I love you Alexandra Cabot and will prove that to you. Sweet dreams."