Last Lily-Angst Chapter for now, next time will be conflict and pain for all :D So I added a little present of a LIME at the end of this chapter to tease you all, enjoy :)

Hallways, hallways, and more hallways…Lily couldn't stop walking as the night went on, never ending. Darkness filled the castle and Lily didn't know exactly where amongst the halls she was, but she kept going, shoeless lest she wake the portraits, her legs aching, heart pounding, and shivering slightly, she walked. She couldn't stop thinking about Bellatrix long enough to sit down. Every time she thought of stopping, those demonic, chocolate eyes came to her mind and she kept going as if it would make everything better, but it never would. She had spent the weekend in her bed, thinking and unable to sleep. She was growing tired, but she couldn't get herself to stop imagining the dark woman and it led her to insanity, sleepless, insomnia-tic insanity.

"Who's there?" Snapping from her thoughts as she had been doing a lot more frequently, Lily looked up into the darkness. She contemplated running back to her bed and pretending to be asleep, but she recognized the voice and knew that she would be found out regardless.

"Lily Evans…Professor…" She said softly, in a guilty tone, hoping it would get her off the hook so she could continue her mindless wandering, but alas…

"What are you doing out of bed at this hour? Lumos." The teacher said and the dim light illuminated Lily's face as well as Minverva's. Professor McGonagall looked at Lily with a disappointed gaze as Lily's eyes moved to the floor.

"I couldn't sleep and I was hoping fresh air would clear it…but I got lost and I think I've been wandering for a few hours now." Lily said, looking around a little to find that she was by Professor Dumbledore's office. Interesting…

"Ms. Evans, insomnia is no excuse for carousing about the castle at 3 in the morning."

"I'm sorry, Professor…"

"Is something wrong, Ms. Evans?" McGonagall questions and Lily's eyes moved to the teacher's old face. She set her jaw.

"I'm fine." She lied. McGonagall shook her head and guided the redhead to her office regardless.

Lighting a lamp on her desk, McGonagall began preparing some tea. It was only now that Lily realized that the older woman was fully dressed and ready for classes to begin.

"Are you usually up this early, Professor?" She asked out of complete curiosity.

"When you're my age, Ms. Evans, you don't need much sleep." Minerva replied with a hint of humor and Lily smiled.

"You can call me Lily, Professor. I am just a student." She said gently.

"I'll call you Lily the day that you call me Minerva." The teacher retorted and handed Lily a cup of tea with sugar and cream the way the teenager liked it. (( Stalker haha just saying )) Lily giggled a little bit and thanked her before taking a sip. "So, are you going to tell me just exactly why you were meandering through the castle?"

"I told you, I couldn't sleep." Lily replied as she took another sip of tea. Minerva smiled.

"I know that much, but why can't you sleep? Horace told me that you had an outburst in his class and as Deputy Headmistress, I must make sure that the students are attentive in class." She said. Lily sighed a little.

"Severus called me a mudblood." Lily said and this caused Minerva to sigh.

"I can understand where that would trouble you, but any prefect like you would not be affected this much by something like that. Others have called you a mudblood before and you've heard the dirty term countless times…"

"I guess it affected me more." Lily said and shrugged.

"Then you wouldn't be shrugging, Ms. Evans." Lily smirked a little.

"You're more observant than my friends…" The comment caused a smile from the 50 year old woman across the desk.

"Someone said to me…that I like women…and it made me think and now I can't stop thinking about it. If it's true, if I like one woman in particular…if that woman would hurt me or feel the same way in return…" Lily frowned and gazed at her lap, not wanting to see the professor's reaction to her thoughts.

"I see…things like that, unlike your argument with Severus, are much more thought-provoking and difficult…Do you like women?" Minerva questioned gently and Lily's face turned pink.

"I don't know anymore…I mean…I thought I liked men…but…after you spend a weekend thinking about a girl this much…I don't know what to believe. I've been thinking about her nonstop for near three days…it just seems ridiculous…" She frowned a little bit.

"Mind saying who this girl is?"

"Bellatrix…Black…" Lily said and her name was like silk poison on her tongue. Bellatrix's venom stayed with her and never left like a black cloud over her head always.

"Oh my…" The teacher was in shock, floored by the object of Lily's attention. The redhead groaned a little bit and buried her fingers in her hair.

"But she hates me…but doesn't hate me…and she thinks I'm vile, but then she gets very close, close enough to…but then she's ready to murder me…but then…" Lily frowned, her mouth falling closed as she hung her head, ashamed.

"Lily…" Professor McGonagall moved to her and rubbed her back gently, unsure how to help, but suddenly, the overtired Gryffindor burst into giggles. She looked up at the confused educator and smiled.

"Thank you, Minerva." She said, almost teasingly and with a smile and shake of the head, Minerva stood.

"2 days detention, 1 for wandering during improper hours and 1 more for calling a professor by her first name." The teacher said and Lily nodded a little.

"I'll be back later then." She promised and stood.

"Go to bed, I'll write you a pass if you want to get out of class for the day." She offered, but Lily shook her head a little.

"I'll be alright." Lily said as she left the office and headed back to her dorm. After getting out some of her thoughts, Lily was able to curl up in her bed and drift off to sleep.

"Lily…" A soft, dreadful coo filled the endless abyss as Lily was straddled. The brunette above her leaned down, her lips barely an inch from Lily's, but when Lily leaned up to take them, they moved away.

"Bellatrix…don't tease me…" She begged softly as her fingers buried themselves in soft, green fabric. Bellatrix only laughed, kissing Lily's forehead. Lily whimpered lightly until a slap woke her once more.

That's a good cliff hanger for now :D More hopefully this week