Hey guys! So here is another chapter! I hope you like it. But there is something that you have to know. In the first story(arranged) Niki's mother died while giving birth to her. Well, I made a mistake. It was supposed to be that Niki's mother was supposed to die when she was around 10. So in this chapter, it will talk about something that her mother did when she was younger. So remember, Niki's mother wasn't suppose to die while giving birth, she was supposed to die when Niki was 10. Anyway so I would like to thank: Consmuzzled and Megan for reviewing. I hope that you guys like this chapter, and I hope that you guys will keep reviewing.
If I can't have you chapter 4: Wasted
I was tired of crying. I hated crying. I just felt so pathetic when I cried. I knew that crying was healthy for you, but crying as much as I did, couldn't be healthy. I asked Gavin if he could watch CassieBella for a few days. I just needed some time to be alone. He agreed, he loves CassieBella. CassieBella loves her 'uncle' Gavin. Plus she can hang out with Shane and Jason.
I needed to think about everything that has happened between me and Nate. I didn't want to cry over him anymore. I wanted to love him. But I didn't want my daughter to have to be living out of a bus. I know that Connect Three takes breaks, but I didn't want that for her. I wanted to make CassieBella's life as god as it could be. And it didn't involve a bus and waking up in a different city each day.
I sighed and picked up my pillow and threw it against the wall. Connect Three was going to be here for a week. Staying in a hotel, going shopping. Taking a break. I sighed and turned over, so that my stomach was on the bed. I needed to get out. I needed to be social.
I got off of the bed and got dressed. I brushed my teeth and pulled my hair into a ponytail. I grabbed a jacket zipped it up and slipped on some shoes. I grabbed my house key, my car keys and headed out. I hopped in my car and turned on the radio. I put on my seatbelt, and started singing to the radio, and riving down the street.
Standing
at the back door
She tried to make it fast
One tear hit the
hard wood
It fell like broken glass
She said sometimes love
slips away
And you just can't get it back
Let's face it
I
realized that this song was almost exactly what happened between me
and Nate. I took a deep breath and kept singing.
I
don't wanna' spend my life jaded Another
glass of whisky but it still don't kill the pain Cause' I don't
wanna' spend my life jaded Oh I
don't wanna' keep on wishing, missing She
kept drivin' along Hey, yeah, Oh I don't wanna'
keep on wishing, missing Oh, I
don't wanna' spend my life jaded Yeah,
yeah
For
one split second
She almost turned around
But that would be
like pouring rain drops
Back into a cloud
So she took another
step and said
I see the way out and I'm gonna' take it
Waiting to wake up one day and
find
That I've let all these years go by
Wasted
So he stumbles to
the sink and pours it down the drain
He says it's time to be a man
and stop living for yesterday
Gotta face it.
Waiting to wake up one day and
find
That I've let all these years go by
Wasted
The still of the morning,
the color of the night
I ain't spending no more time
Wasted
Till the moon and the sun were floating
side-by-side
He looked in the mirror and his eyes were clear
For
the first time in a while
Oh, I don't wanna'
spend my life jaded
Waiting to wake up one day and find
That
I've let all these years go by
Wasted
The still of the morning, the color of
the night
I ain't spending no more time
Wasted
Waiting to wake up one day and
find
That I've let all these years go by
Wasted
Oh I don't wanna' keep on wishing, missing
The still of
the morning, the color of the night
I ain't spending no more
time
Wasted
I smiled and blinked away some tears, and just kept driving. I didn't know where I was going, but that felt good. Going nowhere. I felt myself smile and I blinked back some more tears. But these were happy tears. I knew what was important in my life. My friends, my daughter, and even though they hated me, my sisters. I didn't want them to hate me, but they did. I looked at the clock, and decided that I should turn around and go back to my house. I looked around and noticed that I was on the outskirts of the city. I pulled into a parking lot, and was about to turn around and go back, when I noticed a store. I parked and got out of the car. I walked into the store and smiled.
The store was full, of instruments. There were guitars, drums, pianos, and bass guitars. I walked over to the acoustic guitars and picked one up. It was a light brown and had light red, trim around it. It was polished, and had some music notes on the side. I loved it. I looked for a price tag and found it. I smiled when I found out that the price was only $95. I picked it up, and was about to walk away, when I saw another littler guitar. It was almost the exact same, except that it was for a child. I picked it up, looked at the price and went to buy it. I walked up to the till, and an old guy came up to the till. He smiled and then looked down and looked up again.
"Nicole Harrison." I nodded and the old guy smiled widely.
"How do you know me?" the old guy smiled and I was starting to get a little creeped out.
"Your mom, used to own this shop. This used to be hers. She was the owner. She brought you in here when you were younger and she would let you play every single instrument. Your sisters didn't really like playing the instruments." I smiled and the old guy smiled and rang up the total.
"You know, that guitar that you have right now, that's your mom's guitar. I put a price tag on it, but never sold it. I didn't want to sell it. It was your mom's so I thought that you should have it. I just didn't know if you would ever come in here." I nodded and smiled.
"oh yeah by the way, I'm Jack." I smiled and shook his hand. He smiled and rang up the total. I looked at the price and then looked at him oddly.
"I'm not going to charge you for your mother's guitar. It is rightfully yours." I smiled and said thank you and was about to leave, when Jack stopped me.
"Wait! Niki! Your mother, had put in her will, that if anything were to happen, that you were to get the store. The store would under your ownership. If you want it that is." I nodded and walked back over to the counter.
"Who owns it now?" Jack smiled and pointed to himself.
"I am owning it right now. But as soon as you want to take control of the shop, then I'll step down." I smiled and thought for a bit.
"How about you be co-owner?" Jack smiled and said that that was perfectly alright.
"So you're going t take control of the shop?" I looked at him and shrugged lightly.
"I will definitely consider it." Jack smiled and I said thank you and that I would be back tomorrow, maybe.
I got into the car, and couldn't stop smiling. I couldn't believe that my mom owned a shop! I mean I guess that my dad helped in it, but my mom was the owner. I sighed and turned up the radio.
I finally got home after a couple minutes, and got the guitars and took them inside. I set them down on the couch, and called CassieBella. Her and Gavin came bounding down the stairs. Both were smiling. I kissed CassieBella's forehead.
"Guess what sweetie?" She smiled up at me and asked what.
"I have a surprise for you!" CassieBella smiled and started jumping up and down. I pulled out the guitar, and saw her eyes light up. She gently held it, and touched the strings.
"Mommy! I love it! I can't wait to learn how to play!" I smiled brightly and watched as she ran off.