Yikes! This took forever to write. No joke! So you better enjoy this! Lol, J/K. I'm pretty happy with it. :D I was listening to Lady Gaga while I wrote this. Lol, I got inspired by the song "Bad Romance", which is odd, considering I don't really listen to her.
So I finished BBS on super easy baby mode. It was epic! The last episode just totally killed me! You must play that game! It's the best out of the whole KH series. Even better than KH2!
Anyway enjoy
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Ch: 21 (I think-too lazy to check) Roxas, Namine, Sora
[Roxas's POV]:
How did this happen? Out of all the things that could have happened at this stupid party, I have to get locked up here? In this stupid sea shell bathroom?
I banged on the door, hoping someone would hear me. But I doubted it. The music was too loud anyway. Jeez how do these people go to the bathroom in this house?
I promised myself I'll give Hayner a nice good kick where it hurts when I get out of here.
I sighed loosening up the collar of my shirt and rolling up the sleeves. For some reason I had a feeling I'd be in here for a long time.
Guess I won't be seeing Kairi today. Wonderful.
[Namine's POV]:
I could have sworn I caught a glimpse of Kairi through the mass of people. If I wasn't mistaken she was wearing a rather short dress. Ha-ha! I smirked to myself at the thought of rubbing it in her face later on. I leaned against the wall and watched the people making a fool out themselves. Specifically Kairi's cousin Axel, who was currently waving his lighter in a majestic manner. Who invited him anyway?
Suddenly, I felt two arms wrap around me from behind and couldn't help but smile.
"Hey," Riku said lowly in my ear. "Want to go somewhere quiet?"
I pondered this. Well the music was getting a little annoying.
I turned my head slightly to glance at him before nodding. His silver bangs were covering his green eyes, but I was pretty sure he was smiling since his lips tugged upward.
He grabbed my hand and tugged me along.
I didn't know where he was taking me- or where he planned to- but he stopped altogether. I looked up at him to see him frowning. I opened my mouth to question his sudden behavior but he shushed me.
"Wait here." He said, turning to me with a tight smile. I knew something was wrong. "I want something to drink first. Do you want anything?"
I blinked at him, confused. "No, but-"
He was gone before I could finish.
Ten minutes had already gone by and there was no Riku to be found. I crossed my arms over my chest and tapped my foot impatiently. I was getting annoyed.
Not only was I alone; I couldn't find any of my friends in the mob of people, but I was also witnessing Kairi's cousin make a complete ass out of himself. Jeez seriously, who invited this guy?
I groaned out loud, and looked around the crowd of people. Where was Riku?
"Hey Namine!"
I turned around, only to be disappointed. Great. It was Seifer.
I could tell he was stoned, immediately. Why do people do that to themselves? Don't they realize they're hurting themselves?
"Hi Seifer," I sighed, crossing my arms over my chest. I could feel his eyes on me, so I turned away slightly.
"You know where that hot little friend of yours is?" He slurred, giving me a serious look. I had to stifle a laugh. Kairi wouldn't be too pleased.
"No I don't actually," I said appraising him with raised eyebrows. "Maybe she's over there." I pointed towards the front door. "You should go look for her."
His attention turned towards the direction I was pointing. His lips cracked into a greasy smile.
"Right, thanks blondie!" He muttered, stumbling towards the front door.
Heh, sucker.
I basked in my cleverness, for a few moments before Riku invaded my head again. It took only a few seconds before I was back to my brooding self. Honestly where was he?
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I decided to look for him, which proved to be a troubling feat. I was knocked and jostled around as I tried to maneuver around the dancing people. I even got elbowed, and when I turned back to tell them off, I got elbowed again. So by the time I got to the other side of the dance floor, I felt like some kind of veteran for surviving.
My eyes scanned the other side of the room, in hopes of finding the familiar silver hair.
I finally spotted him. He was talking to a girl. A girl I never seen before. I tried to get his attention but he seemed too enwrapped in his conversation with this mystery girl.
I sighed, before walking in his direction, but I stopped short when I saw him reach forward and brush her hair back. I blinked my eyes as if hoping that they deceived me.
It was obvious he was flirting with her. And it pissed the hell out of me. I frowned and gritted my teeth as he moved closer to her. But the girl backed up, and prodded him on the chest. I didn't register the fact that she was angry with him as well until a few seconds later.
"Why do you care? It doesn't matter." I caught her say. The music was really loud, so I moved closer.
"It does matter, because I missed you." He replied. "There isn't a day that goes by that I don't miss you Xi – "
The honesty in his voice sent a chill through my spine. I realized that he never once talked to me like that. In fact he's never even sounded as sincere as he was now to his girl. I felt sick.
My stomach was twisting and I felt like I had a spasm of cramps. My throat clogged up, denying me the right to swallow down the food I ate earlier.
What do I do? Should I say something? Who is she?
I needed Kairi. She'd tell me what do to. I looked over my shoulder in hopes of finding the familiar auburn head. But it was a lost cause. There were too many people.
I whipped my head back on the two when I heard the girl speak.
"Get over it. I can't believe you're still moping." She snapped nastily. Riku's mouth parted slightly in shock, as she turned around and walked away.
Riku bowed his head and slammed the wall next to him. I flinched at the gesture. But eventually summoned up the courage to confront him. Of course I would confront him. I was mad!
What the hell did he think he was playing at?
As I approached him, his head whipped up to land on me as if he sensed my presence. His eyes were cold and distant when they fell on me. He wasn't really seeing me- I knew it.
I shook my head, and glared.
"Riku do you mind telling me why-" I didn't finish. One minute I was glaring at my boyfriend and the next he was steering me away from the crowd of people and out the door. Immediately I was hit with the chilly breeze of the night weather. I tried to tug my arm away from him, to wrap my arms around myself, but he just yanked me harder.
"Riku, talk to me-"
"Shut up!" He finally said. He turned away. I could feel him shaking against my arm. "Who the hell does she think she is? Stupid. I can't believe her. What am I doing?" He turned his head to give me a cold glance. "Ugh, and I have to deal with this bitch."
"Excuse me!" I snapped, pulling my arm away with more force. His grip on my wrist tightened. Something flashed in his cold eyes as he studied me. It almost felt as if he was x-raying me. I felt myself flush subconsciously.
The next thing I knew his lips were on mine. If I weren't so upset I might have enjoyed the kiss. But it felt all wrong. His lips were hard and demanding against mine. I tried pushing him away from me but his other hand found my left wrist and held it down.
Finally he pulled away to glare at me.
"Riku, stop!" I snapped, struggling to pull my wrists away from him. His fingers felt like iron binds against my arms. He smirked, before crushing his lips back on mine. I could feel my teeth digging into the inside of my mouth.
He pulled away, and leaned into my ear.
"You're mine. And you have to do what I say. My little slave."He whispered. I felt a sudden eerie chill fall down my spine, and explode at my feet- causing that bone shattering frost spread through my had nothing to do with the cold temperature.
Suddenly I felt as if we were in elementary school again. It's happening all over again. My breathing got heavy as I began to panic. Ok, panic was an understatement. I was flipping the freak out. I could feel the tears starting to spring up.
Kairi! Where's Kairi? She'll- she'll help me.
Riku pressed his body against mine and I seriously felt trapped underneath a boulder. His body was so heavy against mine that it felt nearly impossible to push him off.
Then as if by miracle, his hand let go of one of my wrists to pull down the strap of my dress and I took that opportunity to pry my other arm away. Once I freed it I gave him one hard shove, and sidestepped away from Riku.
I stumbled back to watch him topple over at the missing weight. He cursed loudly as he slowly got to his feet. I looked around and noticed the hushed looks of onlookers. I couldn't help but glare at them.
Not one of these people could have helped me?
I didn't even turn back to see Riku straighten up. I was running back inside, looking for anyone. I needed to get out of here. I wanted to go home.
I could not believe what just happened. It still wouldn't process through my head.
How could Riku…
I looked down at my arms; they were red.
My eyes were burning as I pushed my way through the people. I felt my body tremble, my heart was still crazed and rapid. The look in his eyes. They were so familiar.
I didn't know if it was me or something I drank, but suddenly the room was spinning. I felt sick. And when people get sick they well…
"EW! This chick just puked all over me! This was a new shirt!" Someone I couldn't recognize complained. I stared back at them with unfocused eyes. But all I saw was a blurred image. The loud music made my head rattle.
I need to go home. I need to get out of here.
That seemed to be the only thing that made sense to me as I shook my head and continued my way. I needed to get somewhere- away from the front porch, away from the living room.
He'd find me. And then..who knows.
I finally reached the doorway to the kitchen bursting through it. I sighed out in relief. He wouldn't find me, through all that mess of people. I closed my eyes; the music wasn't that loud in this room either.
I felt a small prickle of sweat on my face. Just as I was about to wipe my forehead I heard a cough.
My eyes flashed open, head snapped up and I was met with Sora and Kairi. It was an awkward moment where they both just stared at me and I stared back.
"Um…ah sorry didn't mean to interrupt" I choked out, feeling my throat burn after I swallowed down the knot. I flattened out my dress, barely noticing how ruffled it was, and fixed the strap. My arms were stinging against the fabric as they brushed against it.
Automatically I held my arms together.
"You weren't interrupting anything," Sora spoke up with a detached voice. His eyes were blank as he turned away from me. That rejection only made me even sicker to my stomach.
"I'm still sorry…" I started hearing the desperation in my voice. I didn't know if it was for dumping him, or the situation I was in only a few seconds ago. I could feel my lips trembling and I tried to bite them down. I clamped my arms tighter around me, preventing the shaking.
"It's nothing." He snapped back. I felt my eyes burn again as I looked down. It was quiet for a few seconds until he spoke up again. "Do you want some punch? I think it's in the living room. A pretty stupid spot to place the punch huh?"
My eyes fell on Kairi, who flushed and averted her eyes from him. He reached forward and brushed her hair back, flashing her an endearing smile. Suddenly, it felt like my insides were twisting and morphing into something ugly. A monster.
It was screaming angrily at the two in front of me. I hated it. I hated seeing them together. At this moment I hated seeing anyone happy together.
I wasn't happy- why couldn't I be like them? How did I end up like this? How did Riku end up like this?
His name sent a tingle of distaste into the monster, causing an uproar inside of me. Before anything was said, he walked out of the kitchen leaving me alone with Kairi. I didn't trust myself, not now, not when I was an emotionally jealous mess.
I could feel her eyes on me. I knew she was noticing my expression and how twisted it was becoming. I closed my eyes and leaned against the counter behind me. I repressed a wince; I leaned on my arms by accident.
I hid my arms behind my back and coughed.
"He hates me; I know it," I said to direct the spotlight away from me.
"He doesn't. He just doesn't know how to act around you right now." She said with a forced tone. I glanced up at her with narrowed eyes. Her expression was tight as she smiled at me. It was so obvious that she liked him. I mean I knew for a long time already. It only pissed me off that she didn't say anything to me. The monster inside of me roared in approval at my anger.
Be angry at her. What kind of friend is she?
I blinked, abruptly pulling myself away from those blasphemous thoughts.
"You… you like him don't you?" I said in a surprisingly even voice. Her eyes widened in shock and she gulped audibly.
"What makes you think that?" She protested defensively. My anger flared, and my inside- monster growled for more.
"I'm not stupid Kairi." I snapped coldly. "I've seen the way you look at him. I've seen the way you turned away whenever he tried to get my attention or tried to flirt with me. Why do you think I'd always blow him off? Do you really think I could possibly reject someone without a valid reason?"
"I have no idea what you're talking about!" She mumbled stubbornly.
"You like him. But you like someone else too." I stammered.
That'll make her squirm.
I continued disregarding my thoughts. It all came out like word vomit and it wouldn't stop. Ugh vomit. That thought made my stomach twist uncomfortably. "Sometimes I wish I could knock some sense into you so you could choose already instead of leaving them dangling."
"Hah very ironic considering you've done the same thing with Sora and Riku." She snapped back.
"I already told you; I had my reasons to reject Sora, you should know that," I said coldly.
"But what's your reasoning on keeping them waiting like you did? Huh? Why did you take your time considering how you wanted to reply to Sora's request?"
"Maybe it's because you also have feelings for him." She added.
Lie! Lie!
I hesitated, my eyebrows knitted together and my lips pulling into a deep frown.
"I won't deny it, like some people. I did like Sora. But now I'm with Riku, so that's ended. But you're dragging this out way too long. Roxas is waiting. And if you and Sora keep this 'friendship' up he'll start waiting too."
Slowly her hard expression fell. Her eyes softened, and her lips trembled at my words. For a split second I wanted to rush to her and apologize, but I held my ground. I was angry. I was devastated and sick. But most of all I was jealous.
Jealous of Kairi. I was always jealous of Kairi, whenever it came down to it. She was everything I wasn't. And I hated that.
"I'm done talking with you." She said quietly –defeated.
"You can't keep this up forever." I whispered spitefully as she walked out of the kitchen.
The monster inside me purred in satisfaction, but my head felt queasy. What did I just do? My heart sunk as I thought of the last look she gave me. How could I have just hurt her like that? What kind friend am I?
My problems have nothing to do with Kairi. I shouldn't have just lashed out at her like that. The monster inside me protested against me.
She doesn't understand. She doesn't know what you're going through.
I brought one of my arms to my face to inspect. There were red marks all over them in the shape of fingerprints.
I knew immediately they'd end up being bruises.
I let out a deep sigh, moving away from the counter. I paced around the kitchen, enjoying the loneliness, but also fearing it. What if Riku just burst through the door?
Someone did burst through the kitchen door-though, it wasn't who I was expecting. His expression was twisted with frustration as he glared at me. His blue eyes were dark and I couldn't see any of the usual light cheery aura they usually radiated.
"What did you do?" Sora spat angrily, advancing on me. I bit my bottom lip and backed away.
"What do you mean?" I sputtered out, looking at him confused. He slammed his fist against the fridge, making me jump.
"What did you do to Kairi!" He demanded. "She's all upset."
The monster inside of me laughed at Sora, but I backed away, further. He was angry. Really angry. It didn't suit him.
"I-I just… I just talked to her!" I protested defensively.
"What did you say?" He bit furiously; his hands were clenched tightly at his sides. I flinched away and ended up backing up into the counter.
"I didn't say-" I started. Sora slammed his fist on the counter.
"Damn it Namine! Don't you play these stupid mind games with me I've had it!" He growled. The fear I initially felt disappeared, and anger began to burn inside of me, feeding the monster.
"What does it matter to you anyway?" It spoke for me. My hands gripped the edges of the counter tightly.
"She's my friend!"
I snorted loudly. "Yeah, right."
"God, you're condescending me when you've been a lousy friend to her yourself!" Sora defended. He was a few feet away from me and I was already backed up against the counter.
I flinched away slightly, but the hurt from that comment didn't completely extinguish my anger.
"A few months ago you never looked twice in Kairi's direction!" I spat.
"What is that supposed to mean!" He snapped. I felt my body tremble in mixture of fear and anger as Sora advanced closer.
"She likes you, you idiot! And you never gave her the time of day until now!" I blurted out. Sora paused, staring at me incredulously, as if I had three eyes. He backed away, that same shocked expression on his face.
"She- she what?" He stuttered.
I couldn't stand to be around him any longer. He was stock still as I brushed past him and headed out the kitchen exit way. All the walking started to make me dizzy again.
It wasn't long before I got sick again.
And then all of my lunch officially came out.
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[Roxas's POV]
I sighed, drying my face with the towel on the rack. I stopped short when I caught myself in the mirror. Pale and tired. That's what I looked like.
I studied my features. My blond hair- the way it fell in my face. Or my round face. Sora didn't have a round face. Maybe that's a turn off?
Maybe Kairi despises blonds? No that's not right- I mean her best friend is blond!
Maybe I'm just too pale. Sora's got a tan. A nice complexion that's what I need. I need to go to the beach… without a sweater.
I pondered this for the next few minutes. What did Kairi like? Did she have a specific type? Why did I never think of this before?
Kairi.
I felt like such an idiot blurting that out in front of the whole class. I love you. I love you? Who does that?
It was official; I made an even bigger ass out of myself than what I initially expected.
I sighed loudly, glaring at my reflection.
Then the sound of the door snapping open, and shutting turned my attention to what was behind me. My breath literally caught in my throat when I saw the familiar auburn hair. Kairi.
She let out a loud breath, and hit her head against the door. I shifted on either foot, wondering whether she noticed me or not. But she answered my question when her head whipped up in my direction. Her face flushed a deep red and she bowed her head.
"Sorry," She murmured, turning her attention back to the door. I watched as she reached for the doorknob and tried to open it. I would have laughed at the lost cause if I wasn't too shocked.
"It won't work," I finally said after finding my voice. "I've been in here for hours."
She swiveled her head back in my direction with a horrified expression.
"Are we stuck in here?" She blurted out, fighting with the door. After she was quite sure the doorknob was not a solution she was left to banging on the wooden door loudly.
"I've tried that too. The music is too loud." I supplied. Kairi ignored me at first, continuing to bang on the door, before turning around and slumping against it in defeat.
"We're stuck." She said lamely. I rolled my eyes; despite the situation she was still the same.
I turned around to stare at her with my own eyes. I couldn't help but let my eyes trail up and down her body. What was she wearing?
Her face flushed as she noticed me studying her; she wrapped an arm around herself. It didn't help much; my eyes were still glued on her legs- and her arms- and her chest. I felt my own face heat up with a blush.
"You look good." I coughed out uncomfortably, turning away and sinking down on the floor. But I quickly regretted it because it only gave me a better view of her legs. I closed my eyes, feeling a wave of shame and embarrassment hit me.
Good was an understatement. She was hot.
"I…thanks, Olette did it." She whispered awkwardly. I could feel the nerves radiating off of her. "You clean up good as well."
I looked down at my own attire. There was absolutely no comparison to what she was wearing. My shirt was rolled up at the sleeves and opened up after being in this stupid bathroom practically all night.
Yeah right, I thought.
"You should sit; we might be in here for a while." I said. She stared at me with a mixture of annoyance and surprise, before taking a seat. I looked away in fear that her dress would hike up, but I ended up sneaking glances.
She coughed uncomfortably, and started running her hands on the tile floor. God, I wished I was the floor right now. She peeked up at me, but then immediately glued her eyes back on the floor. I could sense how awkward this situation was. But I was glad.
"I'm not mad at you, if that's what you're thinking." I broke the silence, studying her reaction. Her head snapped up and she feigned surprise.
"Oh,"
"I'm not, really." I pressed, saying slowly. She gulped audibly and looked back down, starting to fidget with her dress. She was trying to pull it down, but it only made the top part sink lower. I looked away again, feeling my face flush. I looked back at her.
"I believe you," She answered honestly, continuing to gaze at her dress. On impulse I felt myself crawl closer to her.
"Then why don't you sound like you do?"I asked. But then realization hit me. "It's you isn't it?"
"Huh?"
"You're the one that's mad."
Her surprised expression slowly sunk into one of annoyance and anger. Her eyebrows pulled together, and lips formed into a pout, as she wrapped her arms around herself.
"You shouldn't say things you don't mean in public." She said sourly. I would have smacked myself at my stupidity. I was seriously an idiot for saying that in front of the whole class!
I knew she wouldn't like it. Of course she wouldn't. I not only embarrassed myself, I probably embarrassed her as well. No. I knew I embarrassed her.
She was still glaring at me with that brooding expression, which only made me blush angrily. I spoke up trying to hide the sudden change of complexion on my face.
"You think I didn't mean what I said?" I asked incredulously.
"I know you don't mean it." Kairi insisted stubbornly. I had to resist the urge to shake her. Was she serious? She thought I didn't mean it? What kind of confused idiot is she? Of course I meant it! I meant every word I said.
Sure that wasn't the way I originally planned on revealing my undying love for her (all poetic and stuff) but still it didn't make my feelings any less than what I felt.
"You don't know anything!" I snapped back, feeling the anger rise out of me. What did she know anyway? The hurt expression that flashed through her eyes sent me reeling over in regret. Crap.
I really do fail at life.
"I'm sorry!" I apologized quickly, feeling the urge to bang my head against the stupid sea shelled tile floor. "I didn't mean that. I just…" I sighed, reaching upwards, raking my hands through my hair in frustration. God I'm such an idiot.
"Roxas-" She started, but I quickly interrupted.
"Kairi," I blurted out, getting up from my seat, and sitting in front of her. She gazed back at me with surprise. Her eyebrows rose as she gauged my reaction.
This is it. Make this shot count.
I felt my face flush deeper as I sighed.
"I love you." I whispered, feeling my insides quiver. Her eyes blinked widely, as she stared at me with shock. Despite the bold proclamation, I felt my face heating up dangerously high. Her blue eyes darted between mine, and I felt my walls crumble down.
I didn't even realize I was closing in on her. My arms engulfed her in a loose hug. Immediately I was drowning in her sweet smell. Her scent was something herbal I couldn't quite place my finger on. It was almost citrus-y now, but sometimes she'd completely smell different. I pondered this. Maybe it was the shampoo she used-
"Roxas!" Her sharp cry woke me from my internal rambling. I felt her small hands trying to push me away. It hurt- I'll admit. But I tried to disregard it, pulling away and placing a brief kiss on her forehead. Her struggling stopped, much to my satisfaction. So I took that opportunity to wrap my arms tighter around her, trailing my hands along her back.
It was unexplored territory. And I absolutely loved it. She stiffened up when my fingers brushed the bare part of her back. It was so smooth.
I felt myself smile, when she eventually relaxed. I could get used to this. I definitely could.
"I adore you," I found myself saying. I had no idea where that line came from. But it was sincerely honest. "Kairi, you still don't realize how important you are to me do you?"
"No, I don't," Kairi squeaked, shivering slightly. "W-will you show me?"
I almost blanked out for a second.
Did she seriously say that?
"Show you what?" I pulled away suddenly to look at her face. She gulped audibly as she stared back at me. There was something shining in her eyes I'd never seen before. She was looking at me with a different kind of gaze.
Was it wrong of me to feel a twinge hope?
"Show me what you mean." She tried to reply calmly, but I could clearly hear unease dripping from her voice. My lips curved into a small smile as I felt my heart bursting with pride.
She wants me. She wants me. I can see it. I know it. Kairi wants me!
"I'm really glad you're here," I whispered, staring intently in her eyes. I tried memorizes each shade of blue in them- how they would darken at the edges and lighten near the pupils. "With me."
"Me too." She said softly.
My heart felt like it was doing the cha-cha; it was beating loudly. I was surprised Kairi didn't seem to notice.
This was all I ever dreamed about. I was with Kairi- in this moment- and for once there was something more.
So what if she rejected me before. We're here now- in this bathroom- and I'm holding her and she- she actually likes it. She likes this. She admitted it.
I looked at her. The way she chewed her lip slightly, the way her face flushed a dark red, the way her eyes probed mine with some kind of deep admiration. I couldn't quite figure it out yet- but for some reason it filled my stomach with butterflies. Whatever it was; it was a good thing.
She definitely didn't give Sora this look. At the thought of his name, made me frown involuntarily.
"But you don't like me?" I said automatically. That look immediately vanished to be replaced with disappointment. She averted her eyes and shook her head.
Nice going dumbass! You ruined everything.
"I thought we already went through this…" She sighed.
No. I'll be damned if this moment now is ruined.
"So you don't like me?" I pressed, disregarding Sora and her claimed feelings. I love this girl- so much. I'd do anything for her- she has that power over me. And she has the power to make me a wreck. Doesn't she realize that?
I stretched my arm out, to brush her cheek. More uncharted waters. But it was even smoother than it was in my dreams.
"Of course I do…" She muttered. I stared down at her. I was really close now- like I was before. Again, I could probably count how many freckles were splashed across her cheeks. "As a friend." She stretched out the last word, inwardly making me wince.
Friend. I hate the word, I decided.
"Are you sure about that?" I asked honestly.
Something deep down told me she was lying. I couldn't tell you how badly I wanted to believe that.
"I…I-"
"Because… sometimes…" I leaned in towards her ear. If I wasn't so driven to knock some sense into her, I most likely would have been a blushing fit. "It really doesn't seem like it."
I could feel her stiffen again, against my sudden closeness. Her face was warm against mine and I had to hide the sudden surge of pride I felt at causing this.
I'm making her like this. It's me. Not Sora- no one but me.
"I-I um…I don't…" She sputtered, unable to make a coherent statement. I pulled away to stare at her. I was right; she was as red as a tomato. Her face spelled out fright. I would have stopped, thinking I passed the boundary, but I couldn't. I knew I needed to make some kind of impact on her.
Giving her options.
Plus I don't think my body would appreciate being torn away from her warm one.
"Enlighten me, Kairi." I said softly. I'll admit I was laying it on thick with the whole seductive vibe. I didn't know I had it in me. Maybe it was just a spur of emotions. You know, being locked in a small bathroom with the love of your life really does stuff to a person.
My hands wound around her, and without realizing it, my lips were pressed against her neck. It was so warm! I felt her shiver against my lips, which only encouraged me to continue. Her scent was just filing my nose, sending me into an uncontrollable frenzy. My kisses were getting a little more crazed- my lips trailed everywhere. From the base of her neck, to her collar bone (I was still too chicken to attempt to go lower), until they reached her jaw line.
I was drowning. Drowning in her. And I loved it
"Roxas…I" Her voice brought me back to my senses. I paused, only inches away from her mouth.
"You were going to say something Kai?" I found my voice- slightly shaken. Her eyes were still closed, and her breathing was a little heavy- another wave of pride hit me. By the end of the night I wouldn't doubt my head would inflate ten times the normal size.
Kairi finally opened her eyes to meet mine and then away; her face a bright red.
"Stop this." She said in a small voice. "Its...It's just making things worse."
"You don't like it?" I questioned.
Yeah, sure you don't.
"No- that's…that's not it." She stammered, her face darkening by the second. "I do like it- more than I should, which is only making things worse!"
"How so?" I asked, confused.
"Roxas I like Sora." Kairi said. Just the sound of my cousin's name sent a cold nasty chill down my spine. I didn't realize I was slowly backing away from her. I could see the pain flash through her eyes at the mention of his name too.
Why did she still like him?
I felt my pride- along with my head- deflate in an instant.
"And you're saying you have absolutely no feelings for me?" I pressed trying my hardest not to sound desperate. I studied her as she turned back to look at me with that same look she gave me before. I felt something flutter inside of me. Hope.
"I am… a little attracted to you." She confessed shyly. It was adorable. I would have voiced my thoughts, but I kept quiet, listening intently. Keeping quiet didn't exactly keep me from smiling like an idiot. "But I still don't like you." She added stubbornly, when she noticed my silly expression.
"That makes no sense." I countered with a smirk, feeling the pride come back.
So, she still likes Sora, but it doesn't mean she doesn't like me right?
I leaned in towards her, aiming for her lips, but she quickly blocked me with her finger.
"Stop it please." Kairi begged.
"You don't want this?"
"I-I… I don't know- yes but no… I ugh," She sighed, pulling her eyebrows together in frustration. I could see the irritation etched through her features.
"I'll change your mind." I said finally, pushing her finger away, and pressing my lips against hers. The kiss still sent tingles reverberating throughout my whole body, like the first one. But what was even better was that she was actually kissing me back- wholeheartedly I might add.
But then she had to pull away.
"Please…stop," She breathed out.
"Just once more," I plead.
"Roxas I don't want to give you any false hopes…" She started. I felt my shoulders sag slightly at that comment. But I quickly disregarded it.
Lie! Lie! Lie!
"You won't," I lied. I reached forward to press my hand against the side of her face. It was still so very warm. She closed her eyes for a second; looking deeply pleased with my gesture, but in less than a second she pulled away.
"Roxas you don't get it!" She snapped angrily. "If this keeps going on…"
"I know, I know…" I snapped back.
"NO! You don't know!" Her voice getting louder, as her temper rose. "Maybe I should just leave."
"You can't, we're locked in here," I retorted, feeling a little smug at our situation.
"Well maybe I'll just yell my way out." She bit back spitefully.
Ok, she got me there.
She huffed, attempting to rise from her seat but I trapped her with my arms.
"Please just stay here… with me." I quietly plead. The anger in her eyes faded away, and her lips fell into a pained grimace. I could clearly see the guilt in her expression.
"Roxas I-I can't…I…" She started, but I cut her off, wrapping my arms around her again. Her body molded against mine- almost as if we were meant to be in some cliché movie.
"Kairi," I breathed, diving for her neck again. My nose pressed against it- smelling the sweet scent emanating from her smooth skin. "Kairi…"
She let out a breathy sigh.
"Ok…" Kairi said in a shaky whisper. "But… this can't leave these bathroom walls because I can't want more from you than friendship."
I wanted to say something against that. I disagreed with it. How can she even say that?
I loved this girl- she had my heart on the tip of her fingers.
The only thing I could do was pray she wouldn't break it.
x.X.x
[Sora's POV]
She- She likes me? Kairi actually likes me? Someone actually likes me? Ever since Namine dumped me I'd never once thought anyone could ever possibly like a loser like me. But Kairi…
I shook my head, pulling me away from my thoughts. I looked around; people were dancing wildly, the music was pounding and I couldn't find Kairi anywhere. I mean I knew she went to the bathroom, but she couldn't have been in there this long.
I sighed, climbing up the stairs. Why did I want to see her so badly now? Why was looking at her, or being around her so appealing to me at this moment? Was it because of what Namine revealed? Or had it always been there?
Kairi was there to help me get over Namine. So is it really unexpected for me to develop feelings for her? Do I have feelings? What were my feelings?
Kairi's face popped into my head, her nervous smiles, auburn hair, and quizzical eyes. I felt my stomach churn weirdly.
I needed to find her. To confront her at the very least. Yes. It doesn't mean anything on my side. If anything it's just a crush. Just a crush? Even that seemed like a big deal.
After stumbling over people who were randomly spread across the stairs, I reached the second story hallway. There were so many doors I didn't know which one was which. I walked to the one nearest pulling it open to find Hayner and Olette glued to each other. Without being noticed I awkwardly shut the door and started for the next.
But before I could open it, something collided into me. I whipped my head around to find Kairi's cousin –Axel- giggling like a maniac, flicking his lighter on and off.
"Hey hey! I know you! Hey kid! Wanna see a magic trick?" He slurred excitedly, waving his lighter in my face.
I pulled my eyebrows together and backed away carefully. Just the expression on his face was pretty scary. His green eyes were wide and bugged out. There was –what looked like beer- slopped down the front of his t-shirt.
"Uh…no…I was just uh- looking for someone." I stuttered.
"We're always looking for someone aren't we?" He said seriously, nodding his head. For a split second I thought he was sober but the drunken vacant expression graced his face again. "No but seriously, come here I wanna show you a magic trick."
This guy would never give up! I sighed, and face palmed.
"Ok, fine. Just wait here. I'm going to go look for someone."
"I'll be waiting!" He smirked cheekily.
Yeah, as if I'd want to even see what dumb stunt he'd pull. I continued with my search ignoring the obsessive fire freak behind me, opening the doors. I reached the last one, and yanked it open.
The sight literally made me gasp.
Kairi and Roxas were kissing. And not just the regular light peck on the lips. No. It was like a hardcore make out session. There hands were everywhere. I felt my face burn.
Kairi likes me?
No it doesn't seem like it now.
For some inexplicable reason I felt my blood boil angrily. My stomach flipped over uncomfortably and I had this sudden urge to yank Roxas off of her. He was taking her away from me! If he did that… then who did I have?
The uncomfortable feeling in my stomach quickly faded into nausea. I scoffed, before spinning around and stalking off. I passed by Axel, he grinned at me.
"Aw, why are you lookin' so down in the dumps?" He asked in a mock baby voice. "Come on I'll show you a magic trick it'll cheer you up."
I turned to glare at him. "I don't want to see a magic trick! Ok?"
"Nonsense," He laughed, before digging into his pocket. He pulled out a box of matches. He stuck his fingers in his other pocket and pulled out a flask of some unknown substance.
"What is that-" I started, but he pressed a finger to his lips shushing me. He popped open the flask, and poured the contents down over the rail. I ran to the rail and looked down. He poured it right on top of the t.v.
"Whatever that crap is, you're going to have to clean it up!" I warned. He scoffed, opening his box of matches. He pulled one out, struck it, and threw it down as well. I let out a mangled cry as I tried to snatch it away from him, but it fell.
And then the t.v. exploded.
x.X.x
Ok. That's it!
Next chapter might center around Namine again. I'm still not entirely sure. Or possibly Roxas. Hm, he seems to be a favorite amongst the readers. So ...who knows.
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