Chapter 4: Only Me?

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School. Oh how Watanuki wished it wouldn't come. He had so many fears piled up. Would Doumeki let his fan girls know about their relationship? Would Doumeki completely ignore him? Would Doumeki—

"Wata!" Mokona shouted.

"WHAT?!" the bespectacled boy swirled to face the black manjuu bun.

"You're burning our breakfast!"

"AH!" Watanuki yelped, quickly switching off the stove. He stared at the pan dismally. "Yuuko-san won't let me hear the end of it…"

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"Has our great cook reached his end?!" Yuuko exclaimed dramatically, as she waved her fork about.

Maru and Moro placed their palms on their cheeks, wearing shocked expressions. "Reached his end?!" they mimicked.

Watanuki scratched the back of his head. "It's not like that, Yuuko-san. I was just… distracted…"

"Who knew boys could feel this way about each other?" Mokona voiced loudly, snickering. The manjuu bun bounced out of the boy's reach and into Yuuko's lap. "Wata and Doumeki sitting in a tree!"

"Don't say it!" Watanuki growled furiously.

"K-I-S-S-I-N-G!!" Yuuko, Maru and Moro chanted gleefully, their arms up in the air.

Watanuki roared and flailed his limbs wildly. One could almost see the volcano bursting behind him.

"I don't see why you're angry," Yuuko said calmly, picking at her food with her fork. The boy stilled. "Don't you think Doumeki-kun is just lovely?"

At the sudden statement, Watanuki blushed. "I do, but…"

"But?"

"I wish you wouldn't tease me," he murmured, unsure if he chose the right words.

Yuuko smiled, "We know it makes you think." Watanuki was startled.

"Wata!"

"WHAT?!" he glared furiously at Mokona.

"Don't you have to go to school?"

"AH!" he yelped. He ran to get his bag and bento boxes and ran back, exiting the living room and then the front door. "You could've said so earlier!" His voice faded as he left in haste.

"I wonder how this romance will go…" Yuuko said distantly.

"We have to support them!" Mokona exclaimed.

"YEAH!" Maru, Moro and Yuuko punched their fists in the air.

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"Oi, Watanuki." Suddenly, all the filthy spirits disappeared. Watanuki turned around to face the taller teenager. Ah, my knight in shining armor, he thought as the spirits' weight was lifted from his shoulders. Wait. What am I thinking?! He shook his head.

As Doumeki came over, he suddenly felt so small. The stoic man gazed down at him. "G-good morning," the bespectacled boy stuttered.

"Good morning," Doumeki replied. He put his hand under Watanuki's chin and lifted it. The smaller boy's cheeks were suddenly streaked with pink. The taller boy leaned over and whispered an inch from his lips, "I couldn't stop thinking about you last night…"

Watanuki pressed his hands against the stoic teenager's chest. "S-stop," he whispered. "Someone… might see…" No. I sound so weak, Watanuki thought. His heart was banging again in his chest.

Doumeki gazed into Watanuki's sapphire eyes…

"Ah," a girl's voice squeaked. "Watanuki-kun and Doumeki-kun are such good friends!"

In a half a second, the two boys were a foot away from each other. "Ah, Himawari-cha—" As the bespectacled boy laid his eyes on Kunogi, he noticed, she lost the glamour that once gripped his heart. Strange…

"Good morning," Doumeki greeted.

"Good morning," Kunogi returned politely. She started walking toward the direction of the school. "Come on, guys." She gave a smile, which made Watanuki stare. It was so… plain now.

Doumeki walked alongside the girl with pigtails. "Ah, wait up," the bespectacled boy exclaimed, running to catch up with them. As he kept pace, he looked up at Doumeki, silently comparing him to Kunogi.

Soon, Watanuki had to look away to rub his dazzled eyes.

"Anything wrong?" the stoic man's creamy voice whispered, unheard by Kunogi.

Doki

Watanuki blushed. What's with his heart thumping like that? "It's n-nothing." Doumeki looked away, but the smaller boy was startled when he felt a coarse hand hold his own. He smiled softly and entwined his fingers with Doumeki's.

He didn't fail to notice the light blush on Doumeki's cheeks as he stared straight ahead.

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Lunchtime.

"Don't you think he looks cute, Doumeki-kun?" Kunogi's voice floated over to the bespectacled teenager as he walked over to them. The girl was giggling, showing a picture to Doumeki. Unusually, the man was looking away, his face cross.

"Himawari-chan?" he called out.

"Ah! Watanuki-kun! Lookie! Yuuko-san gave it to me!" She gestured for him to sit beside her. She handed him the photo and—

"WHAT THE HELL?!" Watanuki's voice screeched. "I-I-I thought I took that camera away from that freak of nature!! W-w-w-why?!" His shaky hands held the photo of him in that maid outfit Yuuko got him to wear. His fury soon resulted in the picture being torn.

"GRAAAAAHHH!!" he roared again.

Wordlessly, Doumeki stood up and left them. This made the furious boy stop. "Doumeki…? Hey, wait." Watanuki stood and followed quickly leaving Kunogi alone.

The blue-eyed teenager found the archer standing by the window at the end of an empty corridor. He put his hand gently on Doumeki's elbow. "What's wrong?"

The archer turned and the smaller teenager found him glaring. "Kimihiro, you love me, right?" he asked with a growl.

Watanuki gasped involuntarily. He searched desperately at the archer's amber eyes for a reason behind his question. "Of course! What do you m—"

"Only me?" he barked.

Watanuki took Doumeki's hand and held it with both of his. "Of course…" he whispered.

"Prove it," the archer growled.

In a heartbeat, Watanuki had his hands on Doumeki's face and their lips were pressed together.

Tears.

Tears were on Watanuki's eyelashes, like jewels adorning his already beautiful sapphire eyes. Watanuki who was desperately clinging to Doumeki…

The archer pushed Watanuki away gently, realizing the ache in his heart. What had he done? He spoke, "I'm so—"

"Watanuki-kun!" Kunogi's voice hit the two like an arrow.

Flash.

Doumeki wrestled out of the smaller boy's grasp, and ran away.

Flash.

Watanuki's arms fell limply to his sides.

Flash.

Kunogi smiled darkly, unseen by Watanuki.

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The rest of day passed slowly, time dragging Watanuki's heart through the dust.

His chest felt empty; hollow. He could hardly breathe, much less listen to class.

Kunogi had comforted him, yet he did not hear her words.

"It's no good. I can't go to Yuuko-san's today…" he murmured to himself.

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With her eyes closed, Yuuko had her hands over a circular disc set on a bowl of water. After chanting Watanuki's name a few times, the disc began to spin.

"Love. Happiness. Jealousy. Doubt. Tears. Anger. Sadness. Betrayal. The bond between two boys that grows deeper with every loving gesture… Oh, Watanuki, what happened…?" she whispered to the empty living room shrouded in smoke.

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(A.N.: Himawari-chan, what are you up to?! Ah the sadness! Well, really, what is a xxxHolic story without it? Oh, but don't get me wrong. I don't hate Himawari-chan. She really is cute, but I need her for the plot. :DD Suspense!! Wee. Leave your valuable reviews and inspire me, o readers!! :DD )