Hey readers I am back again after many stressful weeks of school. I finally have time on my hands to post another chapter of my wonderful story. Hope everyone enjoys it. Thanks.

Disclaimer: I do not own any Scrubs or anything associated with it. Please don't sue me because I already owe the Student Loan People and I can't afford a lawsuit.

A/N Thursday's episode of Srubs made me so mad, that I couldn't think straight for the rest of the night. I mean what kind of woman lies about a miscarrige to a wonderful guy like J.D. Now I see why you authors like to write stories about her dying, she deserves it. Kim must die ;)

Chapter 4- My I Love You's

Three months after the Jordan incident, after Perry told her about him and J.D, he and J.D had decided that they were going to their relationship slowly or rather Perry decided it. Having been with Perry for almost four months, J.D was sure that he was in love with Perry and did not know how to show it. Perry who just was not good at showing any type of emotion was okay with this but J.D was having a hard time. He knew for a fact that he was in love with Perry but he just did not want to say it out loud in fear of losing him. Having being with Perry for such a short period of time but knowing him longer, he became used to all his quirks and pet peeves and he soon realized everything ticked the doctor off. Especially anybody who talks about their feelings. J.D finally found his bravery and was going to tell Perry exactly how he felt, and just hoped that he would not explode or worse get blown off. Lying in the on call room, he jumped up when he heard someone come in. Breathing a sigh of relief when he realized that it was Perry, he laid back down on the bed.

"What are you doing in here Samantha, shouldn't you be doing something like I don't know your job," Perry ranted as J.D put the pillow over his head.

"I'm on my break and I am working a double shift so lay off will you." J.D grumbled.

"Wow Delia when did you finally decide to grow a pair." Perry smirked as he laid down on the bed beside J.D and wrapped his arms around him and kissed him softly.

"Will there ever be a day when you won't refer to me by a girl's name. I mean I thought that once we go together you would be nicer to me." J.D grumbled as he snuggled closer to Perry's chest.

Perry pulled away from J.D and looked at him like he had lost his mind. Why would he assume such a ridiculous thing? There was nothing anybody could do to change him, no matter what they did. "I sorry Stephanie, but have you met me before."

J.D sighed when he realized that Perry would never change no matter who he was in a relationship with. "You know what you're right, I shouldn't even bother." he replied as he rolled over away from Perry and looked up towards the ceiling.

"That's right you shouldn't now how about you get up off your ass and help me with this lupus patient."

"Is this your discreet way of telling me that you want to spend more time with me?" J.D grinned as he got up off of the bed.

"No, I just need you to handle this patient for me while I go eat."

"Oh" J.D sulked. "Fine, since you asked so nicely, I guess I can take it for you."

"Great Newbie" Perry smirked when he got up off the bed and gave J.D a passionate kiss before he left. "See you later Cindy" Perry replied as he began to walk out of the room.

Watching Perry leave out of the room, he decided that now was the time to tell him how he felt.

"I love you," J.D stuttered out to Dr. Cox but he was already to far gone because he did not even turn around to acknowledge what he said. "Maybe he didn't hear me," J.D thought to himself as he went to check on the patient.

Perry heart began to beat so horribly fast in his chest, that he could hear the heartbeat in his ears. He could not be sure but he could have sworn that J.D had said that he loved him. Love, was the kid serious; Perry hated telling people that he loved them, hell he did not even know if he loved J.D yet. True he was the happiest that he had ever been since he started going out with J.D but love, that was such a strong word. Hopefully J.D would not bring it up again for another four months, maybe Perry would be in love with him by then. Shaking his head, Perry made his way to the cafeteria to eat the crappy food.

Later on that day, J.D was sitting in his apartment decided on what he wanted to eat. Having worked a thirty-two hour shift, he had not been able to settle down and really eat anything. After about thirty minutes of deliberation, he decided to go out to a local restaurant down the street. Writing a note for anybody who came by looking for him, he hoped into his car and drove off. While he was driving, his mind wondered to Perry and he began to wonder if he would ever tell him how he really felt about him.

"Probably not, but I can live with that." J.D thought to himself as he turned the corner. In the mist of his thinking, he heard his cell phone ring in his pocket, so he reached down to pick it up and see who it was but he already knew who it was because he had a special ring tone for all of his friends. This ring tone was from the TV sitcom from Cheers, only his favorite show ever. Because he was occupied with reaching for his phone, he did not see the car that ran the red light, impact with his driver side of his car swerving him right into a phone pole. Feeling the blow of the car hit the side of his door, his head hit the steering wheel hard and he dropped the phone on the floor, as he was knocked unconscious. As the phone hit the ground, the caller id flipped up and showed the number that was calling as being Perry Cox.

Perry let the phone ring for about five times until he got J.D's ridiculous voice mail. It was about one minute long of him and Turk singing on it. Grumbling after he closed his phone, he went to the cafeteria and sat down at the table alone. He had been thinking about what J.D had said to him earlier and he had figured out what he was going to do about it. A couple of minutes later, he looked up and Carla and Turk joined him.

"Hey Perry." Carla smiled as she and Turk sat down.

"What do you two want?" He grumbled as he put his head in his hands.

"Wow, grumpy much" Turk smirked as he bit into his hamburger. "Anyways, dude have you seen J.D around, I tried calling him like three times already but he hasn't answered."

"Does it look like I carry him around in my back pocket?" Perry snapped.

"Sorry"

"Okay Perry, what's wrong with you. Are you and J.D fighting?" Carla asked.

"No we are not fighting" Perry replied. "but I do think that he's ignoring me."

"Why"

"Do I really have to tell you?"

"Do you want some advice on how to fix it?" Carla replied.

"Because he told me that he loved me and I didn't respond," he replied in a fast breathe.

"Dude you didn't say anything back." Turk answered with a mouth full of food. "Yep he's mad at you."

"Why am I even talking to you Ghandi, I don't even like you."

"Because you are with my best friend, and we are a packaged deal. It's buy one get one free"

"It really is true" Carla imputed. "I wouldn't be here if J.D didn't approve of me."

"Look J.D is an emotional guy. He thrives for approval and love from others, if you had the childhood he had, you would too."

"But that is just not me, I don't do emotions, I hate them. I hate my own emotions from time to time." Perry grunted.

"So tell J.D that you are uncomfortable saying things like that to him. I'm sure that he would be a little upset but he will get over it." Turk reassured.

"How do you know?"

"How do I know" Turk scoffed. "How do I know, I know everything that there is to know about J.D so that is how I know."

"Fine" Perry growled. "I guess I will talk to him"

"Good" Carla said as Turks pager went off.

"Sorry baby got to go, 911" Turk replied as he got up and kissed Carla on the cheek and left out. Turk ran all the way to the surgery floor and was shocked when he got to the room. Lying there on the gurney was his best friend in the world bleeding out the side of his head.

"Dr. Wen, what happened?" Turk gasped as he began to scrub his hands.

"Car crash, been unconscious for about twenty minutes, I need you to hurry up." Dr. Wen went into the room and Turk followed behind him. "Dr. Turk, I know that this is your friend so if you don't think that you can handle this surgery then tell me now. I'll understand"

Turk looked at his friend and realized that he needed him now more than ever. He was a good surgeon and he would do whatever it took to save J.D's life.

"I'm in" Turk responded as the nurse put on his gloves.

Meanwhile, Carla and Dr. Cox were still in the cafeteria when a disoriented Elliot came up to the table. She had tears in her eyes and her hair was a mess.

"Elliot what's wrong." Carla asked.

"Did your boyfriend break-up with you because he couldn't handle your emotional baggage?" Perry smirked.

"No, I came to tell you that there's been an accident." Elliot sighed.

"Well why are you telling us, this is a hospital. We always have patients that have been involved in accidents." Perry replied sarcastically.

"Listen to me" Elliot screamed. "This is about J.D."

"What about Newbie."

"He's been in an accident, and he just got admitted to surgery."

Hearing those words Perry kicked his chair from underneath him and ran off in the direction of the surgery ward with an scared Carla and a distressed Elliot behind him.

Getting to the surgery ward and J.D's room, Carla and Elliot gasped at what they saw through the window. There was J.D himself lying on the hospital bed covered in his own blood. J.D's blood everywhere on Turk's scrubs while there was a bag of blood being pumped into him. Nurses were frantically handed the equipment that they needed to do a successful job.

"This is all my fault." Perry mumbled. "He probably wasn't paying attention because he was mad at me about this morning."

"This is not your fault Perry." Carla said grabbing his hand and pulling him into a hug. "J.D's going to be just fine, we just have to believe that."

Elliot was about to reassure Dr. Cox when her worst fear happened. In the mist of all the madness, they heard a sound that every doctor hated hearing. J.D was on the operating table and he had just flat lined.

Dr. Cox sighed silently while sitting in J.D's room, he had been there ever since J.D came out of surgery. Upon all this had to be the worst day of his life, and he had plenty bad days. Seeing J.D hooked up to all those machines, crushed his heart and made it ache with pain. When he heard that J.D had been in an accident and he was hurt, a sudden pain shot through his heart and it wouldn't go away until he saw J.D's eyes flutter open. The only sound that could be heard was the heart monitor and Perry's sighing. Moving his closer to the bed, Perry grabbed a hold of J.D's hand and lifted it up in his.

"Now listen here Newbie, I know that you think that I didn't hear you this morning when you told me that you loved me but I did. And I know that you are probably mad that I didn't answer you but I have a good reason for it. I was scared, scared because I hate to love. Love has brought nothing but hurt into my life and I don't know if I want to have any more hurt in my life. I know, that's my problem not yours and I am happy that you had the courage to tell me because I sure as hell wasn't going to say it first. That's probably why you are in this bed, because I was too scared to tell you how I really felt. I'm sorry that I didn't say anything, that must have you hurt a lot seeing as how you are very sensitive about those kind of things. " Perry paused.

"But anyways, I figured something out. Seeing you like this hooked up to all these machines staring death right in the eyes, it made me realize……I didn't want to miss this chance to tell you how I really feel, how I've felt for a while now. I love you, I mean it, I really do and I wanted to tell you that to your face." Perry laughed when he realized he was in J.D's face. "I mean while you are coherent and so you can say it back. So you have to wake up so you can hear me say okay, so I need you to wake up. You can't stay like this, because I love you and I need you." Perry finally finished placing J.D's hand on his cheek which he was covering in his tears. "I really need you."

Carla came to the door to check in on J.D but paused when she looked through the window and noticed that Perry was already in there. Smiling a sad smile, she decided to come back later and walked away from the door.

For four days after the accident and the surgery, J.D remained still in his hospital bed. Because of the severe blood lose and head trauma, he had collapsed into a coma. Scared of what might happen next it was decided that nobody was to leave his side. They covered him in shifts, whenever somebody had to work; they made sure that someone stayed in his room with him. The whole hospital staff made sure his room had flowers everyday and there were dozens of "Get Well Soon" cards from them. Elliot was the one on J.D's shift and she was sitting in the chair right next to his bed. She had just relieved Turk because he had to do an emergency surgery and Carla who went down to the cafeteria to get some coffee. She was reading a medical journal when she looked up and saw that J.D's eyes were starting to flutter open.

"Oh my God J.D" Elliot shrieked as she jumped up from her chair and threw the book onto the other side of his bed.

J.D fluttered his eyes a little bit and moved his head over to face her direction. He tried to speak but his throat was dry. He tried to sit up too, but there was a pain in his stomach that prevented him from doing so.

"Elliot is that you," he whispered when his voice came back.

"Yes, it's me, I'm so glad that you're awake."

"What happened, how did I end up here."

"You don't remember"

"Elliot if I remembered, I wouldn't have asked" J.D smirked as he painfully moved his body upward.

"Oh yeah right." Elliot replied. "Well you were in an accident."

"What kind of accident."

"A car accident, you seriously don't remember"

"I'm starting to remember some of it" J.D smiled. "So how long was I out for?"

"For four days, everybody was worried about you."

"Where's Brown Bear."

"He had to go to surgery, but he has been here by your side for the whole time. You should have seen him; I never thought that I would see him cry."

"He cried for me." J.D asked.

"Yes, him and Carla. If you're wondering where she is, she went to go get some coffee."

"Oh" J.D whispered. He looked up and saw that Elliot's eyes were red and puffy and it looked like she had not slept in days. "Have you been here too?"

"Why do you ask?"

"Because, you look like awful." J.D smirked.

"It's all your fault" she smirked back. "You had me so scared that you weren't going to make it, that I cried every night. But now that you are awake, I guess I can start calling for payback" she smiled as she sat down on the bed beside J.D and hugged him. "I'm glad that you're okay" she said with tears in her eyes.

"Me too."

After a moment of silence, J.D finally spoke about what was bothering him. "What about Dr. Cox, has he been here at all."

"I find it absolutely funny that you call him doctor Cox, even though he is technically your boyfriend." Elliot laughed as she raised her head from her shoulder.

"He makes me and what can I say, he scares me." J.D sighed.

"Me too, he scared us all especially Doug" Elliot laughed. "Actually he has been"

"Pretty pissed off that Barbie here did not inform me that my patient was awake so that I could make sure that everything about him was okay. Like I had informed every person in this crappy hospital to do." Perry ranted from the doorway.

"I'm sorry Dr. Cox; I was just about to page you but I."

'Save it Barbie, I would like to talk to Sally here alone so if you could play Dr. Kevorkian on your patients, that would be just great."

"Okay, I'm going to tell Turk and Carla that you're awake." Elliot rambled as she ran out the door into the hallway.

"Hello Dr. Cox, how you been." J.D asked as he looked at Perry. He could see that the man had bags under his eyes and looked like he had not shaved in days. His hair was wild and shuffled everywhere and it looked like he had actually been crying. Either that or drinking, J.D could not be sure but it was probably because of drinking. After a long period of silence, J.D thought it would be nice to talk again.

"You're just a bright little ray of sunshine aren't you" J.D smirked as he watched Perry pace back and forth on the linoleum floor. "So are you going to say something?" J.D asked after about five minutes of pacing.

"Kiss my ass will you," Perry grumbled.

"Okay, I think I liked the pacing better." J.D replied sarcastically.

"I just have one thing to say to you."

"Now we're getting somewhere." J.D replied. "So what is it?"

"Don't you ever do that again you hear me." Perry grunted and yelled at the same time as he sat on the bed next to J.D.

"I'm sorry what."

"Do you know that you could have died, do you get that, in fact you almost died while Ghandi was operating on you? You had all of us scared to death that you were going to die. Do you think that we would be able to survive at this crappy hospital if you were not around anymore? And do not get me started on us. I finally find someone that makes me happy about this god forsaken life that I live and you almost die on me."

"Dr. Cox, I didn't mean for this to happen."

"Perry"

"What."

"Call me Perry"

"Really, but we're in the hospital." J.D said excitingly.

"Newbie, don't make me regret telling you this and be sure this is only a one time thing." Perry scowled.

"Perry, like I was saying, I didn't mean for this to happen. I guess I was not paying attention to the road, even though the accident was totally not my fault. Still, I was focused on telling you that I love you and worried that you didn't feel the same way that I wasn't paying attention to my surroundings." J.D rambled.

"I love you too." Perry interrupted but J.D kept talking.

"And I know you have so many walls built up protecting yourself from getting hurt that you don't understand emotions and I get that. I am willing to wait as long as it takes for you to admit that you have the same feelings for me that I have for you and I" J.D paused as his brain began to replay what Perry had just said to him. "Wait, what did you say."

"I said I love you too." Perry repeated.

"Why did you say that?"

"Because you said it to me in the on call room four days ago."

"So wait, you heard me when I said it to you."

"Yeah I did, but I didn't respond because like you said, I'm not good with emotions."

"So why did you say it now." J.D asked.

"Because seeing you like this." Perry began pointing to all the machines. "Made me realize that I have feelings for you that I have never had for anyone else before, in my entire life. And with the thought of losing you scared the hell out of me and I hated that feeling."

"So you said it because you were scared that I was going to die." J.D sulked. "Not because you meant it."

"Newbie I meant it, I meant every single word that I said. I love you kid, and there is nothing I can do about it." Perry smiled.

"Really."

"Really" Perry replied as he leaned forward for a kiss. But before there lips could touch, they were quickly separated by Turk screaming from the doorway.

"J. Dizzle" Turk screamed.

"Brown Bear" J.D screamed back as he pushed Perry off the bed and onto the floor. Seeing Perry fall, Turk jumped over him and flopped down on the bed and pulled J.D into a painful hug.

"I missed you so much man, you had a brother scared." Turk said as he still had J.D in a hug.

"I know man, I felt the same way." he replied as he pulled away with a huge smile on his face.

"Hey Bambi, I'm glad to see that you're okay." Carla replied as she kissed J.D on the forehead.

"Thanks Carla, I'm sorry I scared you all."

"Don't worry about; the point is that you are okay."

"Yeah man, I was so worried."

"You didn't have to worry man; you know I would never leave my peeps." J.D replied sounding very black.

"Dude be whiter." Turk laughed. "Ah I missed saying that"

"I missed hearing you say it"

"And I missed seeing you."

"And I missed being seen by you" J.D remarked

"Oh for the love of God" Perry screamed. "Would you two girls just stop it?"

"Sorry but I missed my Vanilla Bear"

"And I missed my Chocolate Bear." J.D replied as they hugged again.

"I got to get out of here." Perry replied as he got up to leave.

"Where's Elliot?" J.D asked.

"She'll be back later; she had to go check on her patients. Kelso threaten to fire her if she didn't" Carla replied.

"So what type of surgery did I need?"

"Nothing big, just had to take out your spleen which was pretty ruptured."

"Well I'm glad that you did it Chocolate Bear."

"I wouldn't want it any other way." Turk replied as J.D pulled him into another hug.

"Hey guys, I'm still here," Carla said from the other side of the bed.

"Hey, Carla baby, do you think that you could leave so J.D and I could talk, alone" Turk asked.

"Sure baby, I'll be outside." Carla replied as she left out of the room.

Turk and J.D just stared at each other for a moment before either spoke again. "You know that you almost died right."

"Yeah" J.D whispered. "Perry told me."

"I was really scared."

"I know."

"I couldn't imagine my life without you."

"Same here" J.D smiled. "Don't worry I'm not going anywhere."

"You promise" Turk asked.

"For shizzle." J.D replied as Turk laughed at him

Carla had been walking around the hospital because she had nothing to do. It was her day off and Turk and J.D wanted some alone time, which she thought was weird but they were weird people. She walked down the hall and into the lounge to see Perry sitting there watching TV but there was no sound.

"Hey" she whispered as she sat down.

"Hey."

"How you holding up" Carla asked.

"To be honest, better now, that I knew that he was going to be okay but you know that for the first time in my life, I was scared."

"I kinda figured that when you threw that intern in the trashcan for telling you that you can't have just one patient.

"That was Kelso."

"I know but he still upset and he doesn't want anybody to talk about it."

"It was funny" Perry laughed and he paused. "You know I haven't had a drink in three days."

"What" Carla asked shockingly?

"Yep" Perry replied. "At times like this, I would have broken down and became a drunken bastard. But seeing him like that, I knew I could not. I didn't want him to wake up to a drunk me."

"That's what happens when you're in love." Carla replied as she rubbed his arm. "You give up things for those you love."

"I never expected to have so much love for a person that I would be willing to change things about myself." Perry sighed, "I guess I was wrong."

"Yeah you were."

"So why are you in here, I thought you would be trying to talk to Newbie."

"Turk kicked me out so that they could talk. You know sometimes I feel that they are in the relationship together and I am the other woman."

"I know exactly how you feel."

"Welcome to my world." Carla laughed as she began to watch TV too.

So there you have it folks, my latest chapter. If I disappointed you on the JD agnst I'm sorry. I already have another story filled with JDA and I didn't want this story to have too much of.

What does the future hold for this lovely couple

A past moment relived

A death (Not a major character)

A major fight

A break-up

A crossover with another major hospital.

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