Ch. 4 (Amaya)
Sadly, the hours we spent in Gun Gale Online all ended to dead ends. We ended up logging out around 2 am in the morning and passed out.
"Hey, hey! Wake up!" I felt someone Poke my face. As my eyes flew open, I saw Hayate's face smiling. Startled, I lifted my head too quickly though and smacked his head too.
"Oww!" I yelled rubbing my head frustrated. "Hayate? What was that?"
"Breakfast is ready." he mumbled standing up and lending me his hand. He looked away, but what caught me off guard was his expression. He looked, embarrassed?
"What's with the face." I yawned.
"It's nothing," he said in an even stranger tone. I smirked evilly and he began to back away. I grabbed a thick book and got closer. I turned the book over and smacked him in the head with it.
"Who are you?!" I pointed my finger a his face. His red cheeks faded, and all that was left was an annoyed expression. We both sat down and began to eat breakfast.
"I don't understand why we couldn't find any information on the guy," I said.
"It's not because you couldn't. It's because the right people just weren't online. Let's try again once summer break begins," Hayate said poking his sausage with a fork.
"Don't play with your food and that's more than a month away!" I yelled.
"I won't be around for a while and I don't want you getting yourself into trouble." he said looking me in the eyes. Sometimes I forget that he is two years older than me, taller than me, and most likely stronger, but I've never let that stop me before. But, this was one those moments when he gets dead serious and scares the living daylights out of me. I nodded obediently and didn't try to fight with him anymore. When Hayate makes up his mind about something, there is no way you stand a chance.
"Where are you going?" I asked as we cleaned up our dishes. He hesitated at first, and then said,
"Just going to visit some friends." He later explained they lived by the Power. Now, the Power was basically the people who ruled the area. Japan was once free but then the Power also known as the government began to take control.
Hayate didn't tell me much about his old line of work, but he told me enough to understand his main targets were from the government. They didn't believe in doing things civilized, more like the opposite. Giving other people the power to do whatever they wanted, just so they could receive their money. The public of course have no idea what's going on behind closed doors, but Hayate had and being trapped inside must have been like a vacation for him.
He left later that night, which left me alone for the first time since we left the hospital. I sat on my bed and looked out the window and watched the sun set. I thought of Saya for some reason, and everything she went through as a child and compared it to my own experiences. Living on the streets was good enough for me, but now that I have so much…why is it I feel like I am missing something?
This emptiness, the cruelty of other people…I usually just stored it away, but for some reason it all flowed out of me at once. I felt a tear form in my eye and wiped it away immediately.
"Wake up!" I yelled at myself, smacking my cheeks with my hands. I had to stop doubting myself, because if I did who would protect Saya? I grinned broadly for some reason, but as I continued to grin I felt tears stream down my face. "It's ok…you aren't alone," I said looking up at the now shining moon.
"Come home soon Hayate, don't leave me alone. I-I'm afraid of being alone again." I said this with an emotionless expression, but the tears continued to fall from my eyes. Throughout my entire childhood I was always alone…always. Although, now knowing I am surrounded by people who love me, how could I want to go back? Hayate was the first person to ever make me feel like this. This warmth…I want it to stay here forever. I held my hands over my heart and realized something for the first time in my entire life.I wanted him with me. No, I need him. Where did these sudden feelings come from? I hit my head on the wall in frustration. "This can't be happening to me," I thought out loud. I laid in bed thinking about how I would pound Hayate for doing this to me.