YO I´m back (:
Thank you all for reading it.
Also I´m so so sorry that I need like years but I have my finale school weeks.
Then I was in England for a month and now I am back, not happy here but whatever. I am writing this especially for Addeklover.
hannah sorry about that but it´s not really about Grey´s Anatomy it´s Addek. There is no Meredith and they are still in New York but maybe it will change soon ;)
When will they start to talk about it? Is it too early?
About 1 week later they still haven´t talked about their lost. And Addison was about to go back to work, even if she wasn´t allowed to go. They wound wasn´t healed yet and they last few days were every time the same. She would sleep the whole day and wouldn´t eat.
"Addie, what are you doing?"
No answer.
"Addison?" He screamed.
"What do you want?" She asked annoyed.
As she started to get dressed, Derek just looked at her. What should he do? She wore a beautiful black dress and Prada heels. After that she started to put on some make-up and curled her red hair.
No she didn´t even look at Derek and didn´t care.
"Addison are you seriously going back to work?"
"It´s not your business Derek" she said with anger in her voice.
He grabbed her arm and his grip was tight. Very tight.
"Derek you hurt me, stop touching me!" She said with tears in her eyes.
"So it´s not my business. NOT MY DAMN BUISNESS?" he laughed and still grabbed her tight.
"You know what Addison I lost a baby too, not only you. It was also my baby! Don´t you dare and say it isn´t my damn business!" He yelled and let her go.
Of course he was sorry but she has to understand that it was painful for him too and that he doesn´t even know how to react. He didn´t even cry yet because he has to be strong for her.
Addison grabbed her stuff as fast as she could and rubbed her arm. She made her way out to her car. What the hell is wrong with me?
She started the car and drove to Mount Sinai Hospital.
Derek on the other side tried to called the chief, but he was too busy and had his own surgeries but he promised to look after Addie as good as he could.
What is she thinking? The wound isn´t healed, what if she breaks down or anything else happens?
Of course he was mad, maybe mad was an understatement but he was worried. And did he may hurt her because he grabbed her too tight?
Not only Addison´s head was a mess, also Derek´s.
Addison performed surgery after surgery. The chief didn´t see her yet and so she just did what she could do the best. She didn´t care about anything or anybody. It was her, the patient and her team. While she performed and easy c-section she felt a bit dizzy so she asked the team to finish up.
She was searching for an empty on- call room and after a few she finally found one and lay down, starring at the ceiling.
But she couldn´t sleep.
Derek was on his way to the hospital, he needed to find her. They needed to talk.
He needed to see if she´s okay.
He was in every on-call room and opened the door of the last one and there she was. Lying in the bed, looking a bit lifeless and pale.
"Hey" he said with a calm and soft voice. Yeah he looked tired. It felt like he hadn´t slept for ages.
She turned her head and whispered "Hey"
He didn´t really know what to say so he lay next to her and she made some space for him and Addie was the first who started to speak.
"You really scared and hurt me Derek"
He wasn´t surprised "I am so so sorry okay? Let me see your arm."
He took her scrubs off. She was too tired before and still wore the dirty and bloody scrubs from surgery.
What did I do? Was my grip really that tight? He was shocked and her arm was bruised. His father once said to him when he was younger : "never hurt a woman" and he did, he hurt Addie.
"Derek? It´s okay. I know that you lost a baby too and know you did but it is so hard for me and I don´t know what to do with my feelings. I feel..I feel so numb."
It broke his heart and he hugged her. You could hear here sobs and he didn´t know what to say or what else to do but he knew that it wasn´t okay what he did.
After half an hour she was asleep and he carried her to his car and he drove her home.
The drive wasn´t long and she didn´t wake up, too much happened she was too exhausted. So he carried her into their living room and put her clothes off so that she just wore her bra and her panties. He took a huge blanket to cover her with it. But she wasn´t that asleep anymore and opened her eyes.
"Der, could you get me some water please?" she asked with a soft voice.
"Of course " he said and got her a glass of water.
She took a sip and handed him the water back to him. The two of them just looked at each other, they didn´t know what to say.
Will their marriage fall apart?
I am sorry for the short chapter and it sucks, I know.