Chapter4

Rating:M

Warning(s): yaoi,abuse

Disclaimer: I still don't own Junjou Romantica

"I think we should break up."

What? I think my heart actually stopped for a second. I stared at him unintentionally. Break up? He wants to break up with me? "W-Why? D-did I do something wrong. If I did I'm sorry..I really am." I couldn't get anymore words out because he began talking. "Its not anything you've done Misaki. Its me. I'm the one with all the flaws in this relationship."

He looked at me his face was blank. But his eyes were telling me another story. They were sad. So sad and full of emotion. Emotions that I haven't seen Usagi show in awhile. "I don't want to break up with you. Usagi I love you." All I needed was for him to say he loved me. Then everything would be fine. And maybe we could be the way we use to be. "We've had some ups and downs but its nothing we can't handle."

I tried to reassure him. I might be afraid of him. But the man I fell in love with is still in there. I gotta find him. "Misaki I understand what you're trying to do but lets face it. This isn't a healthy relationship." I was gonna argue but he beat me to it. "Look at what I've done to you Misaki."

"I know But its not that bad." Usagi gave me a sad look. He could tell I was pretending. He could see that I was slowly falling apart. He was always good at reading me. I was an open book at his disposal. And every page read deeper and deeper into who I truly was. "Misaki I love you. But we can't go on like this. We can't be in a relationship where I'm the cause of all your pain." I looked into his eyes. I could feel something was off.

"What are you not telling me Usagi? You're trying to avoid saying something. I can tell." I watched him as he looked away from me. There's something he couldn't bring himself to say. I needed to know what it was. "Misaki..I'm sorry..I truly do love you." He keeps saying that. He doesn't mean it though.

"If you love me why are you doing this? Why do you want to throw me aside?" He still wouldn't look at me. "How can you say you love me? But not tell me the truth. What are you hiding? What are you so afriad of?" I was gonna continue my rant. But there was something unsettling growing in this conversation.

"Why are you trying to make me hate you?" Usagi flinched slightly. Just enough that I saw it. I've almost figured him out. I can see through him now. "Misaki I'm sorry..I just didn't know how to tell you." I was confused. "What is it? What can't you tell me?" I don't think I could've ever been ready for what he was gonna say. But I braced myself for the worst. It couldn't be that bad though I'm sure. Its not like he would..."There's someone else Misaki."

What? He's cheating on me?

I know what you guys are gonna say. Why does she keep ending chapters like that? Well the answer is simple. Its because I want to. And because i know you guys secretly love it. ^_^ The next chapter willl be up as soon as possible. Until then bye bye now.