My One True Hell
Chapter 4: Therapy
Jeice lay unconscious in Gohan's cave, his face some what in pain. Gohan was sat beside him with a wet cloth to clean up his wounds. The alien hadn't stirred since he found him the night before, but since he was already dead, Gohan wasn't too worried about his condition. The confused saiyan buried his head in his hands and sighed, running his fingers through his hair. He couldn't get Cell out of his head; he was everywhere. Whenever he thought back to training in the wilderness with Piccolo, he was randomly there; his eleventh birthday; on Namek...
And how was he supposed to face Cell now after throwing himself at him like that? Why did he try to kiss him? He hated him... he was confused by his saiyan instincts, which seemed to be growing each day. Gohan was brought back from his thoughts as he heard Jeice groan as he woke up clutching his head.
"Oh man... "
"Jeice?"
Jeice looked up to see Gohan next to him. He shot up instantly.
"Where is he?" he panicked. Gohan grabbed hold of him before he ran.
"It's okay, you're safe here!"
"No. He's outside!"
Gohan glared towards the entrance, immediately sensing the tyrant as well. He'd seen Jeice scared before, but never like this.
"Go and meet Burter, I'll watch your back."
Jeice ran out and flew off as fast as he could, Frieza soon caught sight of him and chuckled under his breath.
"Now I've got you!"
Frieza just left the ground until his tail was grabbed from behind him.
"What?!"
The alien was thrown to the ground. He looked up in horror to see an angered Gohan standing in front of him.
"You thought that was funny did you?" said the saiyan in an even tone. Frieza backed away on his elbows in sheer fright. "I don't need this crap from you as well as everybody else, so I'll make this quick!"
He dragged Frieza up onto his feet and Gohan's anger was suddenly unleashed through two powerful punches to Frieza's face and stomach.
"You go near him or his friends again, than I will personally make sure you never walk again," he said quietly and calmly. Gohan dropped Frieza onto the ground and left him coughing on all fours. Gohan had bigger fish to fry. It was time for his training session, but facing Cell again was more than he could handle...
Gohan landed where he and Cell had trained. There wasn't much left of it really, it was mainly just rock, no plants or water. Gohan was used to it as he felt that everything he touched was going to die. Then he noticed something. Cell was never late. Where is he?
Gohan was on the floor on his front half a second later. I throbbing pain in the back of his head told him where Cell was.
"You're getting slow, boy!" said the android, pacing a foot on Gohan's back to keep him on the ground. "I thought you weren't going to show up. It seemed like you were in a hurry when you left yesterday."
Gohan hadn't heard a word. He was too busy trying to get himself on his feet. Cell smirked as he watched him squirm beneath him, and released him. Gohan was about to get up until he was kicked onto his stomach.
"Still thinking about me, huh?" Cell sneered. Gohan didn't look at him. He sat up and spat out some blood to the side - a bad habit. Gohan didn't have time to rest as Cell dragged him up by his hair and held him face to face; luckily, since Cell had shrunk, the boy's feet were still just about on the ground. "You're so weak, and you're willing to give in," the android whispered. Gohan's bad habit came back, and without even thinking, the demi spat in his face.
Cell's face suddenly lost all expression, but his eyes suddenly looked fierce and Gohan's bloody saliva ran down his cheek. Gohan's heart skipped a few beats as he realised what he'd just done. He was suddenly thrown into the wall full force. Gohan's vision tripled, but he hardly had anytime to come round as Cell began to ruthlessly beat him again.
Jeice felt relieved when he flew back from training. He sensed no danger coming towards him. The kid must have done a number on Frieza! How the hell am I going to repay him for this?
He landed in front of Gohan's cave and walked in. Something was wrong. It's been over seven hours ... he should have been back by now.
Gohan woke up, only realising where he was a few seconds later . Cell was standing a few feet from him looking in the opposite direction. He seemed to have calmed himself down. The boy sat up rubbing his head.
"Why are you still here?" he asked the android. He didn't bother bringing up what just happened.
"I've been thinking. For a while now... "
"How long was I out?" Gohan was still drowsy.
"About four and a half hours... "
"What... aw man... "
"So... about yesterday."
"What about it?" snapped Gohan, still embarrassed about trying to kiss him... and also partly disgusted with himself.
"Throwing yourself at me," said Cell, almost mockingly, though after thinking about it, he wished to explore Gohan's impulsive behavior more.
"I didn't know what I was doing... "
"Clearly," sneered Cell, looking at Gohan oddly as he stood up.
"I've never done that before... " he said, walking over to sit down on a rocky structure.
"What made you want to?"
"Stop trying to analyze me!"
"Just answer the question... "
"I don't know... " replied Gohan. "I just wanted to feel something. Something that wasn't pain or sadness."
"And trying to kiss me was going to solve all your problems, was it?"
"I guess not... "
Cell's curiosity was peaked; Gohan was clearly confused at the moment. He was still just as angry as he was when he first arrived in Hell, but it was as if he was attempting to find some kind of temporary fix since dying hadn't given him the peace that he longed for. He was doomed to feeling like this forever if he didn't find a way to stop it. The android walked over to him, sitting beside him, but leaving a good amount of space between them.
"Bottling it all up doesn't help either. You should know that more than most."
"What is this... a spar or a therapy session?"
"Neither at the moment," said Cell calmly. "Why did you kill yourself?" Gohan raised his eyebrows... that was the first time anybody had asked him.
"It all just got too much."
"What did?"
"Life."
"What was so stressful that you had to end it? Isn't the planet enjoying an era of peace since you got rid of me?"
"I was... am depressed," answered Gohan, since he still wasn't feeling any better. "A combination of all the crappy things that happened in my life accumulated when my dad died, and caused depression. It's a mental illness. I've had it for four years, and I can't get rid of it. So now I'm here... and talking to you about it, the first person I've really opened up to about it is one of the main contributions to my state of mind."
"And you tried to kiss me because... "
"I needed to feel wanted," he said. "Because drinking, drugs and self harm aren't working anymore."
"Why me?"
"What?"
"Why come to me? Why not Jeice? You two are pretty friendly."
"It's not as simple as that... " said Gohan, trying to explain something he, himself, didn't understand that well to an android.
"Of course it is."
"I guess... it's because I know that you aren't afraid to hurt me - "
Gohan was suddenly yanked forwards, freezing when he felt Cell's lips against his. He paused for a second, getting his head around it. The hand on his shirt loosened it's grip until he calmed down a little more. Gohan found himself responding, his brain switching off at last. Cell was taken aback by how Gohan's lips pressed against his own, it was odd. They broke apart after a few more seconds.
"Um... " Gohan felt weird, pleading with himself not to start blushing when Cell looked at him again.
"Did it work?"
"Huh?"
"Do you feel better?"
"A little awkward if I'm honest... "
"It took your mind off everything else though didn't it?" said Cell. This was indeed interesting. He'd never kissed anybody before now, never necessarily having a sexual interest in anybody. He didn't need to.
"Well... yeah," said Gohan, still dazed from the whole experience.
"Was that your first kiss?"
"Um, no. Second," he answered. "Can't really remember my first, I was pretty out of it."
"Was that all you wanted? A kiss?"
"I don't know... yes, but I... "
"You wanted more?"
"I don't know!" said Gohan, feeling more awkward by the second. But he found himself asking Cell something that he never thought he would. "H-have you ever... uh... "
"What?"
"Have you ever had sex?"
"No," replied Cell passively. "Have you?"
"No... can you have sex?"
"I can... where is this going exactly?" asked the android, curious to know what was going on in his head.
"U-uh... " Gohan shut down completely, stopping himself right there. What the hell am I doing? Cell smiled at him deviously.
"Do you want to?" asked Cell, intrigued by the fact that Gohan was slowly coming round to the idea. Gohan simply rolled his eyes and shrugged nervously. "You're tempted aren't you? To know what it feels like? I know I am."
"Maybe... " said Gohan, finding his voice again. His face suddenly flushed red at the idea. His heart was pounding hard against his sternum. He scooted closer to Cell, who kept a close eye on him. The android was waiting for him to make the first move, not wanting to be the one to blame for whatever was going to happen - he wanted this to be all Gohan's doing.
Gohan hesitantly closed in, pressing his lips against Cell's, causing the android to flinch a little at the foreign sensation of being kissed. Cell did in fact know what he was doing, since he was made up from many different lifeforms, including humans - and saiyans; from the cells he had from humans, he had the enough knowledge on what to do when it came to intimacy, and from Goku and Vegeta, he understood Gohan's sudden urges, wanting to explore it.
Gohan kissed him once cautiously... then took what little experience he had with his first kiss; it was with a drug dealer that he literally just met one night. He offered drugs to Gohan, which he promptly took, before the man took advantage of Gohan's drunken state. It didn't go any further, however - Gohan knew the man's true intentions, and beat the living daylights out of him before stealing the rest of his stash and taking off.
Cell took hold of Gohan's chin gently, titling his head and allowing him to carry on from there. Gohan's eyes fell shut, his mouth began opening and closing slowly until Cell began to do the same. The kiss became more heated and prolonged. Gohan felt his heart beating so hard that he thought it was trying to break out of his chest. This was the rush he was looking for... his escape.
The android's hand was on the side of his face, Gohan covered Cell's hand with his own, holding it as he began introducing his tongue tentatively. Cell was inwardly laughing to himself at how easily Gohan was giving in to his own impulses. He felt Gohan's tongue enter his mouth and slide against his own, not meaning to react vocally to it.
It seemed to spur on Gohan on further. He didn't really taste of anything, but enjoyed the feeling of being close to someone... closer than he'd ever been. He slid his hand up Cell's arm and to his shoulder. As the android felt that Gohan was comfortably in his grasp, he began kissing him more aggressively, pulling the boy towards him by his waist. As expected, Gohan felt another, stronger adrenaline rush, riding with it until he finally pulled back.
"Uh... " Gohan didn't know what to say, knowing full well that he was blushing terribly... and oddly turned on by what just happened.
"Was that all you wanted?" asked Cell, coaxing him in deeper. Gohan shook his head nervously, staring at him with an entirely new look in his eyes... he must have wanted it bad. "Tell me what you want." Gohan remained silent, shaking from the ferocity of his heartbeat. He was right next to Cell, he still had his hand on his shoulder.
Without saying anything, Gohan suddenly stood up in front of him, putting his hands on both of Cell's shoulders before climbing onto his lap and straddling him. It was an unexpected move from Cell's end, who instinctively rested his hands on Gohan's hips. He took a good look at Gohan's body, diving into his memory banks and coming up with various things that he could do to it.
Gohan kissed him again, bending his head down to meet Cell's cold lips yet again. He pulled back with a gasp when Cell moved hands up and down his thighs.
"Don't be shy. Just do what you want. Nobody's going to stop you," he said slyly, encouraging Gohan out of his comfort zone. Cell slid his hands up the outside of his thighs. Gohan took some initiative and lifted himself a little to allow him to carry on; he felt another rush as hands began to squeeze his backside intimately. Gohan seemed to like it, but he was secretly putting off letting his arousal be made known. He felt his pants getting tighter, which Cell noticed.
The android chose to leave him be for the time being, however.
"Do you want this?" he asked quietly, his hands still feeling around him. Gohan's breathing increased as he closed his eyes. He felt one of Cell's hands leave him for a second before coming back and slapping his behind... a little too hard. Nevertheless, it coaxed a sensual noise out of Gohan that caused a reaction within Cell, and the android's own needs began creeping up on him. "Do you?"
"Yeah... " he answered diffidently.
"Then fight me for it... "
"Huh?"
"You heard... " Cell lifted Gohan off him and stood up, shrugging off his own sexual urges that had made an appearance. "Give me a decent fight... and I'll give you want you want."
Jeice snapped out of his day dream when he saw Gohan land near his cave.
"Hey Gohan!"
Gohan looked up as he saw his friend running towards him.
"Hey," he said with a smile. He was even more confused than he already was when Jeice suddenly embraced him in a 'manly' hug.
"Thanks for everything, mate! I don't know how I would've survived down here without you!"
"No problem!" Gohan smiled again.
"I guess things always sort themselves out when there's somebody there who can help it get better."
An odd statement coming from somebody as brainless as Jeice, but Gohan took that into account at the alien walked away. Then he had a thought. He looked at his hand then curled it into a fist. Looking to his left, he realised what he wanted to do. He suddenly transformed and flew in Cell's direction.