Chapter 4

We packed a light lunch and headed out. I drove while Jacob gave directions. Although my truck is slow…we arrived in no time. The beach was deserted…too early I guessed. Jacob said we would have to hike a little while to get to the tidal pools, so we set out as soon as we found a spot to park. I wasn't too thrilled, hiking isn't recommended for the uncoordinated, to say the least I stumbled and fell often. Thankfully, Jacob was very patient with my awkward pace and remained close to me to offer his hand when I needed it.

Once we reached the clearing, Jacob spread out our blanket and set up picnic basket. The scene that was laid before us at the tidal pools was breathtaking. There were several large craters teaming with sea life and rainbow colors from the pebbles, like the ones on the beach. I was completely enthralled by the beauty of my serene surroundings. Jacob however remained focused on me the whole time.

"Bella…" he started. "I have had a crush you since we first met and I made you that

mud pie. Earlier, when you declared your love for me…that moment, well it made me

feel like the happiest, luckiest guy on Earth."

I began to sob.

"Bella honey, what's wrong?" He asked worried.

"I don't deserve you…I'm not good enough for Jacob," I whispered. "I'm not whole, part

of me died that day…that day HE left me. I don't believe I have anything left to give…"

"Stop," he whispered softly. "Let me be the judge of what is and isn't good for me. I love

you and you love me, and that's enough for forever."

He grabbed a hold of the sides of my face so that he could stare deeply into my eyes. Then he kissed me…like no other kiss I've ever experienced before. This kiss had great passion, need, urgency, hunger… I grabbed a hold of the back of his neck to allow him to press closer…his tongue to plunge deeper. I moaned and gasped for air and so did he. The heat of our bodies together on the ground could have burned a hole in the blanket. We slowly began to undress each other. The heat of his rough hands felt glorious against my soft cool skin. Once we were fully unclothed Jacob sat up and stared at me.

"What?" I gasped.

"So beautiful," he smiled. Then he crushed his body on top of mine and began kissing me softly, trailing slowly up and down my body. My hands explored his body, running over the hard bronze muscles of his back and his chest. We continued this embrace for several blissful minutes, until he parted my legs and slid himself deep within me. Finally we were one, everything that had happened over the last couple of weeks became a blur. All that was important to me in the world was Jacob, my Jacob.

Jacob and I were still cuddling on the blanket when he suggested that we should leave. I was so lost in the moment that I didn't even want to move but I guess I had to. I didn't want remain so exposed. As we got dressed I couldn't help but to stare at Jacob's body. His skin was too beautiful and it kind of made me jealous. When Jacob saw me staring he couldn't help but laugh.

"Bella I love you."

"I love you more."

"We'll see about that…" He chuckled.

He pushed me down, lightly, and we started kissing again. This day could not get any better. That was until I heard someone calling my name at the same time Jacob's hand was going up my shirt. I pushed him away and finished buttoning up my shirt. It was Mike.

He was walking up and I guess he could see what we were doing. Damn it.

"Oh, um, sorry, I'll leave." He turned and started running. I'm sure he wasn't too happy.

"Well that's just great! It will be all over town now! Jacob let's get out of here before anyone else see's us." He nodded and took my hand as we walked back to my truck.

As we were diving home I started to think of what has transpired between us, and how so much had changed in such a small amount of time. I didn't regret giving myself to Jacob; I only hoped it was the right decision. I began to think of how being intimate with Jacob would bring him and I closer. I never knew that he could be such a loving and caring person. I was so lost in thought that I didn't even realize we were back at Jacob's house until he opened the passenger's side door. Once inside, we discovered that no one was home yet, so we sat on the couch together.

"So…did you enjoy the tidal pools?" Jacob asked, even though he knew what he really meant.

"Yes, it was an amazing experience," I blushed. We started to kiss again. I loved kissing him, he was so warm, and I just couldn't get enough. We curled up on the couch together until about 8:00pm. When I said I had to leave because Charlie would be home soon, Jacob let out a sigh. He gave me a hug and one last kiss before I left.

When I got home Billy and Charlie were in the living room with a pizza. I was too late to make dinner.

"Where's Harry?" My dad didn't even turn to look at me to answer my question.

"He left. What did you and Jacob do today?" He turned his head this time.

"We hung out down at First Beach and had a picnic by the tidal pools." Which was true… in a way.

"Okay, well I am glad you had a good time?" He beamed.

"Yeah, you could say that. Well I am beat; I think I'll head to bed," I tried to leave on that note.

"Guess you had too much fun in the sun today?" Billy added before I could turn to exit the living room.

I flushed scarlet at his comment. "Good night dad, good night Billy."

I nearly ran up the stairs to get away from the all the awkwardness. Charlie would surely pop a blood vessel if he knew what else I did today. All of a sudden I felt the overwhelming need to take a bath. So I decided to take a quick shower before heading to bed.