A/N: Okay so I am SOOOOOO sorry I haven't updated, but like I said I have to share a computer with a 17 year old boy who watches wrestling and rap videos all day. Plus I had to update my Night World Story. But to make up for missing so much I made this one longer than the other ones so Enjoy

*Disclaimer*: I do not own anything except Anya and Nicolai. Everything else is Richelle Mead.

"About why Nicolai looks just like me."

I froze. My eyes widened. Oh God tell me he doesn't know.

"A little conceited there, Dimitri?"

"Roza…"

"No, you don't get to call me Roza. It's Rose or Guardian Hathaway."

"Rose, I'm not an idiot. Nicolai looks just like me when I was 15."

"You know, it's said that everyone has a twin. Maybe my Nicolai is yours."

"Rose!"

"Dimitri just forget it! It's just a coincidence."

"And it's also coincidence that they happen to have Russian names? Or the fact that I heard Nicolai speaking Russian to Anya?"

"So? Is Russia off limits? Look, I had a hard time getting over you. Connor helped me through that. One of the things that helped was giving the kids Russian names. They learned Russian by themselves. They thought well if they have Russian names they might as well learn Russian and in order for me to understand what they were saying I had to learn Russian."

"Roz-..Ah...Rose you could never lie to me."

"Dimitri, I'm not lying. Why do you even care if Nick looks like you?"

"I don't know. I guess I was hoping he was mine."

"Sorry, but you know as well as I do that Dhampirs can't have children together. Connor is Nick's father. He's the one who raised him."

"I know that. I was just hoping."

I looked at him. He looked like he was telling the truth. Maybe I should just tell him. What's the harm in telling him? Wait, now I remember. He left me…for her. I got angry all over again.

"You know if you want children, why don't you just go have some with Tasha. Isn't that why you left me in the first place?" I started walking away.

"What? Tasha? No, Roza, wait!"

"No! I don't want to hear it Dimitri," I said walking into the building and up to my room.

I opened my door and collapsed on the floor. Why does he do this to me? Every time I think about him I always break down. This isn't strong Rose. I have to be strong Rose for Anya and Nicolai. With that, I picked myself up off the ground and started putting stuff away. I threw all my clothes in the drawers and in the closet. I came to a bag where all my photos were and started arranging them on the book shelf. There was a picture of the twins on the day they were born that Sara had taken. They were a couple pictures of the three of us in random locations. Then there were pictures of Connor and the kids and Connor and I on our wedding day. My heart ached from looking at pictures of him, but not as much as when I see Dimitri. After my room was situated I sat down on my bed and decided to take a little nap. Unfortunately, that wouldn't be the case. I woke up to a beach where I had on a one-piece red bathing suit and a darker red sarong that wrapped around the neck.

"Adrian, I know you're here!"

"Little Dhampir," said Adrian coming up behind me and sitting down next to me.

"What do you want Adrian?"

"Hmm, a little testy there?"

"Adrian! I'm really not in the mood."

I looked up and saw his face which made me guilty.

"Sorry it's just that the whole Dimitri thing is killing me."

"Precisely why I'm here."

I tried to give him the whole eyebrow raised thing, but failed ultimately. He chuckled.

"Your aura was different tonight. Ever since you left the academy you have had black around the corners. When you met Connor some of that black went away, but it was still there. When I saw you tonight, though, your whole aura was almost black. I could barely detect any other colors."

I looked out towards the ocean.

"He asked me why Nicolai looks just like him."

"And?"

"And I told him to get over himself. I told him that Dhampirs can't have children together and that Connor was his father."

"So you lied to him?"

"No, I didn't. I just said that he was being a little conceited and maybe Nicolai was just his twin. I told him it was a coincident and it was! Nicolai could have come out looking like me. I also told him that Connor was their father and he is. He's the one that raised him and he was the one who they looked up to."

"Rose, you may have used your words carefully this time, but what about next time? Are you just going to come right out and lie to him?"

"Why should I even care?"

"Rose, you know as well as I do that after he left you like that, you promised yourself that you would never lie to him or the kids about anything. If they asked then you would tell them."

"Yes, but they haven't asked."

"True, but I know you noticed how Nick kept looking over at Dimtri and Anya kept looking back and forth between the two. They may not know all the details, but you can bet they suspect something. I know the kids have never actually come to you and asked you who their father was, but they might have just done that because they saw how much it hurt you to ask them. I think you should tell them, Rose."

"I guess you're right," I said sighing. "I'll tell them tomorrow."

He smiled and leaned back into the sun.

"You know, I think that this is the most times you have said Rose instead of Little Dhampir."

He laughed and leaned back on the sand. The ocean and sun started to fade.

"I'll see you when you wake up, Little Dhampir."

I woke up to my alarm beeping. I slammed on the alarm button and got up. I had about 2 ½ hours until I had to teach my first class so I decided to get some training in. I took a quick shower and threw on a pair of black shorts and my black sports bra and grabbed a white tank from my drawer and went out to the track. I started on the track ran about 5 laps before I heard someone coming up behind me. The person jogged behind me then moved next to me. I smelled his sweet aftershave and had to remember not to fall. We continued running for another 15 laps until I stopped slightly out of breath.

"Wow, you still run very well."

"Just because I left the academy doesn't mean I stopped training. I had two kids to protect."

"Rose, we have to talk about last night."

"What's there to talk about?"

"About Tasha-"

"Really, Dimitri. I don't want to hear it right now."

"Rose! You can't keep ignoring what I have to say. Please can you just listen?"

"No, I can't."

"Why not?"

"Because you hurt me! I loved you and you left with her. I'm afraid that if I listen to what you have to say then I'll want to forgive you and I can't do that right now. I was finally able to live without you with Connor. He helped me a lot and loved me. It's still hard for me to live without him so I know it would be especially hard to live without you if I let you back into my life! So, no, I'm not going to listen. Now if you'll excuse me," I said walking around him towards the gym.

"Did you love him? I mean, the way you loved me."

I reached the gym doors and stopped.

"I could never love anyone the way I loved you," I said quietly.

I pushed open the door and pushed it back closed behind me.

DPOV:

"I could never love anyone the way I loved you."

How could I hurt my Roza so bad? It killed me to see her looking at me. There's so much pain and loss in her eyes. It's almost sad to watch her try to put on a brave face. I know she told me that Connor was their father, but I just can't shake the feeling that she isn't telling me something. The dinner last night didn't go well. At least, not as well as Lissa hoped.

*Flashback*

"It's alright. Yes, I did call you here. It's about dinner tonight."

"What about it? Tasha is coming back into town so I was going to have dinner with her."

"No, don't do that. Rose is coming over tonight for dinner and I want you to come too."

"I don't know Lissa. I love Rose with all my heart and more, but I know she won't like this at all."

"Look, she's not going to know until she sees you. Now are you coming?"

"Why do you want me to go so bad?"

"Dimitri, I know how much you love Rose. I don't know if she'll ever forgive me for not being there for her after you left, but when you came back and I saw the hurt it caused you when you found out Rose had left, I knew that I was wrong. I just didn't have the guts to call Rose. The coming Strigoi attack was my excuse for contacting her. I was hoping that if she fell back in love with you, then she would forgive me."

I paused for a second pondering all of this.

"Fine Lissa. I'll come, but don't think that Tasha isn't going to want to come and I can't very well tell her not to go see her nephew."

"It'll be fine. She can come. This night is going to be perfect!"

*End Flashback*

But oh was she wrong!

LPOV:

I can't believe Rose yelled at me last night! I know Dimitri was her first major love and everything, but he's just a guy. It seems she got over him anyway. She married the human. What was his name again? Oh yeah, Connor. She married him AND had his kids. So I don't get why she is so mad at me.

*Flashback*

I ran up the stairs after Rose yelled at me at the dinner table. I ran into mine and Christian's room and flopped on the bed crying. Christian came in and sat on the bed next to me.

"You must think I'm horrible."

"Liss, no. I don't think you're horrible. A little naïve and self-centered but not horrible."

"Thanks," I said sarcastically.

"Look, Lissa, you saw just like I did that Rose may say she's doing okay, but she doesn't look it. We both saw the pain in her eyes. The only times they ever had any light in them was when she was talking about the kids and when Adrian came."

"Adrian! He ruined everything. He wasn't supposed to come. I wanted Dimtri and Rose to rehash their relationship. How could he just come and gloat about how he's kept in contact with Rose and even visited her! I can't believe it. It's like he just slapped me in the face, Christian."

"I know you're just angry right now and you're not thinking straight, but come on! Stop thinking about yourself! What about Rose? She was hurt by the two people in the world that she loved the most. Hell, I'm surprised she even came back."

"Christian-"

I was cut off by a knock on the door.

"Can I come in?" asked Tasha from outside the door.

"Yeah come in," said Christian."

She came in and sat on the other side of me on the bed.

"How are you?"

"I'm fine. I guess I majorly screwed up in there."

"Maybe just a little."

I gave her a curious look.

"Look, I know how Dimitri feels about Rose."

"You do?"

"Of course I do. When he came with me he was emotionless and distant. It was like he wasn't even there. One time I just asked him what was wrong."

**Enter Tasha Flashback**

"Dimitri what the heck is wrong? You're so distant lately."

We were sitting on the couch while I had been attempting to make conversation with him for the last 15 minutes.

"I miss her."

He must have just subconsciously answered the question because he looked at me with widened eyes.

"It's Rose isn't it?"

"How do you know?"

"I've seen the way you look at her and her at you. You both love each other very much. Why did you leave?"

"Because I thought it was for the best."

"Go back."

"No, Tasha. I am your guardian now so I will not just go and leave you here defenseless."

"Dimitri Belikov, if you do not get your ass out of my house and over to the woman you love then so help me I will make you."

He didn't move until I grabbed his arm completely serious about making him leave.

"Thanks Tasha."

**End Tasha Flashback**

"Except when he got here, Rose was already long gone…because of me," I said.

"Yes, but why do you think that he's stayed here these whole 15 years?"

"Because I needed a badass guardian?"

She laughed.

"No. He stayed here in the hopes that one day Rose would come back and she did. So I know there is no way that Dimitri is going to give her up no matter what."

*End Flashback*

Christian and Tasha are right! I was being a self-centered bitch! I have to talk to Rose. I'll talk to her after classes today.

RPOV:

I walked into the gym and set up for my first class. It didn't start for another 45 minutes so I decided to get some more training in. I attacked the punching bag giving punches and kicks to it. I set up some of the dummies that Dimitri and I used to use when we'd train and attacked and staked each one. I went back and forth between staking the dummy and beating up the punching bag. I was so into it that I didn't realize my class came in until one of them coughed. I turned to see them all staring at me wide eyed.

"You guys might want to close your mouth. You wouldn't want bugs to fly in and make a nest would you?"

A few of them smirked. They all walked and sat down in the bleachers. I grabbed my white tank and put it on. I turned toward them. Okay, Rose, you can do this!

"Hi everyone! My name is Rose Hathaway."

A few of them gaped at me.

"Am I guessing that a few of you know who I am?"

One guy raised his hand. I pointed at him.

"You're Rose Hathaway. The badass novice who killed a lot of Strigoi, but you left before graduating."

"Yes exactly. Now I'm going to teach you a few moves that I learned from my old mentor."

All of a sudden two people ran into the gym.

"Sorry we're late," panted the boy.

"Yeah, we're still trying to get the hang of where everything in the school is and-" the girl stopped talking.

"Mom?" they said together.

"Yes. Now can you take your seats?"

They walked to the bleachers and sat down. I started setting up more practice dummies. I could hear people murmuring and asking the twins questions.

"Wow, your mom is Rosemarie Hathaway?"

"Yes," said Nicolai.

"Then you must be badass."

"Thanks, I guess," said Anya.

I turned back and taught them a spinning roundhouse kick that could distract a Strigoi long enough to stake him. The kids all got up and practiced the spinning roundhouse kick. After about 30 minutes I stopped them.

"Alright guys we're going do a little sparring. The object of this spar is to stake the other first."

I walked around and starting pairing everyone. I teamed Anya with a somewhat tall guy named Sebastian and Nicolai with one of the few girls in the class, Lara. When I had finished pairing everyone I let them spar. It was interesting to see them fight. Some of them were really good. I walked around correcting stances and giving tips to get the upper hand. I came upon Anya and Sebastian. She used the spinning roundhouse kick and easily staked him. She looked up and gave me a small smirk. I gave her one back. That's my girl. Show these boys who rules. I stopped everyone before it was time to go.

"That was great guys! Some of you are really good fighters."

They all packed to go. The twins came up to me.

"Hey guys."

"Hey Mom," Anya asked.

"We were wondering if you were okay," said Nick.

"Yeah, last night was, well, strange."

"Yes guys. I'm fine. But I do need to talk to you after school. Come to my room after your last class."

They agreed and left to go to their next class. The rest of my classes went the same. Everyone practiced the kick then sparred. I was anxious waiting for the day to end. When it did I rushed to my room. How am I going to explain it to them? I hope they don't get mad. I could just go "hey guys! You know my old mentor? Dimitri Belikov? Well he's your father." Okay, no. I can't do that. Just then there was a knock at my door. I opened it expecting to find my kids, but instead there stood Lissa.

"Lissa. What do you want?"

"I want to apologize for my behavior yesterday and 15 years ago. I was being a total bitch! I was so hurt and blinded by how I felt that I didn't even think about your feelings. You're my best friend and I shouldn't have treated you like that. I am so sorry. I love you so much and I can't stand to lose a friend like you."

By this time she was crying. Through the bond I felt that she was sincere about everything. She really did feel sorry about what happened. I ran to her giving her a big hug almost knocking her to the ground. We laughed and walked to the couch.

"Oh Lissa! He hurt me so much!"

"I know and I'm sorry I wasn't there for you, but I am now."

"Liss, there's something I need to tell you."

There was another knock on my door and the twins came in. They saw my tear stained cheeks and immediately came to give me a hug.

"Are you okay Mom?" asked Nick.

"Yes, but I need to tell you all something. Anya, Nick sit down."

They both sat down on the floor in front of me. Anya, Nicolai, and Lissa looked at me expectantly. I took a deep breath.

"When I was here at the academy, I had a relationship with Dimitri Belikov."

"Your old mentor?" asked Nick.

"Yes. Well he broke it off with me and I was so sad. I went to Lissa to tell her and well you all know what happened." Lissa looked down ashamed. I squeezed her hand. "Well when I went to Dimitri and Lissa, it was to tell them something that I didn't even think was possible. I went to tell them that I was pregnant."

"Wait, you slept with Dimitri?" asked Lissa.

I nodded.

"You slept with your mentor?" asked Anya.

I nodded again.

"Then that means that our father is-" said Anya.

"Dimitri Belikov."

"Did he know?" asked Nick who finally spoke.

"No."

"Well why not?"

"I couldn't let him back into my life. Then when you were 5 I met Connor and well I didn't think I needed to tell him. Plus whenever I asked you if you wanted to know, you said you didn't need him."

"We only said that because we knew how much it hurt you to know!" shouted Nick.

"Nicolai-"

"No!" he yelled storming out of the room.

Anya ran after him. I turned to Lissa and cried into her shoulder.

"No wonder you were so sad. I'm so sorry Rose. I wish I had listened. At least if I had you would have found the courage earlier to tell them. I'm so sorry."

NPOV:

I can't believe this! How could she do this to me?

"Niko," said Anya using a nickname she hadn't called me since we were little.

She ran up to me.

"How could she do this? I always thought that our father knew about us and just decided to leave Mom. But to know that he didn't even know about us makes me mad!"

"Niko, you saw how much it hurt Mom! She must have loved him so much. Then he just left her."

"You're right Anya. I should go apologize to Mom."

Anya gave me a hug.

"Are you guys okay?"

I turned to see Dimitri standing there looking concerned. Wait, no I saw my father standing there looking concerned. I walked up to him and socked him in the face.

A/N: So I hoped you liked it. I'm going to try to put up the next chapter like tomorrow or Wednesday. If it's not up by then you'll have to wait till next Wednesday at least because Thursday is my birthday and it's also the day I'm going on vacation and we won't be back till next Monday or Tuesday. So let's make a deal...if I get at least 60-70 reviews by tomorrow then I will push my brother off the computer and write write write the next chapter. Deal? Review please