Chapter Four.
Esme Cullen like everyone else had watched and felt the change in Jasper as he walked across the room . On the one hand she wanted to help her daughter and on the other , she too wanted to know what the hell had happened to her family , as her eyes flickered over Alice she considered , and not for the first time tonight , just how completely broken down Alice had become . When Alice just continued to sob and rock , ignoring Jaspers "Alice . Talk. " command she decided fixing this was well beyond her capabilities , rose sadly , and walked into her husbands arms.
Carlisle welcomed her and pulled her to his chest , but he a spared concerned glance around the room as a near recovered Edward slipped into the room and leant against the far wall .It did not escape his notice that Peter took up a position that put him between his son and Bella.
None of the vampires in the room had known exactly what to expect from this confrontation but when Jasper crouched down , removed Alice's hands from her head , held them gently in his own and spoke softly , they were relieved .
A heavy weight had settled in Jaspers chest as he had taken Alice's hands in his . Jasper knew he was not going to like what he was about to hear and so he had decided to make use of an old army adage and get over rough ground as lightly as possible , and just throw everything he knew out there .
" Alice lets make this easy , i don't want to hurt you so i'l talk , and when i'm finished you can fill in the blanks. Jasper paused , he took a moment to put together what he was going to say in his head . He knew certain people would be shocked and he prepared to control everyone's emotions , if he had to take people down again , he would . When Jasper spoke his voice was deep and sombre , it caught the attention of everyone in the room instantly , no one missed a word .
"When we met all that time ago in that diner , you told me a story , i remember every word , some of it was truth and some of it was lie , but i came with you anyway , it was my choice Alice , if all this guilt and crazyness and fear and hate your feeling right now is about that ,then stop , cos i know . I've always known .You told me we were mates , we would fall in love and be happy together and that when we found Carlisle we would have a family and not have to kill anymore , you said you forgot your past and when you woke you were alone but you had your visions of me to guide you . I call the bullshit Ali , we'r not mates , and you do remember your past , and you know what ? I never cared about any of that because you loved me Alice , i felt it and i loved you back . So what the fuck has changed Alice ? you hate me now , you fear me , every god damn word out of your mouth for months has been a fucking lie , so you better start talking right now Ali cos I am telling you . The games over."
Alice had struggled in Jaspers grip as he spoke, she wanted to get away , she knew what was going to be said and she knew how it was going to end , she had accepted it already , when Jaspers grip just tightened and his powerful thighs moved to cover hers she knew there would be no escape.
Alice knew she was insane , she always had been , there was a reason she had been in an asylum after all . Jasper had kept Alice happy and calm and focused for so long she had forgotten what it felt like to be crazy Until the day Isabella fucking Swan took a seat next to Edward in a Biology class . While Edward had run away to Alaska , Alice had nowhere to run and she had been left to spend day after day coping with the shitstorm of visions that would drive a sane woman mad. Every plan she had made failed , every time she tried to change the future , she failed , this future was set in stone and Alice did not want to sit around and watch it happen .
Alice loved Jasper more than her own life . Alice needed Jasper to survive in a way he had never needed her and if she couldn't have him she wasn't going to live anymore. Alice Cullen was a scorned woman on a suicide mission and hell had no fury like hers in that moment .
Jasper had watched Alice carefully as he felt her pain and fury build he thought he was ready for anything , but when her enraged face snapped up and her wild eyes met his he found he was not prepared for the words she spat into his face.
" you want to know Jasper ! " she screamed " don't worry i'm going to fucking tell you . you know what you are to me . your a fucking bodyguard! . your my medication ! . You think i'm crazy and your fucking right , you don't know the half of it . My sire told me so too , it was just before i ripped him to pieces ! He told me i was crazy . Out of control he said . He wanted to leave me too . I exposed myself he said . I was too dangerous to be around he said . The volturi had sentenced me to death he said and i knew he was going to run away from me."
As Alice paused gasping and sobbing , the rest of the family watched horrified as Jasper sprang to his feet , but even as he took a step back Alice sprang up and advanced towards him shouting ..
" There's only a few vampires on this planet the volturi won't come after Jasper and you know what ? they are all here in this fucking room , why ? cos i god damn put them here! You wanna know what's changed ? YOU! that's what's changed . your gonna leave me too . you'v changed already , you don't even know why . you know what you are Jas , your a fucking idiot . That truck failed me ,Edward failed me , James failed me , You just failed me ! Everything i tried changed nothing .It 's unchangeable no matter what i do ! "
Alice stood still and motionless in the centre of the room , she looked around at her family's stunned faces , and then stared at the love of her existence . Alice attempted to pull herself together for the one last thing she had to say , and one last thing she wanted to do .
When she crouched and took the attack stance Jasper had taught her she watched as his eyes narrowed and smiled , she knew she could rely on him not to be sentimental and spoke softly in her sing song voice. " Bella Swan you fool , Bella Swan , she's your mate and i'm going to do what i should have done the first day i realised it , i'm going to kill her my god damn self.!"
When Alice lunged Peter was ready , so too was Charlotte , but no one was faster or more deadly than Jasper . It was so fast the vampires almost missed it . The estranged lovers tangled for the last time and burst through the wall into the outside beyond in a satanic symphony of growls , thunderous clashes and screams .
The vampires that remained in the room stood still and silent as they heard the sounds of what they all knew was Alice being torn to shreds . When they smelled the sweet incense like smoke , no one was surprised.
Less than a few seconds later to everyone's shock Jasper flew back through the hole in the wall and dived at Edward . Jasper was pissed and not controlling his strength .The plaster crumbled away behind them and they soared out into the night coming to rest atop a now crushed Volvo in the Cullen drive . The stunned family gathered outside to see Jasper straddling Edward , he was screaming , venom dripping from his mouth and his hands were once again at Edwards throat. In his rage and grief Jasper looked like a dark demon in the moonlight.
Edward had found himself in an unexpected predicament , he knew his life was in Jaspers hands and was terrified , his brother had him pinned in a deadly hold and was slamming his head into the remains of what once was his own car . Edward tried to read Jaspers mind to see a way to save himself but the thoughts were random and nonsensical so he screamed the words he thought might save him , " i didn't know Jasper , i didn't know. " , " Alice hid her thoughts,,you all do you know it , jasper , jasper!" he begged .
Unfortunately the words didn't work . When Jaspers thoughts turned to compromising positions of himself and Bella he tried another tack . Edward knew there would be no point in trying to lie and suddenly blurted . " i dont want Bella , Alice told me i did so i tried ! i never even touched her ! Jasper ! Bella's a virgin!" . This at least seemed to pull Jasper into momentary lucidity.
Jasper could tell from Edwards Emotions he was being honest .Edward was not part of Alices plan and was as shocked at everyone else. Edward could not have saved Alice.
Jasper was on the edge of loosing his temper , he knew he had to get away and calm the fuck down before he killed anyone else , but he didn't want Edward hanging around and making another attempt to suck Bella's blood . At this point Jasper was shocked he could even think rationally , but he managed to growl out " you need to get the hell away from here Edward . Right now . Go to Denali and stay there till i say otherwise ." As jumped back off Edward he roared out his command again " go! now ! run before i kill you. "
Jasper watched as Edward shot off to the north , and then he headed south and let himself loose . Moving as fast as he could Jasper roared and crashed off into the wilderness.
Bella swan had struggled to follow the nights events . They were spinning and crashing around her head out of control, she was stood in one of the holes in the crumbling remains of the Cullen's great room staring at a destroyed Volvo with a glass of chapagn and a slice of cake . Four things were clear to her at that point .Edward tried to drain her . Alice had been insane and plotting to kill her . Jasper had killed Alice , and Edward and Jasper had both taken off to she didn't know where . As Bella surveyed the remains of what was supposed to be her 18th birthday party but had turned into what was probably the world's worst domestic words buzzed in her head like " mate " and " virgin " . It was not long before things became too much for her and she gave up , letting a peaceful darkness take over her mind and body.
Peter had been watching Bella closely the whole night , when it finally became too much for the human he caught her in his arms easily and watched as the cake and champagn glass fell to the floor and smashed .
Peter surveyed the faces of the vampires and the carnage around him , he grinned , this had been better than he had even imagined and he wished he had bought a camera , the Cullen's faces were hysterical and he wanted to show them to Jasper later .They often joked in private about what pussies the cullens were .
Peter knew his job was to take care of Bella but he decided the major was going to need someone to talk to when he got over his tantrum and calmed the hell down , so he handed Bella off to Charlotte carefully " she just needs to sleep Charl , tuck her up in bed and see how she is in the morning."
Charlotte looked at Peter and knew he was going after Jasper , she trusted he would know what to do and say but still she was a little nervous . Sometimes Peter said the wrong thing ,so she watched as he ran off , and when he turned and blew her a kiss , she shouted " be careful. " .
Following Jaspers trail was not a difficult job . Peter knew getting close until Jasper was calm was not an option . For eight long hours he slowly yet surely followed the carnage and carcasses across the Olympic Peninsula . When Peter found the tattered remains of Jaspers jeans and smelled the hot springs Peter knew exactly where he would find him.
The first time Peter and Charlotte had visited Jasper in Forks they had taken off for a few days and explored . When Pete and Charl visited Jasper they always spent time with each other in the wilderness , they all liked it that way . The hot springs had been a discovery that delighted them and they had all spent a great day skinny dipping and laughing . It had been a happy time .
Jasper lay still and relaxed in the water , he was outwardly calm but his mind was in turmoil . When Jasper heard and felt Peter arrive he ignored him , slipping further into the warm waters , quietly soaking in the steaming heat .As Peter stripped off and jumped in to the water Jasper wondered what the fuck Peter could possibly say to make this situation any better.
Peter settled himself on a rock opposite Jasper contemplating exactly that , he had a few things to say but he didn't want to jump right in. After some time had passed Peter began , " Don't feel bad about Alice." he stated.
Jasper eyed him and replied quite seriously " i don't ."
Peter just nodded , "good , you should be glad you know , you found your mate! A mates a rare thing for a vampire thing to find and that shit doesn't happen every day."
When Jasper eyed him incredulously Peter just continued " i like her , she's kind of hot , for a human! .Did you hear she's a virgin too? you really are a lucky bastard if you think about it .she is going to make one hell of a vampire .". At the look on Jaspers face at this Peter couldn't help but chuckle.
Jasper just groaned and rubbed his face , " what the fuck am i going to do Pete , i don't even know if Alice's bullshit was true or not , i don't want a mate , a mate would just be a liability , i just had to kill my insane wife for fucks sake . Bella doesn't even know me, and yesterday she was with my brother!"
Peter just huffed , " you got a plan yet? You always got a plan major."
Jasper just shrugged "Nope. Not this time ."
Peter sighed , " well you better get one made and stop being such a fucking drama queen then eh ?"
By the time Jasper dived across the water and landed his first punch they were both laughing.