4. My Love, My life

I was in the forest again. It wasn't a nightmare though. He left and i folloed again, but this time he came back. He was smiling his crooked smile. I flung my arms around him. I even feltthe coldness of his lips as they met mine.

Something was wrong though, it felt way to real.

I tryed opening my eyes, but I was just to tired. I pulled myself together, and gazed above me in confusion, relief, and pure joy.

Edward. I saw Edward holding me in his arms. His cold, soft lips were pressed against mine gently. I felt tears rolling down my cheecks, and he swiftly pulled away. Edward was just to beautiful. I must still be dreaming. He lightly brushed away my tears with his lips.

"I'm dreaming." I said through my tears. "You're not real." I added quietly, hiccuping.

"You're not dreaming Bella." he said quietly. "I am so sorry that i left you. I love you, Bella, and I always will." he said with conviction.

"Now I can tell I'm dreaming. Unless Victoria already got to me." i said, glancing down.

He growled at her name"Nobody will tough you Bella." he said.

Why are you HERE? I almost shouted.

I started pounding weakly on his chest with balled up fists.

"You said you didn't love me anymore! You said that you left to follow your distractions!"

The tears were still flowing freely down my ckeeks. He sat up, and pulled me up with him.

Edward cradled my face in his hands, and brushed his lips(the lips that I had missed so much) on mine. The kiss was passion-filled and desperate. He pulled away after a few seconds. His eyes were hunger-filled, but not because of thirst. Edward didn't want blood. He wanted me.

"Bella I left to protect you. After Jasper nearly hurt you...I just couldn't take it." Edward said.

"You said you didn't want me! You could have just told me the truth. You shouldn't have left me at all!" i cried. I pulled myself closer to my angel, and he wrapped his arms around me.

"I know Bella, I wasn't thinking. I left defenseless against Victoria." he said her name with venom.

I lifted my head and stared into his eyes. Edward leaned down and kissed my jaw. I pulled his face down until his lips were just inches away, and kised him with as much love as I could muster. I snuggled into his chest and I felt whole for the first time since he had left.

"Where is the rest of the family?" I asked.

"At the house, why?" he replied.

"Can we go see them? You aren't the only one I mIssed, ya know." I said, smiling.

"Ok lets go." he said while cuckling.

"Wait I have to get dressed." I didn't wait for him to leave the room. I quickly pulled off my shirt, and was glad I still had a bra on. I grabbed a shirt and got it over my head. I slid out of my sweats, and slid my favorite pair of jeans on. I looked at Edward and almost laughed out loud. He looked like he had earlier. Hungry. I took the hairtie off my wrist, and ut my hair into a ponytail.

He got up and just before we left the room, Edward kissed down my jaw line. My heart pounded in my chest. Edward carressed my cheek and stared into my eyes. We turned and left the room.

The drive to his house was silent. I took his hand, and gave it a hard squeeze. He looked over and smiled. It was a genuine, happy smile. We got there in a matter of minutes.

I got out of the car and ran to the house. Alice had been waiting. Everyone was inside the living room looking towards the living room door. They all smiled when I burst ithrough the door.

"Hey everyone!" I called excitedly. I was smiling widely.

Alice and Emmett both came over to hug me. Emmett got there first. He picked me up and gave me a bear-hug. I could not breathe very well.

"Ive missed you big brother!" i cried breathlessly.

He put me down and said" I've missed you too little sister." He laughes his booming laugh. I laughed with him. I had missed this.

Alice hugged me and whisperd a "I told you so." in my ear. It was so low that i could barely hear it. I didn't think Edward heard her, because he didn't look mad. Next it was Carlile's turn to hug me, and then Esme.

"Welcome home Bella." She said with sincerity.

"Thank you Esme." I replied.

Lastly, Jasper came up hesitantly. I knew he felt guilty about waht happened last time we met. I ran up and gave him the tightest hug I could manage. A smile lit up his features as he felt my love and excitement.

"I don't blame you, Jasper. I know it was instinctual." I said after I kissed his cheek. I leaned back from the embrace to smile at him.

"Thanks Bella." He was still smiling. I liked that he was happy.

I walked up to Rosalie. I know she didn't like me, but I was just too happy. I hugged her and watched as her face changed from scowling, into a look of shock.

"Oh come on Rosaile, I know you don't like me, but you still get a hug. I missed you too." I murmuerd. I pulled away and went to stand by Edward. He put his arms around my waist, and rested his chin lightly on my shoulder. I looked back, and Edward gave me a peck on the cheek. I knew everyone was watching, and I blushed, Everyone in the room laughed, which made me blush more.

"So family, what are we going to do now that Bella is back in our lives?" Asked a grinning Emmett.

"I just want everthing to go back to normal." I replied.

Edward raised one eyebrow."Normal?" he asked in a humoress tone." So hanging out with your vampire friends and boyfriend is normal?" he laughed.

"Ok maybe I could have though of a better word. " I thought out loud. Then I noticed that everyone was wearing baseball clothes.

"Are we playing baseball?" i asked, anticipation clear in my voice.

"Yes we are." Edward replied.

"There is going to be a major thunderstorm in a few minutes, over forks." Alice explained.

"Awesome." I said eagerly.

"What time Alice?" Emmett asked.

"In five minutes. We should go." She said in her bell-like voice.

We all walked out the door. I jumped on Edward's back and he started running. We got to the field in less than ten minutes. It was a regular day. Here I was, watching my favorite people play baseball.