Thanks to everyone that reviewed, especially meva desa, for making me feel like this is worth trying to continue. I am still having a hard time, so I am sorry if it isn't very good.
If it is even possible, Cameron has been spending even more time working with House. I heard that her and Chase ended it, but I haven't heard it directly from her. I feel bad for wishing that its true. I don't think its appropriate for me to wish something like this on a colleague. Nonetheless, I find myself thinking about possible ways to approach Cameron about my feelings for her. She has been acting different lately, and differently in a way that makes me feel like she may be interested to. I've also been going out of my way lately to talk her about more than just work topics. I told her about my mom and the rest of my childhood. I'm not sure if she does it because she is genuinely interested or just being polite. I dearly hope it is the former because I have never met anyone easier to talk to, and I don't want to lose that. I have also been spending most of my free time at work in the ER. Thankfully, she doesn't seem to mind. Either she doesn't mind, or she is really good at faking a smile. On the topic of her smile, it is the sweetest most adorable smile I have seen. Its not the full teeth kilowatt smile, its more of a small, shy smile, and I think it is absolutely perfect.
I am also beginning to suspect that she doesn't have feelings for House. When she is around him, she seems to pay him little to no attention, which couldn't make me any happier. I also catch her staring at me, but she looks away so quickly when I turn I'm not sure it really happened. One thing I am sure of though is that there is a definite physical connection that we have established, although I don't think it was a conscious decision on either of our parts. When we walk next to each other in the halls, I am aware of every little brush and touch. I know she is aware of them too because when our hands touched , her breath caught and she faltered in her sentence. I pretended like it hadn't happened for her sake, but I'm beginning to wish I hadn't. It seems now that that would have been the perfect opportunity to confront her about what had been going on with us lately.
I think I should confront her soon though. I feel like if I wait too long, I will lose whatever slim chance I seem to have and she will go back to Chase. If Chase is what makes her happy I would never contest, but I still want my shot. So I think tomorrow I need to find a way to talk to her. Yes, thats what I'll do. I need to at least try to rid myself of this misery.