Ben never went very fast when he was coming out the street it wasn't until then that I realized he wasn't heading home. I wasn't sure were he was going or why he had that look on his face.

"Hey Ben where are we going?" he dint reply at first he just carried on staring out the window.

"Are you ignoring me because im coming out with you later.. I don't have to come if its going to upset you so much. Hey stop ignoring me and grow up and answer my question!"

"It's not because you're going with us later, in-fact that doesn't bother me at all."

"then what is it?" I didn't understand it had to have something to do with me and Corban I was sure of it because he was in a perfectly good mood when he came in.

"Its just I've seen that look in his eyes before and I don't like the out come.. I don't wont you to get to close to him ok" I couldn't answer I didn't understand what he was going on about it made no sense to me.

"HEY Lilly are you listening to me. Look stay away from him as much as you can ok, don't purposely put yourself in his company"

"What are you going on about Ben? What look? I don't understand" I was confused and he wasn't making anything clear enough to help me understand.

"I know that you saw the way he was looking at you even when he was supposed to be talking to me, I know you know what he was thinking when he was looking at you like that. You may not be my favourite person right now but I wouldn't wish what could happen on you." He was serious what ever he was going on about.

"Just do as I say please"

"Ok I will happy, but you still haven't told me were we are going" he had made me angry I wasn't bother about Corban or by the fact the he just said he didn't like me I was mad because he wouldn't tell me what he was going on about. The train station came into view I thought for a minute that that was were we were going. But the he turned off left and headed down a very long straight road.

"Ben I mean it tell me were we are going or I will jump out the car door right now!" he didn't answer me he just put the automatic lock on the door so that there was no way of escaping.

"Look Ben you're kinda scaring me please tell me were we're going please." My pleading didn't seam to have worked he just ignored me. That's when I started to cry, when I got so angry or mad like if I couldn't find my keys anywhere and I was in a rush I would cry in angry I hardly ever cried because I was sad now.

"Lilly why are you crying?" Ben sounded a little sad maybe that would make him tell me where we were going.

"Im crying because im angry!" he seamed to accept that but he didn't lose the bitterness my tears had brought to his face.

"TELL ME WERE WE ARE GOING" I screamed at Ben I was so angry now that I was sure I might pass out with anger.

"Just calm down will you im trying to figure out were we're going myself" what? That made no sense, he was just driving us around for no reason.

"Ben please just take us home I think Lauren will get upset. Aren't we supposed to be home by now?" Ben seamed to know what I was saying was true.

"We're going somewhere for a minute or two and then we can go home will you ring mum and tell her well be home in 10 mins" as he said this he passed me my mobile phone I didn't know he had it, had it fallen out my pocket last night at Corban's? when I told Lauran that we would be home in 10 mins she wasn't bother in-fact she sounded happy that I was out with Ben im sure she had noticed that we got on the least.

"She says don't be too late and that we are having pie for tea"

"Thank you for doing as I asked and not coursing a fussy I think I need you around to think about how im going to make this work" now he was purposely trying to confuse me I was sure of it. When I finally took in were we were going I saw the woods and a very high hill covered in trees. I thought it looked a good place to come and think, I would have to watch were we went on the way back so I could come here alone. When we stopped I jerked forward in my seat and was flung back into place by the seat belt. Ben got out the car and headed for a path that lead up the hill, I followed an watched as we kept going up and up a very steep hill. He verified my theory that it was a good place to come and think by saying that he often came here when he need to do some good clear head thinking. When we got to the top I could see why he liked coming here it was like something out of a movie. The view was all around us from the sudden loss of trees. The small town below had now been surrounded by a light glow of gold, pink and red of the sunset. And there was small scattered bits of light from the houses made me sure that we should be home by now but I didn't and couldn't feel the need to get going. After what seem like a very long time although I was sure this place was never affected by time at all, Ben turned and started to walk back thought the forest ridden hills trees.

"Are we going home now?" I had to make sure or I was going to go crazy.

"Well im taking you home yes" I didn't know what he meant but at least he was taking me back and I could relax.

"Im going to take you back, you have to tell mum that ill be at Corban's and that ill b back at seven to pick you up to take you out ok" he wasn't giving me a choice he was telling me what was happening. What ever the reason for out visit here he had decided what he needed to and was going to sort it out now. He drove faster this time more aggressive and with more power and frustration. Lauran was looking out the curtains when we pulled up outside the house she shot Ben a meaningful look and he nodded and sighed. The house was warm I hadn't realized how cold it was outside until I was in the nice warm house. Sam and Meganne where watching telly but didn't seam to really be focusing on it I wondered what they were not watching it seamed to had a lot of gun noises. To my surprise it was a film.

"Hey Lilly how was your first night out here then?" Meganne seamed to have grown up a lot since I last saw here, she was taller and her brown her was less spiral curls and more lose ringlets now, I realized just then that she was very attractive to be my relative.

"Fine thank you, I met some nice people and Corban seams to be very nice" it didn't like using the word nice to describe things but I couldn't think of a word strong enough to sum up this charming boy. Sam the eldest boy then turned to face me.

"You seam to have caused Ben some problems with Corban, Bens sure that he likes you and none knows why that's such a crime but Bens certain that he cant let Corban keep liking you weird kid" Sam went back to watching the telly, so that's what Ben had been thinking about up on the hill how do stop Corban liking me, well tonight didn't seam to be a very good idea anymore. After dinner I went to have a shower and put on my pyjamas. I was sat straitening my hair like I always did when I head the front door slam shut. Ben was in my door way before I hadn't even got up off the seat.

"Stay away from him ok I mean it don't even talk to him ok" I ran to the door Ben had a very dark red circle around his eye.

"Ben did he hit you?" it didn't make sense that they would fight over me it had to be about something else.

"Lilly are you listening to me don't you dare go any where near him ok!" he said this through gritted teeth all I could do was nod.

"Good now do you still wont to go for a drink with me, I think I need one" I was glad that his mood had lightened but I wonted to know why Corban had hit him.

"Yeah sounds good to me, give me 5 minutes and ill be right with you" I got dressed in a hurry and put my hair in a messy ponytail. The pub that Corban and I had gone to last nigh had the same atmosphere as yesterday when we went in. Ben had invited Sam along with us to have a drink and Meganne although to young to drink she was only sixteen came with us to play pool, she had challenged all of us telling us about her new awesome pool skills. After our second pint Ben stiffened as the door of the pub closed loudly. Sam and Meganne joined Ben in gawking at who ever had walked in through the door. I turned just to be as shocked at who was as them. He started to walk over in our direction. I didn't understand why he was here, I hoped he'd come to apologise. He reached us by the pool table in a few long strides with a cheeky smile on his face.

"Hello, I was wondering if I could talk to you alone" he was staring at me and I began to rise without even thinking about it, it was like some strange spell that he was controlling my body. Ben grabbed my hand and started to pull me back.

"Sorry Corban but I thought I made myself very clear earlier, if you would like to talk to her you cant talk to me and I will pass on the message" I wondered why Ben was being so protective. It was like I was his little sister or something.

"Its ok Ben I wont take her for long she'll come back" it wasn't that he was saying that I would be back in a time like most people would say he was just saying that I would come back I wondered what he meant? As we walked out side as it was so cold it was like artic air rushing around me.

"Look its not my choice to ignore you ok, so please don't think it's my fault. I am saying to you alone because I know that you're able to keep things to yourself, I know if Ben found out that I was telling you this he would probly come and hit me again, I would also like to say that that I didn't hit first he hit me and I just reacted I do regret doing it… but that's not the point the point is that I like you I like you a lot and there is no immediately easy answer to give you for what that has to do with me staying away from you" he seamed to be having trouble with what he was saying and if I was being honest I didn't really understand.

"What's it to Ben who I see" I was angry at Ben for making a decision that should be mine for me.

"Its not who you see its what you see" now I really didn't know what he was saying to me and what did he mean by what I saw?

"I don't understand what do you mean by what I see?" he seamed to be regretting saying that, it was evident by the look on his face.

"Look Lilly its better for you to just stay away from me ok, as long as I feel like this anyway.. I have to go Ben will be coming to get you and please, please could you not tell him what I've just said, tell him I was wishing you luck at school or something like that, please" and those were the last words I was sure I was ever going to hear his perfect voice say to me again, and it had left me confused and wonting to do something to understand I knew it was wrong but I had to do it. It was very wrong and I was sure I would be kicked right out after I did it but I had to try, I had to do something to stop that pain that had invaded his face when he was telling me that he couldn't see me.