There's nothing left for me here
At times I used to think I could live like this
But now I know it's all just bullshit
There's nothing for me to look forward to now
Everyone is gone
And the evil has returned to haunt me
I had everything when this first happened
Yet I told nothing of anything happening
They found out on their own
Now I've told them my one true secret
And none of them will talk to me
Why should I live through this hell if there is nothing to see after it?
I shouldn't...
So I won't...
After this there will be only my memory
Perhaps people will listen once I'm dead
That is how it seems to work after all...
Nothing else makes any sense to me now...
Everything...everyone...all I had...Is gone
My life...my dignity...I don't even have that
I sit and acts like a garbage dump for men
Who would want to live like this?
I can never tell the man I love how I feel...The feeling is killing me...eating at my soul...
Secrets are best left secrets...but mine could not contain itself
Blowing up and spreading everywhere at once was its one wish
My wish was for it never to be known by any but two
A friend who found out and kept the secret...and me...
Of course it never works like that...so why did it work so long
It must have been so it could explode and leave a bigger gorge in my life...
All the dirt is being shoveled back in...
But while I shovel the dirt back in my life spirals down to hell yet again...
Innocence...is now something I don't have...something far out of my reach
Mine was stolen by the evil that haunts me...
Life...isn't worth living to me...
What's this?
You all come to my heed only when I am to die?
Maybe I should die more often...or perhaps I should have tried this sooner
Why are you all crying...I'm the one in pain...
None of you are doing this...so why sit there and act like it's such a big deal?
Each of you ignored me when I was still stable enough to be scared...
But now you all pay attention...because I'm taking my miserable life and throwing it away...
I already threw it away a while ago...
I dismissed everything I had to tell you all the truth...and you all crushed it and helped throw it far...far away...
So why are you looking at me like this?
Did I do something else wrong...right...I'll tell you...
I'm not innocent now...I have nothing left to look forward to in this wretched hell... I can't tell who I love how I feel...
Oh...look...he's here now looking at me...
I guess I told him then...Now I can die knowing he hates me or maybe he thinks I'm a freak...
Yes...He thinks I'm a freak...
This is how the story will end...won't it..?
Everything ending so miserably for me...and all of you starring at me like you'll remember me next year...
Idiots...You'll never miss...
Such a terrible thing...
A terrible thing that has nothing left to be missed for...
You...all...hate me...-