DGray-Man: Recreant
"He was just unfortunate enough to feel an eternity of luck defying moments. But the bonds sharing saddened lives is the greatest form of solution to loneliness. That is why he became a recreant to love."
Chapter 4:
I Thank You for "Loving" Me
"Have you heard?"
"What is it?"
"Remember those two exorcists that always argue?"
"Ah... yeah! The one with long black hair and the other... with white hair?"
"Yeah, those. Have you seen the, recently?"
"Nope, why?"
"Dude, you're missing out. Once you see them, you'll break your jaw!"
A certain couple of exorcists finally made their way to fame just by casually hanging out. The constant murmurs and rumors running around was the product of the two finally becoming friends. Well for some a liiiitle too friendly.
"Kanda, have you eaten?" Looking at him with concern, his eyes shinning with concern.
"I haven't. Have you?" In a gentle tone he said. Allen shook his head so Kanda lead the way to the cafeteria.
As they entered the cafeteria, Allen quickly saw some familiar faces. They looked quite shocked seeing Kanda and Allen actually casually talking and Allen smiling while talking to him. And it wasn't the irritated smile as well. When he made eye contact with his friends, Allen gave a warm smile which made the lot blush.
They went to Jerry who seemed surprised himself. "A-ah.. Allen?" Other than being with Kanda and the new hair cut, Allen hasn't been going to the cafeteria recently which worried him. But now, seeing him with Kanda looking happy he was relieved even the slightest was enough. The usual long, wide-ranged order came soon. After that Kanda ordered his usual as well, the classic one Japanese noodle dish for him.
On their way to the table where his friends were all waiting in anticipation, they all beamed in happiness seeing that bunch of food back along with Allen's sweet and gentle face. Kanda looked relaxed and less grumpy than before which also made them feel a little unsettled but the reunion with the old Allen made them a whole lot less stressed.
Allen was whispering something to Kanda that made Kanda chuckle even the slightest sound of laughter. The others, gaped. "C-C-C-C-C-C-C-C-C-C-C-CUTE!" The atmosphere around the two just amazed them.
"Please tell me this is reality."
"It is."
"Just what happened?"
"I don't understand myself."
"Oh look it's Alma."
Kanda looked towards Alma who arrived late from oversleeping, he rubbed his eyes trying to clear his eye sight. "Allen..." Not sure if it was him, "ALLEN!" he ran straight towards Allen. He couldn't believe it. Allen was back to normal, that warm atmosphere around him, his humble tone, along with his new hair cut making him look so desirable and sexy, showing a lot more skin... his nape revealed... WAIT WHAT.
'What was I thinking..?!'
"Hey, Alma. Overslept?"
"A-ah... yup.."
"This is rare, why are you late?"
"Y-y-yuu was supposed to wake me up..but.."
"I'm sorry, about that, I borrowed him a bit yesterday."
"Ah.. it's alright."
"..."
"..."
"WAIT WHAT HAPPENED LAST NIGHT?!"
"Huh?"
"Y-you guys.. did you leave me out of something?"
"...I'm sorry."
Alma tearing up from being left behind, but the sad smile Allen gave while apologizing made it an auto forgive.
"It's okay for me. But! If Yuu does something to Allen, I'll be the one to punish him!"
"Ahahaha thank you, Alma."
The aura suddenly changed from the mature atmosphere Kanda and Allen had to a cute and fluffy one Alma and Allen had.
"Is it really alright we're just watching all of this?"
"Uhhh... yeah should be fine."
"I guess they forgot I'm in the group... too?"
"Hey Marie, can I sit on you?" Allen asked with a straight face on, but the tone was happy. He took advantage of Marie being blind. However the strange atmosphere Marie could feel made him doubt it was even Allen. "Ah..uhm.. okay?" Allen went ahead and sat on Marie with his legs spread.
It was training day and Kanda and General Klaud were battling, it was a tag team. So Alma and General Tiedoll were waiting in the sidelines. "I remembered the time you said me and Kanda were similar." Saying that out of nowhere, "I remember saying that but what about it?" Allen wondered himself. "I dunno." Marie laughed at Allen's informality.
"Hahaha that's good. Is it true that you and Kanda are in 'good terms' now?"
"...We understood something about each other and we eventually turned like this."
"Oh? What is this mutual understanding?"
"..."
"I was right. Both of you have gone through so much sufferings."
"Maybe it was that."
Feeling a bit sad from the unhappy memories he suddenly remembered. Marie could feel Allen's posture change to a slump, assuming it was because he felt sad. Marie hugged Allen from the back and rested his head on his shoulder. "Thank you. I love you Marie." And held onto his rested head gently.
"H-hey those two are..." General Tiedoll, distracted from loving two over there, feeling jealous.
"Kandaaaaa~!"
"No."
'Allen.. he was lying about the whole thing.'
"I.. want to go back." Allen said as night was approaching, Kanda nodded. "Well then, good night." Saying bye to Alma and the others, Alma looking all jolly and naive. He has no idea whatsoever.
Allen entered his room when Kanda invited himself in yet again. Sitting on his bed he stopped and stared into nothingness. Kanda noticed this and it bugged him. Going nearer to Allen he held his face in his palms. "What's wrong?" Sincerely concerned. "Nothing." He tried to put on a smile.
"If you don't feel like smiling then don't."
Allen dropped the smile he just had and frowned. Kanda closed his eyes in relief, he thought having Allen be honest is the best thing right now.
"Why are you doing this for me?"
"Because you asked me to."
"Really?"
"Yeah."
Allen gave one last beam of happiness to Kanda, "Okay, the see you tomorrow!". Waiting for Kanda to leave the room the large cheerful smile was gone.
'Is it really just because of that... Kanda?'
"Shush! Kanda don't act so coldly to Allen!"
"What? Why should I act differently?"
"Allen... he went through so much! What he needs right now is a friend he could trust."
"And why is that 'friend' absolutely has to be me?"
"You two, even though you almost fight everytime... whatever you're doing is making Allen show a different side to him."
"And so?"
"If you two become friends... things might go better!"
"..."
"Kanda, I'm just asking you to be friendlier to him, accompany him, gain his trust so tomorrow morning visit him in his room."
"Why should I?"
"Kandaaaaa, if it's for me would you do it, please?"
"...For you."
Allen happened to hear this confidential talk they had before meeting Kanda the day after. His heart sank at the thought of Kanda doing all this just because Alma asked him to.
'Why did I do that?' Kanda was confused. 'Alma just asked me to send him back to his room...' Kanda wondered himself why was he doing unnecessary stuff in front of Allen. 'I need to keep my act straight.'
"Oh! Hey Yuu~" Kanda entered their room looking stressed from thinking about what he was doing with Allen just a while ago. "What's wrong?" He tiredly sat on the sofa and rested his head before answering to Alma. "It's nothing." Thinking it was really just nothing Alma ignored it whatsoever.
"So? How did it go?"
"Hmm?"
"You sent Allen to his room, right?"
"Yeah, he's there."
"No! Was he happy?"
"Why are you so obsessed about the beansprout anyway?!"
"... I don't know but.. it's not just because I pity him."
"Then what?!"
"Maybe because I see a lot of us in him."
Kanda thinking of what Alma said, 'That's right it's just because of that. Nothing else. Beansprout is just like us, that's the only reason.'
The morning came and so Kanda made his to Allen room. He knocked and Allen opened the foor for him. He noticed Allen's eyes were red and that they were swollen. 'What could he be sad about now?' He thought. 'I don't want to go through another comforting session. Alma only told me to fetch him.' Forcing himself to think that way he ignored the beansprouts pitiful face. Not that Allen expected anything either. Walking through halls with him, it was the same couple like date that the others have been seeing. But in reality nothing was really happening, more like someone was stopping himself from doing anything.
"Hey Marie." Allen smiled while Marie gave him shallow bow as a greeting. "What is our mission this time?" Being asked to meet at one of the gates.
"We-rather you are tasked to make another gate in the South America branch. We have to accompany you, right?"
"Oh right, is General Klaud and Socalo going with us?"
"No, since it's still the order.
"Ah alright then, shall we go then?"
"Let's go."
They arrived at the South America branch with a few people greeting them. He they went to the new extension of the branch and so Allen began operation.
"Over here?" Asking one of the division member. He gave Allen a go and so he started.
Allen spread his arms wide open, singing the tune in his head. Then a large platform of white gradually appeared oift no where. Finishing the song in his head he determined the place of origin and the destination desired, a number appeared and it was done.
"I'm done!" Again his signature smile. Alma gladly approached Allen and shook his hand as a sign of admiration. "That was so cool, Allen!" The first time he saw Allen make a gate.
"Well then, since our job is done, we should-" An eerie but painful sensation came onto Allen's cursed eye. He quickly grabbed it and grunted jn agony. Gaining the attention of the people around him, his eye was activated. Seeing this, the people frantically shouted "Akuma!" Everyone ran, knowing the activation of his eye meant an Akuma's presence.
"Beansprout! Where is it coming from?" Already doing his duty as an exorcist, Allen pointed the floor. "O-over.. here.." Holding onto his eye in pain he screamed, but his scream was cut off when he coughed out blood. "Its.. aura is so strong..." Now his blood-stained mouth. "It's causing me internal damage.." Slowly checking his stomach area which was now a color of purple. Alma got frightened and quickly pulled Allen beside to safety.
"AAAAAHHHHH!" Allen suddenly screamed so loud Marie panicked and tried to cover his ears, "...Allen?!" Worried, Marie ran towards Allen.
"Aw? Concerned for little unawakened Master Noah?" It was that same demon. "Y-you!" Kamda girtted his teeth in annoyance. He always hated these sadist monsters. "Well, I feel bad for making him suffer so much..." Playing with his long hair, "I'll do something about it." Just then Allen disappeared from Alma's grasp. When they looked at the demon they looked at the monstrous being, Allen was dangling from the grasp of the demon holding onto his head. "It hurts, doesn't it?" Caressing Allen's face, Allen trembled with the touch.
"Let me fix that."
With just one movement of his arm, he coughed out Allen's eye while he laughed enjoying this moment. Allen screamed at the top of his lungs, as the other unfortunate audience saw this gore show almost puke. From a high place he dropped the unconscious Allen however Kanda was able to gain enough strength to run and catch him.
"Well then, that was fun."
"YOU FUCKER!"
"Oh~ Don't get angry now."
"Shut up!"
"Oh, it seems it's nighttime already? I must not miss dinner!"
"How dare you..."
"Dare me you say. Alright, remember this if you ever want to play with me, Mr. Samurai. I am level 7, lucky aren't I?"
The man disappeared from within.
"J-just what is this...? Allen was harmed again but this time in the order?!"
"It seems it named itself Level 7."
"This just calls it for us exorcists, Allen Walker is going to die if we don't do anything."
"We cannot afford to lose anymore exorcists at this rate."
"It's your call Head Chief Komui."
"...I've decided."
"Allen Walker is to have a temporary silence in duty as an exorcist. He will be in a protective state to enable the assurance of the preservation of his innocence and the Noah memory he possesses. Only the ranks of exorcists and higher have access to his whereabouts. That is my decision."
'Allen, I promised this myself ever since joining the Order. If this may be the only way to protect you, then I will make it so.'
Author's Notes:
Ugh, sorry my little brain is having another of what you call, writer's block. I can't seem to get out the plot of another story out of my head! My head's picky and only wants to think of things one at a time! ):
So my brain's escape route is to make Allen almost die again, I am sorry. Especially sorry to Allen. Well his cursed eye regenerates so it's A-O-K.
So what do you think? Kanda's denying this unfamiliar feeling he does not understand! Hahahaha poor him, he's an amateur to love! I kinda feel bad for making Allen feel like no one loves him. But that's what this makes it dramatic! Tell me if you like this and also critics are very welcomed as long as it can make this story better! :)
Also please check my other story, Fallen, which is also -Man but my take on a continuation.
Haine's Talk Corner~!
OneDayPineapple: Don't hate my bby ;A; I love Cross so I wanted him to have a good death protecting those kids ; 3;
Kurie-tibiti: Awwwww.. Well it reached your heart! Please look forward to the next chapter X)
Firediva0: YES THANK YOU! I love Cross ; u ; I'm happy that this has changed your view of papa-chan (Cross)!
Akkira Nala: Well I thought making him fall in love with Allen so suddenly would be too cliche. So I made Allen feel like Kanda is only doing this for Alma. Which what is Kanda FORCING himself to think but in reality he loves this cutiepatootie. I only noticed when I reread the other chapters that Allen has been going though so much mood swings! So I made him stable for this moment. :)
Parvana: I luvs you bby. Enjoy them to the fullest /heartheart. I'm still having writer's block for Fallen so I won't update for a little while! ))):