Shirosaki sat on his bed waiting, waiting for now emotion. Suddenly everything went numb. All of Shirosaki's anger, as well as happiness disintegrated. Shirosaki looked around the room then everything went black.
When Shirosaki woke it was about three o'clock in the morning and the last thing he remembered was running home after being kissed. After a few minutes everything else came back to him. But now Shirosaki felt like crap. He felt like puking. He remembered then the only other time he felt like this, the morning after drinking half a gallon of vodka at his friend, Grimmjow's house.
Shirosaki walked to the bathroom next to his room. He crouched in front of the toilet and puked. He only had to puke once but even that left the muscles sore and tender. Shirosaki Stumbled back into his room and crumpled on his bed. Everything went dark again.
Sharp as needles, hard as stone, cold as ice
Shirosaki woke up the next morning. It was about an hour till school started so he wasn't in a hurry. Shirosaki walks into the bathroom and undresses. Shirosaki turned on the water for the shower. He turned it to cold of course. Then he got in. The cold water made goose bumps pop up on his skin. To him it felt good.
Sharp as needles, hard as stone, cold as ice
After he got dressed he left home and headed for school. He had taken the bi-polar medication with him. As he walked he dropped the bottle in the gutter. He was not going to get sick like that ever again.
At school Shirosaki Sat in the back of the room. He expected to be left alone since his friends are supposed to be out of town right now. He was lucky that Ichigo sat in the front of the room next to some of the more popular kids.
That day they had a substitute teacher. The substitute's voice droned and for all the classes he taught Shirosaki slept in the back of the room. During lunch Shirosaki hid himself from the rest of the world by hiding in a tree. He was not going to have an incident with Ichigo at school.
Sharp as needles, hard as stone, cold as ice
Then after school he walked home he didn't see any sign of Ichigo. Shirosaki expected Ichigo to pull one of his random molests. Shirosaki almost wanted Ichigo to appear again and kiss him. The second that thought passed through his mind he slapped himself and forced himself to forget it.
Sharp as needles, hard as stone, cold as ice
Sharp as needles, hard as stone, cold as ice
When Shirosaki got home Zangetsu was yet again gone. The old man's constant disappearances started to unnerve him. Shirosaki saw another bag of meds on the table. This time he took the bottles and sat down on the couch and read the bottles. The Bi polar meds were legit but when he read the bottles of the other two he realized something. The pills were placeboes of fake pills. They were trying to see if when he thought he was being helped by the meds if he acted better.
Shirosaki threw the bag of pills away and laughed to himself, like that would ever work. Then a hand touched Shirosaki's chin and forced his head up so Shirosaki was looking strait up. Right up at Ichigo. This terrified Shirosaki at first.
Then Shirosaki said "Wha-"
Only to be cut off by an upside down kiss from Ichigo. Ichigo then let him go and climbed over the couch so that he sat next to Shirosaki. Ichigo smiled at him.
"Your guardian Zangetsu says I can enter the house, I'm here to help you get over your depression." Ichigo said, smile turning into a mischievous smirk.
All Shirosaki could think was
Sharp as needles, hard as stone, cold as ice,
Sharp as needles, hard as stone, cold as ice
Then Ichigo leaned forward and pressed his lips against Shirosaki's lips. Ichigo's tongue came out and traced along Shirosaki's bottom lip demanding entrance. As soon as Shirosaki allowed entrance the kiss became heated and Ichigo pushed Shirosaki over, mind you they are still kissing, getting on top of Shirosaki. Ichigo pressed himself against Shirosaki and embraced him.
Shirosaki Had never felt like this before and he couldn't even bring his control words to mind. Instead Shirosaki wrapped his arms around Ichigo returning the embrace. Shirosaki was truly happy and he couldn't force himself to despise the feelings this time. Shirosaki then pressed his lips to Ichigo's.
But then Ichigo's watch beeped and Ichigo had to go. Shirosaki was kind of bummed out. But Ichigo kissed him and smiled. Shirosaki knew he'd come back.
After Ichigo left Shirosaki grew cold again. Shirosaki went to his room and insulted himself over and over again for allowing Ichigo to do that. He also hated himself for allowing happiness to overwhelm him. Shirosaki took a knife from under his mattress. He cut open the top of his index finger on his right hand and opened his closet door. Then he wrote over and over on the wall in the back of the closet:
Sharp as needles, hard as stone, cold as ice, Sharp as needles, hard as stone, cold as ice, Sharp as needles, hard as stone, cold as ice, Sharp as needles, hard as stone, cold as ice, Sharp as needles, hard as stone, cold as ice, Sharp as needles, hard as stone, cold as ice, Sharp as needles, hard as stone, cold as ice, Sharp as needles, hard as stone, cold as ice.
Shirosaki wrote these words as if he would die if he didn't. then Zangetsu came home. It was as if he knew something was wrong for he went strait to Shirosaki's room finding him sitting on the floor of his closet writing the words on the wall. The wall was mostly covered when he arrived.
Zangetsu grabbed Shirosaki and pulled him away from the wall. He noticed Shirosaki was in a trance like state and was forced to strike the teenager.